you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
hmm, i left with a few pathetic minutes before i decide whether anot i shld back myself out.. tht's the promise to joachim.. i know he wanted me to stay on but there's just something that is pulling me back, perhaps like wad they say i'm jealous! well, i dunno.. i felt in the dilemma! it so super crappy to do smth lahs. why isnt they as sensitive as i do. but i will still stay for the sake of my 4E3-ers.. =)
perhaps, i am just the pathetic one. i mean i'm so super confuse of wad i shld and not to do.. inviting the rest anot. the main objective is i do not wan him to feel sad that day, cos he's then the main main organiser.. i'm just doing wad i am told to do. but still the position shld go to joachim, i do not want any one to think that i am snatching joachim job to do.. mayb joachim dun mind, but i mind.. he keep saying at the end of the day, he want dad to be happy. but will your dad appreciate wad i have done or basically he will think it's another same old thing i am doing? i am really worry you know. if i invite mr ong, tht means i have to entertain him and not let him felt left out. but when we are too close, ppl start wagging their tongues, tht something i detest alot.
most importantly, like wad joachim might mention, allow dad to be happy for one day. thus i do not know whether anot i shld invite my dearest mr ong and mr lee sc anot. am i just tht lousy? sigh, perhaps to ppl, i'm just something that it will always be there. pls, dun take me for granted.
joachim's dad is finally back from aust. there still alot of thing for him to do and nod his head before we are approve of going on to do wad we are supposed to do. hmm, but compared to how i smsed him last time, i think i treat him colder.. is not because of wad mrs lim or the others have said but it's just tht i felt so not important bahs. well, i already promise tht will be the last project, hope so. class outing on sept. i haven really think of where to go.. ;)
i am mad at him, but i cant bring myself to hate him.. cos he's a very nice person. last time i am able to convince others about it, but now, i dun even know what shld i do about it. mayb i am a girl he's a guy? haha.. it been days i talk to mr ong, hmm, i miss my mr ong. i really worry, he will feel sad tht day cos i'm so close to ong, in a sense tht he always tell me, he's jealous. whenever i think of wad he have done to me, i start thinking of wad mr ong have been telling me. maybe i shldnt even start to see his flaws. just hope the bbq will be a successful one. to work with joachim, and nysa, rai,rach, ida! sound funny huh?
they start to compliment me on wad i have done. thanks ppl! it just smth i will continue doing i guess. hais. so much and so much to said to him. i am so fustrated about everything that is happening right now! he wun replied me and i know he wun. but wad the big deal about it. i hate it! arggghhh! i will msg my mr ong now.. heh heh heh! i love mr ong! forever! =)
stupid dad! you stop bullying me can? before i really put my mind down to hate you! joachim told me so much and i know its not true at all! hahaha.. i am not stupid for god sake! you are nice to me but not so nice! =)
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Precious*
* riza .
* elaine .
* zhihui .
* xuanmin .
* beelin .
* kokheng .
* atikah .
* jon .
* shaun .
* joachim .
* preena .
* colleen .
* Lya .
* connie .
* felicia .
* alexis .
* nysa .