365 days TOGETHER! wE aRe OnE BIG fAmIlY

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Dear Diary..

have been really tired and busy lately. this is the first year without a gathering during teachers day. hmm.. due to mr koh, he object it and insist we shld concentrate in our last lap. ohwell, teachers day we still have to be back. =(

there's just so much stuff happening lately in the class. which really made me feel tht the class morale is been affected. but wad to do. got to know hilmi better. tht funny and joker. everytime when i see hilmi, he always brighten up my days. haha.. and of cos yongwei and ppl/. i love them lots.

have been hiding stuff from mr koh and ms tan. especially the thing tht me and r is currently going through. that we refuse to gave into one another about so much misunderstanding tht been occur daily. mr koh say i am always honest to him abt stuff. but this time i refuse to let him know, becos i knew he wun help me and instead, i will be put onn the blame of bullying r. perhaps, tht is still lack of trust and stuff. but whatever it is, i hope ppl who know abt this matter dun only listen to mine story or only hers. but now to me, it wun matter anymore. i have enough abt everything. abt the screaming and shouting. abt the i wanna change hu.

didnt talk to mr koh for days neither did i sms him. just felt lyk so hurt bah. i dunno, not in the mood to say anthing abt all this stupid stuff. perhaps, he felt better tht i dun disturb him.. hahaha.. wad a failure i am. but so wad. my class is in a mess. everyone start to beware of one another. afraid the backstabbing and stuff. and thanks to ppl who have been contributing to this conflict. >( i had a hard time bringing them together, and now, it start to drift further.

mr koh realised me and r have smth on. and instead of asking me, he went to ask my friends. but thank goodness, they didnt betray me. they kept quiet abt it. thanks. perhaps, he can really observe abt tht. but ohwell, so wad even he know, i am still in fault. ;) so he get jia to sms him but i stopped her from doing so, cos i really dun wish him to know. and given my atitude and stuff, who dare to tell me when they heard abt it, they dun feel it's my fault? cos, i am always the unreasonable one and she's always the nice one. but nvm, she's still my friends nonetheless.

hmm, didnt wanna do the emath test ytd. and indeed, i anyhow do loh. cos samuel force me to. =) wahahahs.. mayb i will fail and stuff? nvm lah.. i look on the bright side of life. omg, monday is the most darn boring days. oh, got the pillow from ikea. tml still must go get the markers for them. hmm, finally, i got the heart sshape cushion from ikea too. cheapskate, only $9.90? haha.. =x nvm, i will return it to mr lee with a bit of my writting, since he love my writting so much. hahahahahaha... I LOVE MR LEE SC!

ohh, things shld hab end by now rite.. anyways, i'm darn tired. currently feeling so sick. but nvm, may my 4E3 become who they usually are.

thanks hilmi, he say this: why everyone always think is your fault? she always right mehs?

hilmi, saiful,ridzuan, yongwei, emman already become my good friends! and they always give me this support tht whenever i gonna fall, they will just be at the back supporting me. thanks babe! you ppl rawks. and this included harold, joseph, samuel.. haha.. i just realised i have so many good friends around me. i'm a lucky babe. haha.. and of cos, my sisters regardless who you pp lare. dun hab to mention, they are always ard me. this incident indeed brought me, xm, sy closer. thanks to whoever have caused this conflict to happen, cos if not for you, i will lose the 2 of them soon. =D

well, i didnt meet samuel today. i am sick lah! hahahah.. i will still remain happy and smiling. cos i'm lovable! ahaha.. rite brothers? well, teachers day is coming, cool man! n wed they allow us to go back at 1225 for the celebrations of getting the CDP&NE awards. haha..

i dreamt i went back to cambodia. but well, i am still in spore. ;( perhaps, there's just too much misunderstanding between all of us, but i really hope mr koh will not know. thanks babes..

to ppl who have always been by my side, without you ppl, i dunno how i gonna survived. little support meant alot to me. dun worry, i will be strong.

mr koh is my godpa who i love and respect, you ppl are my friends who i cant live without with. if, you ppl doubt mr koh is been placed b4 you ppl, is this consider no faith towards me too? nvm, no matter wad happen, i love you ppl as you ppl always love me. *muacks*

you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
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