365 days TOGETHER! wE aRe OnE BIG fAmIlY

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Dear Diary..

well, another 24hours have passed. another 24 hours nearer to the prelims, the olevels and the graduation on the 16thoct. my heart sank when godpa told me about it. i am really really really upset about all this parting with my dear dear classmates and my really good friends. the fun and jokes we always have in class. the singing of national song and the joke about cookie monster and stuff. the 11 claps. the few hyper one have to really go and find ways to get the class closer. the complains we have about mr koh & mr vic lee. the cushion all of us have? the little cafe and stuffwe have in the cardboard. the never-ending birthday celebrations. the time together until 6pm and non stop joking. i miss those days. when i am feeling down looking out, there wil lalways be ppl around me, talking to me. loving me and concern about me. so much all this little things my classmates are doing for me. and to be honest, i really love you ppl so much tht i dun wanna leave anyone. the "choir" we have in class. the stupid song we always sing. the sleeping time during mdm ho's & mrs choy period. the up and down we went through, i just hope 4E3 can restart our life again. will we meet up with one another annually? and i swear i gonna join the GR alumni. and i am feeling so super down now. =(

cried during morning emath. sit at the umbrella, in sch again.

i rmb how rach will serve me, hit me and of cos when i am bullying her. the animal farm we always hide ourselves to study and to wait for mr koh and ppl. no one will acc me to hide beside mr koh's car to scare him. no one will help me pass letters and notes to mr koh. no one will take care of me when i am really sick. no one will run to the canteen to buy me milo. no one will ask me to study chemistry. no one will lend me her jacket when i am feeling cold. no one will wait for me to reach sch in cab. no one will wait for me after all my stupid activities. no one will talk to mr koh about how stress i am. no one will send me home. no one will acc eat. no one will help me to do all the unresonable stuff i request. no one will salute mr koh with me. no one will wait for me. no one will acc to toilet. there's just so much daily routine i have with rach. if she's really gone, how am i gonna live. mayb tht's wad mr koh named as pamper. everyone gave in to me cos of my poor and lousy attitude. my whole class gave in to all demands i wan. all stupid stuff i always request for. the blah blah stuff i really loves to be with everyone of them. =)

now, she's leaving in 2 mths time. due to all the emotions i have, i cried for 3days already. ms tan and mr koh have enough about me crying. ms tan gave me a piece of her mind just now in sch. i shld be strong, i shldnt cry so easily. as the united class, i shld bring all of them to pass math.. the buddy system we have and as the pillar of the clas, when i fall, everyone will start falling down. when i felt really sad, they feel really sad too. =( i cant be selfish. i cant be spoilt. they call me dajie, with reasons, cos i have this mission tht is given by all ppl ard me, to led the class to greater heights. if i really cry, they will feel really bad. well, i think through, for 4E3 & rach, i'm not gonna be so weak. there's just so many true friends around me and really love me lots. i wanan be the happy peiching tht ppl always see. 4E3 success is in my hand. i really love you ppl. thanks. dun have the mood to do math and stuff, sigh. got scolded from ms tan. =( godpa told her, i was an ah lian once, but i changed for better. i know wad's right and wrong. hais.. got scolded by godpa too. he pass by saw me crying and ms tan talking, he's so angry. he said something like: " dun forget wad you promise me, dun give me empty promises." ms tan knew it and start saying godpa have high hopes in me. he didnt wanan see me cry lyk tht. i know and i really know it. thanks ppl.. i wun gave my godpa empty promises, i will dry my tears and carry on my life. keep the emotions til she really leaving, for the time being, made her stay worthwhile. =-)

ytd went to ying hse, godpa gave me the permission to go. i promise him, tht will be the last time i breakdown and he wun c me cry again bahs. tht's why, he's so angry with me today. =( i am sorry godpa.. but after tht was alright. they brought me breakfast and drinks, godpa saw i stop crying and walk to me, telling me to enjoy my meal. -_-" and i ask him to go away. haha.. dun disturb me. and he buying jia present, ;X and he say i cannot be jealous, cos i talk craps whole day. hhaha.. during math test was hyper, but still talking craps with godpa. keep suan-ing him about everything i hab in my mind. haha.. so he's nice not to be angry with me. the test was er-alright i think, can pass. haha.. from alst time single digit to now hor, i felt really proud of myself! =D so went to kbox to destress loh.. hehe.. I LOVE ALL MY PEEPS! hmm, graduation, dun come near me. i wanna be a pure greenridgean not an ex-greenrigean. =(

samuel meeting me tml. thank god. haha.. I REALLY LOVE 4E3 & MY BELOVED GODPA & 7 PRINCESS! =) i am not pamper, but i have a life with so many good friends and teachers with me. thanks, WO AI NI MEN! =DDD

IF I CAN GO BACK TO THE PAST, I WILL LOVE YOU PPL EVEN MORE! ;)

you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
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