365 days TOGETHER! wE aRe OnE BIG fAmIlY

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Dear Diary..

well, it been really so many days eversince i have time to blog. well, there's just so much stuff tht happen in school lately. montage, racial harmony, spectrum. the school have been actively involved in all this little events and well, the 4Es are not been spared too. =)

school have just been revolving around of math, teachers and class. there's always endless math lesson. non-stop teachers&students conflict and stuff. well, most imptly, we been bz lending each other costumes and stuff. shall upload some if possible. will try to get pictures from rach about spectrum and racial harmony. due to our class is the whole class tht have been wearing costumes. we been invited by the new paper to do aan interview and photo taking. hahaha.. it's endless fun! of cos, we have the honour to invite our mdm heng and mr jin to take with us. nic&me was overjoyed about all this little events tht have been a great succeed with the individuals hard work and co-operations. i began to love my 4E3 and i believe life is getting better one day by one day. tht's lesser inter-class conflict and well, most opinion is been voiced out by more indiviuals. anyway, me and nic will never be able to taste the fruit of our hardwork if without anyone help. thanks, 4E3. making the sec4 life a really memorable one.

tuesday, i fall really sick. and then, most peers was like showing endless concern to me. thanks ppl! ;) was like having astma during chemistry. and faint outside class during math. sigh! and godpa said i finally been defeat. well, i am not. i just took a rest. no voice and serious cough and nose block. was been send home after half way after tht order by godpa. he's really nice to accompany me after recess. talk to me and stuff. and keep saying i still behave like a child. well, tht's my really superb nice godpa! i'm fortunate to have you! and promise me, you wun throw your tantrum as well. hahahaha.. was made to promise to rest and not to throw tantrum anymore. well, i am feeling so blessed tht day. nic help me switch off the fan. jurrel and ppl keep lending me their jackets. the girls was bz taking care of me. and during recess all came and look for me. and ask if i am alright. it really so blessed to be in 4E3 and the love and concern we are showing one another. like whenever there's something stopping one or other to continue the journey, there wil always be a handful of them being initiative, wanting to help us. thanks ppl. i love you! i am so happy tht i have a godpa who loves me and a class who loves me so much as well. this year will be the most most memorable year i ever have. =D

well, i scolded zhafri on thursday after i heard my class was been insulted of having low mentality&physically. bullshit! so, i scream and yell at him and of cos, it attract so much of a crowd over there trying to be kpos. well, problem is now like kind of over, and ms julie tan knew wad happen exactly. i start to trust her tht i kind of tell her everything. like my frene. she's super nice! godpa told her tht anything can just ask e to do, cos as long as it is his order i will do it. well, see this blah man is bullying me. well, i kind of hide things from godpa, dun really want him to know i get into trouble before i get into real deep shit. but however, he knew wad happen and i really wanna kill myself liao. now there's this little conflict going on and on. i really dislike ppl who start to say bad things abt my class. godpa say he gonna give all of us a scolding for being rude and implusive. have no ideas how to face him tml. ;( he's still angry with me currently. i will really get a good up and down cscolding and punishment by him. hmm, dunno wad's the verdict but can know tht he's super mad abt wad i have done even after i apologize. well, there's nothing much i can do but to hear my verdict on monday. *dui bu qi godpa =(

sigh, this coming tuesday speech is another headace. i am suppose to shared the upper sec feeling but then such conflict happen to us and e1. even e1 ppl dun really blame me or rather they support me for scolding him but godpa was so upset and angry tht i spoilt the express bonding. i dunno how am i suppsoe to shared my feeling about diligence. but nic was endlessly making me going on and persever. i dunno why, i am so ashamed of myself and not saying how to face godpa. if other teachers were to know. how? hais.. i dunno too. perhaps bah..

there's math on 7am after spectrum on friday. we was all dragging our feet to sch. godpa refuse to change timing and keep insist i am crying. crazy. we were all super duper tired on tht day. and i slept on for 20 hrs after tht. only manage to wake up at 8am today. ;) i gonna continue sleeping. no choice. there's vectors test tml. sucks! godpa mood for tml will be super duper bad. hais. no choice, all my fault bahs.. didnt msg him today. cos he's still angry with me. msg anot, he also wun forgive me. sigh!

well, let's see how tml. either i die if not nothing will happen. hahah.. tml's rach birthday. have a full day events but there's math remedials after school. arghs! i am so confused now. sigh! feeling so bad tht i spoilt godpa best mood after the success of spectrum. he was so upset after he know and i was like so stubborn and refuse to apologize. so without much choice, he ignored me again. shalalala..

kind of touched tht samuel promise to passed vectors and write the letter of apology. he pulled my uniform on wed after i ignore him the whole day on mon&tue. so he was like saying asking me to talk to him. i cried after tht. cos i can sense he isnt tht happy after wad i done. and he really going bonkers soon. so after a heart to heart talk. he promise me. i really sayang him as my little bro. and good thing, he listen to me. thank god. told godpa he agreed to write tht letter, and godpa praise me as a good gal of going extra mile. but then, i do wrong things to 4E1, so in the end, got a scolding bahs. hais. but anyway, the feeling of samuel doing his work really brighten up my mood.

godpa: i know i shldnt scold them for these little things they said. but i really love my class so i was in the urge of anger, i went to scold them. i know you love me and joachim and refuse to let the two of us get into any trouble. strict discipline is apply to both of us. and we isnt allow to be rude to anyone. you try your best not to be bias to anyone of us and wanting us to balance all subjects. 4E3 class unity is been put on me, i already try my best. you also want me to bring the 4Es closer. i tried to but there also no reason for them to insult anyone of us. i admit i am in the wrong of being implusive and using vulgarites to them. but then, i was angry at tht point. i know you are angry at me for spoling the friendship and being so barbaric to 4E1 and most implty, i didnt admit wad i have done after this happen. well, i know i am in fault. but i didnt want to get punish and scolding from you. and also, i know you always will scold the whole class then follow by me. but they did tried their best to stop me from going to 4E1 but no valid. and out of anger, i use vulgarities and scolded them. wad done is done, i already damit wad i have done to you. arghs, i really dislike zhafri lahs! wadever lah, tml gonna get hell from ppl. =(

sigh, i wun go and provoke godpa tml. before, i really dig my own grave. he's sick and i still cant behave myself. ohwell, but to the friends in 4E1, i still love you ppl. except zhafri~ i will appreciate it, if you keep your mouth shut. once again, i behave like an ah lian, screaming and shouting and yelling at ppl face. tht last time wad i will do, how come i am so implusive? hais, godpa said we are childish, we gonna get scolding from him soon. but i rather you punish me and scold me alone. this is nothing to do with others. hais, nite ppl. bless me! =D

you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
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