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Monday, February 13, 2006

Dear Diary..

hmm, my mood isnt any better after much cheering up from my dearest peeps.. sigh! seriously, i know what the problem is, but i don't why did it happen.. well, i haven bath and stuff.. i just feel lyk blogging and say out wad i wish to say.. in school, i told them parts, but just got the feeling tht i was going to cry, so i just shut my mouth up... ...

well, MONDAY! it suppose to be a day whereby i looking forward to emath and my fianlly 2-days-no see peeps.. well, but it was lyk tht until orning assembly is over.. i just discovered something, which well.. i think it isnt nice to post here.. shalala.. got scolded for not turning up in cambodia shit, and also my geo corrections, i haven done a single thing.. she herself say tht we can choose to do or not.. hmm, guess tchers are all crazy.. sigh.. i think i got monday-blue =(

heard from peeps that mrs lim got to know what we said in class.. hmm, so they start saying * betraying us.. yups.. i sense tht too.. i am not angry he betray me, but just lyk dissapointed, it suppose to be lyk i trusted you, so i told u so much stuff.. and ended up, mrs lim know abt it.. so guess, what my feeling is? he's just someone i trusted and believed tht wuld lead me to somewhere the someone.. hmm, perhaps betray is too harsh a word to be used.. but i respect you & trusted you.. why turn out to be lyk tht? my heart seriously breaks.. sigh, the feeling of being betrayed isnt tht nice.. WELL, I TRUSTED YOU! can you see tht?

i got seriously moody after knowing such thing.. yups, it isnt tht serious.. it might be something you thought we are joking about.. but well, i think its another test of having to trust someone again.. .i didnt wan to believe jon and guys.. i just hope what i think of you is just tht who you always are.. the one, i respect and trust.. hais.. and why gave me the chance to believed others.. you know i have been trying so hard to made ppl dun dislike you, hmm, yups, mayb it dun matter to you, but it matter to me, cos you are someone who i think worth respect.. you shouldnt be treated lyk this.. and in the end, you betrayed my trust in you.. perhaps, its a none serious and joking stuff.. i promise to let it go, well.. tml is just another day, i wun hold the thing to you.. i mean since i am the one say it, you have the right to tel anyone.. i just wanna forget abt wad happen between us.. its well.. over.. you will still be someone i respect tml.. but seriously, it isnt today! ;)

so much blah blah stuff happen just within one day.. well, i just wanna tel COLLEEN! hmm, i didnt lyk your math tcher.. i mean, he's just my godpa.. and its just nth else.. if you seriously think tht i owei go your class during his lesson, doesnt mean i lyk him or stuff.. if you guys think so, well.. i got nth much to say.. and seriously, i dun lyk anyone.. and for the time being, i dun wish to say or mention anything between us, well peeps.. if you guys happen to see this.. i am just sorry.. i just wish tht you all wun owei say i lyk him.. it sort of paiseh i think.. i dunno.. but sorry anyway if today you all saw my moody face again.. sigh,, cant be help i think.. =)

hmm, lesson is alright, have been thinking over and over abt this stuff.. didnt enjoy any of the lesson.. i got scolded for nothing always.. hais.. well, finally it godpa lesson.. seriously after such stuff, i isnt looking forward anymore.. ohwells.. so just keep avoiding looking at him.. hmm, remain quiet almost the whole lesson.. he did tok and stuff lahs.. i mean help me in my locus.. hais! remedials did nth much, being stuck in a question and went to his help.. i know he noticed i look moddy and stuff.. perhaps he will just ask tml.. and tml is just another day which indicate another start.. i wun bear this stuff in hearts for tml..

i seriously still cant forget a single stuff.. and i am just tht moody as ever.. perhaps, i need time to face this reality of being "BETRAYED" i dunno.. i just cant believed yet.. and mayb it isnt him.. since they didnt say its him.. wadever.. i sahll look on the bright side of life.. ohya, i got so much shit hmwk.. i gonan bath and sleep til 800 and start doing..

*godpa, all i can say is sorry.. i dunno wad else to tell you already but i guess i just need some time to cool.. thanks..
*4E3, hmm, fianlly we went through hardship together.. thanks for always cheering me up when i am feeling down.. rach, min, ying, jurrel, yong wei.. ;)

well, i gonna end my blog, finally i feel better after typing so much stuff.. hais.. whatever it is, it just simply mean over.. x)

you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
;5:32 PM