365 days TOGETHER! wE aRe OnE BIG fAmIlY

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Dear Diary..

sigh.. i think i am really stupid and over concern of ya. i shldnt even bother about wad will happen to you. i guess this really sadden me too much. i dunno wad i meant to ya neither do i know what significant do i have in your life. all you have given me are just some empty dreams. hais.. why should i bother so much. i shldnt even care. perhaps, i am the really stupid one. i worry you wuld not be alright.. i worry this and that.. but in the end, you dun give a damn about me. so how am i suppose to feel now. am i know, i felt really hurt.

well, last day of our wonderful "holiday" or shld i say we dun even have a holiday.. nothing much, just getting ready to chiong til the end bahs.. olevel in 2 months more time. prelims in 3 days time. haha.. i haven even start revising anything yet. i guess the most confident will be my math? haha.. hope so bahs.. i know i must do really well for this prelims. hais.. dunno lah, currently feeling so low and down. ;(

hmm, have a nice chat with jie& ms tan ytd. cool. maybe ms tan also might feel i am fan. argh.. i dunno lah.. hmm, sch gonna reopen, i gonna be as happy as ever. haha.. maybe ppl feel my smile is fake, but so wad. i really sometime doubt i matter to you.. hais.. dunno lah..

alright, go watch my drama series.. kind of know who is the back-stabber in my life. thanks ah! idiot ppl. dun always assume can anot. and to those ppl who always think i will be angry.. pls keep your fukking mouth shut! i have enough all those of your craps and nonsense. what chemistry and math. to hell with it. when did i ever stop you ppl from doing chemistry? pls, if i really did tht, say it on my face ok? if dun have den dun make comments like : " dun let chingz know, ltr she unhappy we do chemistry." i haven heard with my ear and i believe these ppl will nv let me know.. so be it.. if you ppl love to hide den do it with a more sercret way. idiot. i dunno who is it. but anyway, if you are having guilty conscience now.. den it must be you. so ppl, just keep your damn mouth shut and let me enjoy my days in sec4 ok? blardy hell. and most imptly, those BTKs if you ppl dare to again let mr koh know anything abt this, and i kenna again, den i make sure i find out who's the BTK. idiot! and if uncle got to know, i am the one kenna.. when will it be ppl from other classess or involved in this? it always me! anyway, thanks to such ppl exsit in sec4 Es, making our bonding sucks like hell. so thank you ah.. i really dislike your doing. if you dare, dun back-stab me.. do it in board daylight. hmm, let it be.. i am in a good mood. ;)

going cambodia loh.. i wanna go.. thanks colleen.. you are the most supportive ones! I LOVE YOU!

i dun give a damn about ppl who dun give a damn abt me too. stupid ppl, when in trouble den come near me.. when there's not, den shoo.. cant find you. arghs.. wadever.. idiot ppl.. nvm, i love myself and ppl who cares abt me! =D

you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
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