you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
i'm in fault in everything i did.. i'm.. dun ask me y.. cos i'm failure.. or i dun lurve u anymore.. perhaps.. if i reali dun lurve u.. will it b better fer us? i hate myself.. i dun deserve anything frm u.. i'm emotional and i cry again.. i dun need u in my life.. jus take it wad i told u in the past are just lies.. counless drop of tears roll down my eyes again... will anyone tel me i had suffer enuff.. i shld stop.. i shld end.. i shld die.. will it b better fer us? i had the courage again.. since 2 years.. i did it again.. perhaps thats wad i reali deserve.. i cut myself again.. it not pain at the wrist but in my heart.. drops of tears rolled down again.. wipe and wipe it seem endless.. 8 times wif a metal ruler.. i'm real sorry.. i did tat.. i dun deserve anything frm u.. not a candy hse anymore.. not ur luv.. ur care nor ur concern.. or even a sorry.. i dun deserve..
walking under the hot sun, i dun feel hot.. i felt my frezed heart had been melting.. at least without u, my reality world is warm wif the hot hot sun.. min and ying.. m y blood is cold.. everything in me is cold.. i felt useles.. hopeless.. why, why it had to be me again? i'm petty.. unreasonable.. i bleed.. but its not painful at all.. my hearts breaks.. pieces.. using glue will u be able to glue it back.. i cry and cry.. 2 hrs.. stop crying its seem useless.. y"y do u haf to angry with me all the time?" just admit u are angry.. u are tired of cheering me up.. tired of spenting every second with me.. admit it.. mayb when i leave i will b leaving with a smile.. cos u say its ur job to console me wen i'm down.. wen i'm down.. where were u.. i dun blame u but y treat me so cold.. its all that stupid chui fault..
my heart will continue to break.. even the brightest star appear in my world.. its still cant brighten my life.. no more.. no longer.. i shld just cut deepper let myself die.. i had no courage to see blood.. cry? will it b in any use? mayb just go to sleep.. wake up and i'm just a dead man again.. my tears had finish... no more.. blood dried up.. no more... i'm a walking body.. wif no soul and mind.. i am no longer the me.. if u can glue my heart back pls try doing it but the glue back heart will still haf cuts the feeling wun b the same anymore... i dun mean to anyone anymore.. the me had die.. we shldnt b together.. the cuts on my wrist remind of u.. i'm nothing anymore.. just let me go and find freedom in the other world.. u made a wrong choice of being wif me... cuts on wrist might b pain wad hurt the most is still my heart...
u dun had to say sry.. its not ur fault.. let me tel u.. its my fault.. all my fault.. nothing to do with u.. let me suffer my own and die on my own.. i hope i got the courage to leave u and will to forget u.. i dun lurve u anmore.. not abit.. let me pay back my sin.. just let me finish off tis life and i wun b ur burden... i had run out of blood... i had loses the hope of miracle.. cos in my life i nv had one.. i'm the one hu shld say sry.. dui bu qi.. if there fate and i nv forget u.. i might reply.. but now.. let me die in my own world.. let me cut myself more.. let me die cos of blood loss.. cos having how much blood dun made a differne to a broken heart.. i shld leave u now.. fate? mayb there none in tis stupid world.. the only fate is to no u.. hurt u.. and leave u.. let me live in my own miserable world..
;8:04 PM
PROFILE
PEICHING
fifteen
25April
Greenridge sec
4E3
CRAVINGS
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turtle paradise
ADORES
4E3
Precious*
* riza .
* elaine .
* zhihui .
* xuanmin .
* beelin .
* kokheng .
* atikah .
* jon .
* shaun .
* joachim .
* preena .
* colleen .
* Lya .
* connie .
* felicia .
* alexis .
* nysa .