you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
eh.. were in okok mood today.. dunno y.. today went to skool.. so lame and tired.. onli looking ferward to playtime.. den in eng i tel ms yong i'm sick.. feel lyk wanna go sicbay liaos.. den "auntie" reali let me go.. lolz.. were simply doing nth in skool.. plzying all the while.. lolz.. and firlt wif saiful.. haiz.. nowadays.. [euu] msg me i also sian.. last time u treat me as toy.. lyk play liao.. sian liao.. go find others.. den cum back to me.. i dun wan b a victim anymore.. especially urs.. dun msg me bah.. if can we juz work together.. personal things.. i dun wan.. haiz.. reali need sum1 to luv me and dote on me.. wenever i saw how claron treated min.. mayb mine is saiful.. actually i dun luv him at all.. he was lyk a carzy guy hu cheer me up in my life.. not sumone i luv deeply.. juz wanna play and tats y..
i wanna him by my side til i grauduate.. or go to the same poly.. tat will b fun.. he's so caring.. but not my type anyway.. and today didnt study at all.. were playing in clz and sleeping.. cant take it liaos.. tired lah! den went to lot1 find zippo.. haiz.. poor gal nehz.. lolz.. muz work doubley liao.. saw a nice one.. but they say got no much difference.. wif a normal kinda and a zippo kind.. but i worry he might juz lyk the zippo brand.. and i got him a cheap one.. dunno wanna buy black or silver.. tired.. wanna study hard liaos.. dun wan kor kor haf a burden lyk me.. let me recap wad happened ytd bah..
were damn sad he treat me lyk nth.. but worry if i told him will he be sad.. so juz cry myself loh.. too crybaby liaos.. lolz.. and wen i ask him to prauise me.. he dun care.. and i decided to mayb b out of his life will b better? i no i cant.. but i juz wanna hurt him in wad i say.. i'm guilty anyway.. wen i type the ferst msg.. i were crying.. i juz wan him to felt relieve but nv a burden.. i juz treasure him too much.. and ying told me tat.. he say wenever i tok to him is not at the right time.. den is ying at the right time.. how to see is right time anot.. i dunno as well.. i reali felt so confuse ytd and send him those rubbish.. mayb i can juz take the time and think through wad i reali need or wan..
i'm damn sad.. wad can b done.. i promise not to diturb him fer one week.. let both of us cool down bah.. even it seem lyk i'm so great but.. i'm juz simply selfish.. coz i dun wan to b hurt by him.. yet i used tis word to hurt him.. i'm nth but a suxer.. i cant gif himcare and concern but only give him wan he need external.. i only can use money but not true heart to him.. understand mah? means i'm a failure mei, kor.. u dun haf to put me in ya mind.. i no.. i cant made u happy at all.. nv.. i juz only wan to b by ur side.. i reali treasure u.. i dun wan b ur worry.. but ur happiness.. i dun wan u to worry fer me again and again.. i'm old enuff.. i no wad i did i'll b punish.. wad to do to get reward.. i might b childish.. but i reali will behave.. if i do wrong things made u angry i hope u can reali punish me than made me ur burden.. i cant lose u.. not now.. not future.. is eva.. i no u strict to me is got reasons de.. now.. u juz only "fall down" there are ups and downs in life.. but i'll ferever b by ur side.. and overcome everything.. coz i cant lose u... haiz.. night!
;9:46 PM
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* riza .
* elaine .
* zhihui .
* xuanmin .
* beelin .
* kokheng .
* atikah .
* jon .
* shaun .
* joachim .
* preena .
* colleen .
* Lya .
* connie .
* felicia .
* alexis .
* nysa .