365 days TOGETHER! wE aRe OnE BIG fAmIlY

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Dear Diary..

i felt better today.. i didnt cry infront all of them.. thanks, i just know you peeps love me and i love you too.. x)

to my someone, i guess, i am the ms tan bahs? well, i did try to change but seriously, yesterday isnt my day.. i have been crying til i really gone crazy.. in my hearts, you both are alway you 2, there not gonna be any changes.. sometime, we must learn to give and take.. i mean i am just pissed and fed up abt my own stuff.. and i vent it on you 2 again.. but well, tht me mahs.. whatever it is, i think it's the past, why should be keep bothering about it? and i didnt know you 2 was lyk of angry with me, i was lyk really crazy i went around the whole shcool my own, i didnt wanted to quarrel too, but i am just emotional.. well, xuan min& si ying, i didnt break my promise of treasuring oyu 2 or wad.. i seriously heart the both of you, i am sorry ok? x)

i was lyk hating myself all this while.. putting fake smile and laughter to everyone, well, i am just tht fake.. hais.. simply feel so hurt.. i msged him ytd, out of control, i waited and waited and waited.. he didnt reply me.. i didnt get tht msg back.. perhaps he think he dun have to reply me or mayb he shldnt bother abt me anymore.. i feel kind of upset with everything and stuff.. i think the whole night..
mayb i just dun deserved your tht 5cents anymore.. i might be laughing with all of you, but my heart just kind of felt upset.. perhaps, it just wanting your sympathy? talk to rach the night, kind of say out how much he meant to me, but now, it isnt important anymore..

well, started off with godpa emath lesson, kind of quiet i think, but as usal, i am the noisy one, i promised him i wun show him any blackface anymore.. well, i kept my promise.. so siying was lyk why you so hyper? seriously, partly cos of godpa stuff and also ms yong tht no used bahs.. so i was hyper.. was lyk keep shooting my mouth off abt mr so&so.. hahx.. and godpa nearly used the duster and threw at me.. *evil* hehe.. but of cos he didnt.. i just kind of rmb i was just suaning him abt mr so&So.. x) shalalax.. the furtherest i could go.. so godpa was lyk telling joseph tht if he saw a duster fly before.. cos joseph is sitting in front of me.. hahax.. i keep bugged him abt my pink compassess.. and he keep saying mdm heng lyk pink.. HAHAX! =x pinkish shalalax.. so he say give him reasons why he shld buy for me ltr other ppl jealous, i was lyk cos i want lahs! and stuff.. hahx. joker lah him.. den he say i can do locus is just tht i depend too much on my frene.. hahax.. BLEAHS! geo is finally being cancelled! YEAHS! feel kind of glad but emath been bring to 12pm or smth, cant really rmb abt tht.. hahx.. wadever! ltr ppl accused me liking godpa again!~ i have so much stuff not done yet, lets see..

1) godpa's cake
2)giant cards
3)decorate haven
4)forks,spoon and blah blah stuff
5)invitation cards
6) class tee
7)champange
8)time of the party..
9)paper bag for tht watch
10)collect $10 from all my peeps..

see, 10 stuff not done yet! omg.. and it about 12 more days to the celebration, ARGHS! i going crazy shalala.. wadever.. hahhax.. so i was lyk discussing with ida wad colour their calss is taking, and we are taking black most prob.. hahx.. =x and godpa came out and disturb me again! he gimme the box den i was lyk wad? WAD? WAD? den he just keep smiling, and xuan min say she help him take den godpa gave me tht "YOU-ARE-NOT-THOUGHTFUL-ENOUGH- LYK-XUAN-MIN" hahax.. wadever, so i snatch the box he was lyk so shocked or smth.. hahx.. hmm, finally, min agreed to help me on my calss stuff.. thanks.. shalalax.. she gonna drew dragon.. YIPPPEEE! mdm ho was crazy lahs.. been bully by us.. omg, THEY MADE SHAHIDA cry! kind of guilty i think.. hahax.. but its not me anyway, class tee design is begin kind of confirm.. have to rush stuff out.. aRGHS! hahax..

tml, there will be nothing for me to look forward to, and tht common test on POA~ hahx.. wadever.. I AM FEELING SAD RIGHT NOW!

hmm, i am crazy and i know it.. hais.. when then will you msged me? i am waiting like a fool, just because of you..

you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
;5:37 PM