you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
went to skool today~ BORING! suppose to go to botanic garden due to the rain and we slack in class.. i sleep loh.. hais.. angry wif dem.. not i petty or wad lahs.. they nv think got guys behind den lyk tht play... summore not once loh.. ask dem stop.. they tot i enjoyed.. den i scolded u all cbk lahs.. den they know i angry.. hais.. i also dun wan to throw temper de bud i msged him.. he didnt reply.. wad the hell i'm feeling.. no one can guess.. u all no i cant share any trouble wif my frene.. i seem to be very gd wif dem.. bud wenever i hab trouble.. i didnt tel dem.. cos their reaction is ohh.. i see.. dun sad nth will happen.. y? mayb lack of console word.. i also dunno.. its made me dun felt tht warm anymore.. its just shell.. no body no how i felt inside.. deep inside.. i'm sad tht my result got intp tis.. bud i hab to act lyk nobody business.. cosi dun wan cry.. i hab cry enuff.. bud actually hu gif a damn abt me.. i'm just reali alone in my world.. i kinda envy those hu hab reali gd frene wif dem.. they share alot of things.. bud me? suan le..
i waited fer 5days.. it seem to me tis 5days everyday hab 48hrs.. i finally wait til he's back.. no matter how tired i'm ytd.. i no i muz wait fer him to be back.. finally i reali waited til he's back.. wasnt i suppose to be happy? bud i wasnt feeling lyk tht now~ i let his hope bcum empty.. nth anymore.. i told him i failed my eng.. his reaction is of cos the same bahs.. actually i already had metally prepare liao.. bud so wad.. sumhow things hab to happened.. mayb i shldnt be so truthful at all. i owei hurt him.. i reali sucks.. i dun deserve to be his mei wad.. i'm reali a big failure.. i shld pass.. even eng i also can fail.. wad fer living here..hais.. i no he is mad at me.. bud beside sry and forcing myself to accept the punishment wad else can i do? he didnt reply me til now.. its 2pm.. i didnt get a single reply.. i waited fer my phone to ring.. i muz be crazy.. how can my phone ring.. i told myself lots of reason y he's not replying.. mayb he is still sleeping.. mayb he didnt tot of an ans yet.. mayb he is bz.. bud i myself actually no the simple reason, he is angry at me.. bud i just hab to bluff myself to prevent me frm getting more sad.. no one can help me in tis.. i hab to help myself.. mayb bahs.. i'm just thinking on my own part.. i waited fer so long.. even he's back.. now, i still lyk waiting fer him to be back.. y? cant thing be as pure as the beginning? its true tht things get faded wen time goes by? i keep asking myself in cls.. wen they watch movie i didnt bother at all.. i myself also dunno its true anot.. cos so long liao.. he still my kor.. i lurve him as my kor.. wenever i wanted to msg him sumhow can feel tht we will quarrel in the end.. even now we dun quarrel tht often bud its still the same as b4? is it he still feel tht he cant disown me? or its just another illusion tht cause me to another world? i dunno.. sumhow i hope wen i thinking abt tis.. sumone in my life will think abt it too.. gimme an ans how am i suppose to do? mayb i'm reali a failure hu shldnt bother ppl lifes anymore.. i shld just leave alone wifout anyone.. bud its tht the life i reali wanted? myab only i know the ans..no matter how sad i'm.. at least, i'm still alive.. i reali dunno wad i shld do anymore.. [its isnt pure wen there is mixture in it..] be it..
;2:10 PM
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