you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
hmm, nothing better to do, come and blog again. didnt feel like wanna talk or do anything so buried myself under cherry book til just now.. hmm, manage to complete most of it, and i began to like sin rule, cos rule.. heh heh.. cool man! the feelings after sloving it. =)
just got a warning from mr koh about some blah blah stuff.. he always think i am joking. during the days he's in aust, i have msged with mr ong. so suddenly ask him if its ok he teach me some question. so this deal is in tml. but i am considerate enough to think for mr koh tht he will surely feel hurt if i do tht. so i told mr ong, i wil lsee how tml and if i can, i will go and find him.. so smsed mr koh, ask if tml he's in school but he is having meeting. so i just asked him if he's too bz one day, can i go look for mr ong for help? i got a warning or rather sound more like scolding from him.. and this time, he again thought i am joking.. so he replied somewhat like angry but cant really shout at me tht kind. i dunno wad to say or do, but this is the first time, he's seriously angry at me. so, be it. i didnt reply eventually.. cos i know i will scream at him in the end. why must he always think i am joking? seriously, i am not. i am saying if.. and he replied, warning and ask me better stop it. so, imagine how i am feeling right now? sigh. i think i better not tell rach or shirely, they will dislike him more. i know, ppl start saying i am stupid. i dun deny. perhaps bah.. i look on the bright side already.
he say he's hurt and how about me? the way he smsed made me feel so sucky right now. but the same thing will happen.. he thinks i will not feel hurt cos i am joking. yah, it's all my fault. i am not tht understanding enough.. i am not tht nice to anyone. i am insensitive.. i made you feel hurt.. i bring nothing but trouble to you. i know, everything you say, i know.. it again, i start this problem.. and history will again repeat. do i really treasure mr ong more than you? i am really stupid, i am nothing to you ppl, den what for you will care whether who matter most. perhaps, the pride bahs.
my phone rang currently, i am stupid enough to think he send me another sms, how can tht ever happen? he will never do tht.. cos i know he's angry.. i dunno.. perhaps, i shall just kept my mouth shut.. wadever i say or do is always wrong. den forget it. i guess, i wun say anything bahs.. it deprived me again on going for the shengsiong trip. hais. wad else can be done.. days later, we will be alright? i dunno.. i cant tell mr ong, cos it got sumthing to do with him.. i do not wished to hurt mr ong. hais.. he is really nice to me..
" warning.. do not play any more jokes on this with me anymore. you do not know wad happen and you do not wanna to know. i am seeing kailing and cheryl at 2 for amath.. sometime joke aside.. when one is hurt deeply, nothing can be help." once again, it's my fault. hais.. maybe bahs.
i already felt so nothing already. cos tis isnt the first time he hurt me again. i am not joking.. i am seriously asking you a question. wad if is dai nan or sng asking you? will you scold them or rather beilin? will you really give them a piece of your mind? you wontt and i know you too well, you never bear to.. isnt it true? =)
feeling so loss and dunno wad to do right now. and i promise to meet them tml for bball.. but well, i am not playing.. sigh.. be it bahs.. kind of really hurt.. it's the first time, you do tht.. but i will get used.
nothing more to tell you, cos i am really feeling loss.
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