365 days TOGETHER! wE aRe OnE BIG fAmIlY

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Dear Diary..

oh wells, just looking through some of my past entries, it from the start of 2006, everyday have just passed so fast, it means we will be leaving behind 4E3 soon.. we will all go our own ways, and worst, next time on the streeet we will pretend we dunno each other.. is there a possibility? i mean 4E3 just rawks my life, everyone became closer and more open to one another.. but when it came to the day of leaving one another, what will the feeling be? i dun dare to imagine, i just hope it never come to an end but well, event that are especially nice will eventually end faster.. hais, 4E3.. can u ppl promise me that we will really be a class, love one another?

they left me a wonderful memories, everday being with them is nothing but fullest joy, i nv dare to think of parting, cos i know i will be crying.. ppl, pls understand that sometime, i flare my top cos i care.. you ppl are my treasures and the best friends i ever have.. I LOVE 4E3

mr KOH! ;)

well, seriously.. i feel a change in you lately, i dunno why.. from someone that i known eversince the cambodia trip who is kind.. nice.. concern about how we feel until '06 you formly became our math teacher.. it's a joy not to deny.. you help us so much.. spent away lots of time in both classess.. slaves away your life, we seriously appreciate what you done..

BUT

what happen to the mr koh now? the one who keep asking us not to say die? but he, himself claiming at his wits-end.. seriously, we dun feel good abt tht.. even a slight effort have been put in by everyone of us, but its just sumthing tht we cant excel.. our fountation sucks.. i mean as for me, i already trying my best to pass math, and i'm just sharing the joy with you abt my other subject.. but you claim you dun give a damn about it for the moments in front of the class, how do i felt? i mean i share with you as you are my godpa.. but things just blurted out when you are scolding us, i really feel lyk walking out of the class.. the feeling isnt tht nice.. hais.. i dunno, mr koh.. you seem like a changed person.. someone who isnt lyk last time.. we share with you cos of the mutual class for letting you to use something to suan us when you got fed-up over something..

we are graduating classess, i mean we suffer stress like you too, mayb not as much as yours but our feeling, our pride is something you think it's important to look after, but now.. matter got worst, you didnt really concern will your words hurt others anot.. i mean seriously things you saying got out of hands and it hurt our heart so much.. I KNOW WE ARE WRONG AT SOME STUFF! but dun you think the stuff you talk in class is quite hurting to us? i start to think you are abit unreasonable about some trival stuff.. just like going out.. its not suppose to go out or wad? we are human, not machines you can just do wadever you like to.. we need rest, is there something wrong about tht?

we told you where we go, wad we are doing, asking you to smile, saying how well we done for other sub, saying private BGR stuff cos of one thing TRUST that you wun say it to other teachers, using it to suan us when we done badly? i mean wads the point of doing so? made us dun go out, just study? you are kind of betraying our TRUST in you. i know its a harsh word to use, but you need not share it among the class so openly. DO YOU KNOW, WHNEVER YOU DONE THAT, I FEEL LIKE WALIKNG OUT AND ITS SO EMBARASSING. sharing is due to trust for one another.. how wil lyou feel, if some or other private stuff we just kept to oursleves? and you are just like those ignorance teachers outside.. i mean, is that what you want?

i have no idea where the MR KOH we used to shared problems with, talk to one another about the unhappy stuff happening in school gone to. he no longer exsit as the one 4E3 respect and care for.. the one that will spent time and patient to talk to you about small stuff.. someone who kept students personal stuff.. being apprecaitive about how and what your students done for you in return too.. but our dearest MR KOH is gone.. vanised perhaps?

it changed someone who just blurted out whatever came to his mind, talking about stuff that will hurt us. saying how much he done and we didnt do a single things. asking students not to go out? suaning ppl when you share your problems with him, asking you to persever but he gave up on the few of us.. i mean where the hell did our once respectable MR KOH went to?

OUR MR KOH joke with you, talk to you in class.. praise you when you do right things.. share his care and concern.. is it stressed godpa? or you really dislike what i smsed you? i dunno, i really think you isnt the godpa and MR KOH i once knew.. your words in my mind became blur.. you know godpa, u are so respectable in our mind but now?

are you tired? we are.. we are seriously tired of your scolding.. cant you look at good points of ours.. we do wan to walk as a class.. but what if others doesnt wan to add on to their steps?

PLS, CAN I HAVE THE GODPA I ONCE HAVE? THE ONE ME & JOACHIM WILL APPRECIATE SO MUCH!

and can you dun varies your mood? awhile you bad mood scolded us.. another while you ask me to lend you teenage.. smile at me when i talking to ying.. what happening? yah, i understand your sarcasticness.. but i just hope you wun treat us lyk tht anymore.. THANK YOU!

i cant smile anymore.. i am hurt by what this new mr koh say in class.. mayb for the tme being, he wun be someone i look upon as last time.. i dun demand anything, just feelings to be took into consideration.. thanks..

I LOST MY GODPA & MR KOH ON 180506 ( it's just another person who taking over his place, my real godpa is tired i guess)

you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
;10:38 PM