you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
its no doubt a wednesday-blues.. sigh..
this is the first time i cry this year infront of all my calssmates.. before any papers.. firstly, i was angry with myself.. for telling you once again, i knew i hurt you.. but seriously, i love you.. i didnt wanted that to happened.. i didnt wish to hurt you again and again.. i seem happy go lucky, but seriously the stuff that happen tis year is more than what i expected and more than what i can take it.. why everything be sweets? nothing much to say but well, i am sorry again.. secondly, chemistry is giving me such a headace, i isnt motivated to study for chemistry.. and i feel kind of pressure that have been putting on me for the past 7weeks, i don't know what to do and i cant do a single thing abt it.. study study study.. emath emath emath.. can someone understand the fear tht is in me? i'm smiling all the time, cos i know the time with my peeps is really getting shorter each day, i didnt wan to cry.. seriously, if i still cant handle my life i dunno waht else can i do..
started my wednesday sobbing in the canteen early in the morning, i didnt talk didnt tell anyone wad happen.. for tht very moment, i felt like talking to godpa or mrs chew.. i didnt know wad to do, i feel lyk getting out of school and not taking tht exam.. i didnt tel anyone what happens, but ying&min guess correctly again.. stop crying and went to queue up, reached outside the class, i cried again.. i sat outside, and i cried.. i'm feeling so scare abt tht paper.. so scared of losing you.. the 2 fear just surround me, just feel so hopeless.. didnt really do my paper and i just doze off, wake up, eyes still swollen.. and the paper already finish.. something to be glad, its the end of the papers.. =) but i know more and more is coming up.. i'm just thinking, should i go talk to godpa? seriously, i need someone to talk to.. well, i look for ms yong.. and i msged her x(
assembly is on cambodia, cried again.. i am crying the whole day.. saw baby.. i miss him so much.. and nothing much.. it really touches our heart.. wan ting told me: why you cry? lso not touched one." i was lyk excuse me, you didnt go, so you dun understand.. stop bullshitting.. i am in such a terrible mood.. after much thinking, i went to look for godpa.. i didnt show him tht face of mine, just pass him the papers and he start asking why didnt i sing just now.. of cos i didnt lah.. i was crying all along wad! so he say he w as crying too, liar! he didnt cried! he was laughing! thts evil, and again he hit my head.. *godpa, you gonna be sacked soon, teenager abuse =x* mr chui saw me and keep telling me, he owe me $! shalala.. i know, i will get him to donate to the fund! hahx.. they are going abck cambodia on the nov 06.. i gonna miss cambodia so much, sigh.. look for mrs chew, seriously isnt in mood to chat.. i was lyk hmm all the way.. hais!
well, can oyu guys just stop saying i like mr koh? it kind of pai seh lahs.. i didnt lyk him and i say many many times, he's my daad.. my listening ear.. he dote on me, so naturally i prefer him more lahs.. is this call like? and how abt when sec1, sp tht kind? call wad? hais.. i feel seriously so paiseh and pissed off when ppl tell me i lyk him.. i eman yah, i just asking sat wad time and this indicate i lyk him? omg, perhaps i just isnt myself.. i am in such a terrible and horrible mood.. what can i do? i just hope godpa will really read this entries and talk me out of such stuff.. i am seriosuly stressed abt school stuff.. stress abt not having you, perhaps you might not know, you meant alot to me.. i mean the him.. hais..
went to plaza for calss tee stuff.. was with janice&connie.. went around and buy cards for godpa and saiful.. i brought for godpa a happy birthday dad de.. with joachim loh.. x) well, my peeps all rawks lah.. rai saw me crying and start asking waht happen.. seriously, without you guys, my life is totally meaningless.. hmm, have some conflict with ying, i mean didnt trash stuff out face to face.. just remain very quiet.. whatever lahs.. i isnt angry or stuff.. just bad mood..
nothing much happen today.. just tht first time life is so worst.. missing cambodia.. hais.. i'm totally uselsess, yups i know.. bby talking to godpa will i add on to his burden? i dunno, hope i am not.. well, i wan you guys to know I LOVE YOU PEEPS! enough about i like mr koh, one day, if seriously i blew my top, tht really not me anymore.. sigh.. life.. just hope stuff got better, and i am in a better mood tml.. first two perios mr koh, cant cry bahs.. hais.. i dunno.. i live up to my promises, no more black face..
i just hope you will forgive me again, i'm sorry... ...
;6:53 PM
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Precious*
* riza .
* elaine .
* zhihui .
* xuanmin .
* beelin .
* kokheng .
* atikah .
* jon .
* shaun .
* joachim .
* preena .
* colleen .
* Lya .
* connie .
* felicia .
* alexis .
* nysa .