you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
sumtime dunno wad actually happens.. me juz treasure him and gif him the attitude.. during yue li bdae.. its suppose to b happy.. but me.. shouted at him in the public... felt so guilty.. wad else can i amend my mistake? by buying u gifts? saying sorry? trying to tel u i'll change my attitude.. hais.. y? y shld i do tat? foolish.. i saw elaine and her stead.. 10 mths liaos.. congrats anyway.. and i lose my 4th mth letter.. felt guilty.. so guilty..lousy me.. i dun mean to shout at him.. but why the hell i did tat? i dun believe in fairytales cos i nv had one.. sigh.. he is my guardian angel.. but i shout.. tis few days mood isnt tat gd..
were damn guilty tat i cant go fer mac test.. i shld had pass.. but i let boss think i chicken out.. hais.. i felt lyk i'm backstabbing others.. wen others tel me sumthing bad abt another.. i will agree.. but its reali bad abt her.. hais.. elaine haf happy ever after.. me leh? moody.. so wad if i got so much money? but all i do is made u sad and amend it by buying u even more stuff.. is tis reali the kind of life i wan.. i dunno as well.. i not blaming others.. but myself.. he owei felt i'm tat great to buy him stuff.. but is the way i amend my mistake.. hu can help or save me frm here? no one.. i nv haf a ever laasting.. cos i wanted better things and i start hurting others.. he meant to me.. but wad else can i treat him better.. but granting his wish list as more as i can.. but not giving him the real apologize.. the real sorry.. real care to him.. i'm not ta great after all...
sumtime, he gave me attitude.. but i cant blame him cos i deserve tis.. i gif him my attitude ferst.. hais.. wen he say no comment or speechless.. is not his fault.. mayb i reali made him til nth to comment.. but all i wan is his comfort.. even ying cant do tat.. wenever i try to tell her stuff.. she owei tel me things i dun lyk to hear.. cant blame anyone for tat.. reali.. i dun blame dem.. cos things is created by me.. sumtime i hope i can get out of his life.. not bcos he didnt gif me happiness.. but i'm not worth it.. do he know tat all the way i treat him so gd is to amend my mistake.. not care and concern.. u no.. hais... sumtime i dun wan to quarrel wif him but my idiot attitude.. haf the urge to cut my wrist and stop my time in the world.. mayb i shld jus stop and reconsider.. hais.. i nv quarrel wif him today.. but wen i c his msg oof asking me to take care.. say he luv me mei.. sayang me.. i felt the urge of jumping down. i dun deserve at all.. now den u see my true colour..
i tried to get him as much stuff as i can.. but its out of trute? wad actually does true means? if i got the courage to take the penknife cut my own wrist and juz wan time to stop.. will it be better fer us.. i'm a human.. and he's too.. i need care and he already given me.. but fer him.. i only can gif him wad he wants for external but nv in his heart.. i felt i'm sucks.. i still wan to msg u.. in the end.. i hurt u again.. hais.. i no i'm nothing but i matter to u.. y treat me lyk tat..
y bother to cheer me up wen i'm in the wrong? u matter to me, but am i reali tat great.. if can, i wan to leave u first cos i dun wan u to cry for my acting.. my care and concern isnt true.. do u no tat? i'm a bitch hu lie.. i'm nth.. now even nv quarrel i lyk tat.. but i cant bear to leave u.. cos i lurve u.. but y treat me so gd.. time, pls stop and lte me go.. hais.. wad the me.. sorry..
;1:43 AM
PROFILE
PEICHING
fifteen
25April
Greenridge sec
4E3
CRAVINGS
pass my maths tests
turtle paradise
ADORES
4E3
Precious*
* riza .
* elaine .
* zhihui .
* xuanmin .
* beelin .
* kokheng .
* atikah .
* jon .
* shaun .
* joachim .
* preena .
* colleen .
* Lya .
* connie .
* felicia .
* alexis .
* nysa .