365 days TOGETHER! wE aRe OnE BIG fAmIlY

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Dear Diary..

hmm, i am backs.. for more more updates! x)

well, i miss my dearest KOR! =x i donno, its just lyk in some part of my life, i need him and i really miss him so much.. i was just dazing at the wall, dreaming.. and i just sort of lyk thinking about those wonderful past we both have once.. den i cried again.. compared to now, i am really afraid and worry almost everyday.. i dreamt of having so much hmwk.. there just something tht might affect my mood or took away my happiness.. and here i am, blogging abt how i felt just some moments ago.. I FEEL SO SAD!

i mean i don't feel those sadness of breaking up and blah blah.. but i just felt so worry abt my F&N coursework, my emath.. my nv ending problems.. hais.. i just realised this year is fun in school but it also indicate the start of more effort and hard work.. what am i suppose to do then? i just cant keep everyday went to look for mr koh or my peeps telling them how stress am i.. i just have to hide evrything within myself.. the feeling is then scary.. i guess now everyone in the sec4 ex are feeling lyk tht for te moments.. hais..

seriously, i just don't know why, i miss him so much tht i will just breakdown and cry whenever i think of him.. it lyk i told mr koh, i already forget abt him.. and now it's lyk tht.. i just seriously be happy even just one minute to spent with him.. well, i am just simply SAD!

went to lot1 just now to complete some hmwk with xuan min.. kind of copy i think.. hahax.. so much stuff and blah blah.. meet up with elaine.. SIGH! i mean i am really sad lahs.. well, tml there's school, super happy! hmm, i <3 going to school. .there math lesson, i can suan mr so&so abt mr so&so.. hahx.. =x

wells, I FEEL SO LOSS! i mean in a haze or something, i just cant think straight now.. hmm.. i miss everyone.. makara smsed me ytd, i miss her so much.. i feel kind of saddening that we been separate til so far apart.. and even though of the busy schedule of hers, she still smsed me, how abt me? i was lyk so loss til i dunno what to do next.. =(

hmm, wadever, i think i will cheer myself up tml.. and i already promise mr koh not to show him tht black face of mine! i isnt angry, i just tired! hahx.. ohya, i msged mr koh ytd, just to disturb him, he ask me not to sms him mahs.. so i purposely wan sms him.. i wan mr ong! =x well, ahead of us is just more more stress, either keep on fighting or we will die one day.. hmm, anyway, i think all of us will just keep on fighting.. without a choice.. hais.. mr koh birthday is just 2 weeks away.. i'm seriously kind of stress up with the $ stuff.. ARGHS! wad am i suppose to do! hmm, =D smile bahs, i promise mr koh liao.. hahx..

i miss you my dearest kor, i really don;t know what to do already.. missing you become part of the routine of my daily life.. i seem not to cherish you enough, but you are just my treasure everyday.. i don't know when can i see you again.. =(

well, i isnt.. and i'm not.. =)

you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
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