365 days TOGETHER! wE aRe OnE BIG fAmIlY

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Dear Diary..

hais.. special thanks to ms tan for consoling me. hmm, i clearly knew uncle is pissed off or rather angry with the rumour thingy. and i knew it start with me eventuallt, but it's not i am the one who spread to the lower sec. i swear. and also the suana matter, is my fault again to write it on the board without realising the consequences tht it might spread to others as well. so, this few days, wadever i have done seem wrong to everyone. uncle is angry.. just dunno wad else i can do to ask uncle dun angry.. but then, i guess, there nth much i can do, perhaps, ignore is my only choice.

today didnt went to sch. was feeling abit sickish.. and vomitting.. same old thing. but no worries, i am not gonna die yet. ;) things around me isnt going smoothly. seriously, i dunno whata else i can do already.. seem like at my wits-end. but wad to do? actually i'm stupid also lah.. never think of the consequences then i wrote on the board. how stupid can i be? hais.. no comment lah.. let it be, i told ms tan sooo much, and really thanks ms tan for understanding how i felt and consoling me. and dun bluff me le lah, i know uncle angry with me cos of wad.. dun hab to tell me it's other reasons.. dun worry, i can handle.. thanks ya.

ms tan: i dunno you for too long, but in terms of feelings, i felt lyk we are old friends loh.. whenever i am feeling down, you will always know what happen and be the first one to notice tht. i dunno how come you will became so close to me, but thank god for letting me know you. after transfer under you, i felt more relax towards math and no doubt, i dun ask uncle anymore question. last time, i really resist have to go under you to be honest, cos lack of confident. you dun hab lesson lyk wad mr koh is doing, but you go through with us one by one. and not forgetting, you always rmb i got phobia towards distance time graph, transformation and also other things which i hate and i have not clear my doubt. i know mr koh longer than i know you, but i tend to share more personal feeling with you compare to mr koh. i seem close with him but sometime, i really doubt whether we really are anot. but for you, i share all little sercrets with you. we have no boundaries in term of friends or teachers.. i really appreciate it. i rmb everything you told me when i am feeling down. "dun blame ppl for not telling you, ask yourself why ppl dun wan to let you know." hais. actually, whenever uncle is angry with me, you do know it, but you knew it gonna hurt tht's why you told me, its not. well, it might seem like a lied but its for good intention nonetheless.. i dunno what happen between me and uncle, perhaps still unable to stand in each other position to think of stuff and looking at matter with different angles.. i know you dun hab to entertain me and stuff, but thanks for being there for me. i really hope, you join GR earlier and i get to know you earlier. i know you like to suan me, better do it before i graduate. and seriously, I REALLY LOVE YA! knowing my history and bother to find out from ppl like mr koh. even you didnt tell me who told you abt my history but i knew in heart its uncle who told you last time i am an ah lian. but thanks for having this trust like wad mr koh do have in me tht i change for better and i will nv go abck to my old path. hais. anyway, when i am feeling down, you are always there lah.. thanks. and i really do appreciate tht. =D and i am really sry tht the sec1 knew wad happen and the joke i crake abt your slowness.. i am really dead guilty abt it. sorry. beside sorry i also dunno wad to tell you already. thanks, ms tan for being so forgiving ehs. hahahaha..

alright, tml there's practical.. but luckily we ended at 930 but got to be detained til 130 if i am not wrong. and uncle is taking over the classess.. hais.. i still dunno why he can be angry for so long. but nvm. good luck to my practical tml. done some revision.. hahaha.. didnt waste my time today. thanks ying for acc me to talk and listen to my endless problems. love ya lots. and yongwei for insisting to acc me to cambodia. i really love you bro. and he promise to bring me to chicken rice after practical tml, but seem like no chance huh? really hope uncle will cool down soon. and things will be abck normal. anyway, i love the uncle who are smiling. hais, maybe only me and yongwei plus colleen going back. sound pathetic, but nvm, we gonna enjoy for sure. but i worry colleen might mind abt it.. haha.. nvm lah, i love myself. hais, wad have i done wrong? why is the whole world look angry with me? hais.. forget it.. sorry to ppl i offended, especially uncle and ms tan, guess i hurt you 2 again bahs.. dui bu qi! ;(

you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
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