365 days TOGETHER! wE aRe OnE BIG fAmIlY

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Dear Diary..

HAHAX! yestd i was lyk helping out in the closing, erm, finally got the feeling tht i'm in the age to do closing.. =x but of cos, it not legal yet lahs.. 25th of april.. its the age i'm legal to walk into kpool& all stuff lahs.. hahax.. so ytd working was tired.. i punch in at 3 i think.. yups, and they just look so happy to see me & fang, you know how pathetic it's.. CRAPS* loh, blardy, all better udn work lahs, just dun understand, where is sense of responsibility, i dun ssay i hab alot, but at least some? =) so we work but we hab fun too.. so there was this boy whose hand was lyk stuck or sumthing, just some plain stupid thing and blah blah blah.. hahax.. so, we was enjoying with arzian & juliana company.. erm, alright, i just hope things will go smoothly lahs..

so we close til 130+ cos we didnt pre-close mahs.. den li jun do decoration til 2am, super gal hor? hahax.. so juanne, dun sad liao lahs.. THEY ARE JUNKS =) so, i will try to help as much as possible loh.. but i will try to manage my time well too.. so dun worry ok? i believe "the boat will reach it's destination" is it lyk this? hahax.. so we dun really mind helping loh, since we are a family, lyk juliana hab been saying.. so dun worry, i believe one day arzian no closer, we will go back help bahs.. YEAHS!

erm, this few days too much things happen, dun ffel lyk commenting or saying or remember them, just hope the good things come as soon as possible ok? hahax.. i hab been staying out late, mum hab been *nagging* ok, i didnt went to seek mr koh help today.. its too early, i cant wake up and i hab work at 11.. so decided nto to go since mr ong will be helping me on monday.. i don't know.. just feel lyk i taking up too much of mr koh time? i'm so sorry loh.. ARGHS* all test will be third week i think, mr koh test shld not be a problem.. i did lsten in class.. and he went through every question with me.. i just feel so bad by taking up most of his time lahs.. his life is really spent on us, the graduating students.. thanks, not only for kor sake but also for mr koh hard work, i will pass my test lah.. tht mr koh wish to see me pass, cos he say b4, he hope i can pass loh.. hahax..

ok, life hab been so tiring for me, and i dunno what to do too.. come to think abt it, i am already 16, and i didnt achieved anything in life.. *failure* i just think i am hidhing from the reality, i cant face the word MATH, it give me fear.. i don't know.. sometime, i feel hurt lahs.. but forget it loh, i also dunno how to manage my life.. i just need a long rest i think.. i need to get ready for olevel.. i need to do so many things.. imy work isnt tht suceess too, i dun think i accomplish anything big in my life.. hais.. i don't know lahs.. it just so bothering, when will i share my things with other?

erm, time hab change so many ppl, i really start to feel the stress, i know kor hab my will in heart..i didnt wanna give up too.. i ahb bene thinking, but it just temporary, i wil lforget soon.. wad else can i do? i ARGHS! mr koohh, sorry lah, i shldnt miss the help u are giving today.. hais.. now so late liao.. i fianlly msged him.. i dunno y i did tht.. i get so pissed off when he doesnt reply.. so just fine with it, but a few days of cooling off, i feel much beeter, thanks anyway.. i realiease, i need you in life.. ;) i get so pissed off with myself too.. i start of lyk thinking to cut myself, hais.. hopeless life

fianllly, everything is over, just looking forward to pass my math bahs.. working again tml, i am super tired! =) hais.. sometime, it just get used to it and i dunno wad to do liao..

*aimless life.. alright, just hab some nice sleep tonight.. ;)

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you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
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