you left me a wonderful memories that i will never forget.
well, went for an interview at sentosa today. err.. we was late. so darn pai seh lah, thanks to saiful. hmm, the interview was quite nervous lah, lols. i dunno wad to talk about it too. and joyce, the HR ppl.. seem like keep giving diffcult question to my friends. but then, my is perfectly alright. for all the question she was asking. gain new experience. cool! =)
well, went to vivo city since it's near by, err.. was kind of shock i think. too big to finish and we actually lost our way. was craving for long john since we met up. hahaha.. was suppose to report at 3 but ended up at 4 and start around 5. lols. how time flies. hmm, get to know from saiful, godpa was back to spore again. guess thise morning if not ytd night he reached spore. he didnt inform me this time, perhaps, due to we are not working on anymore project together. -_-" hmm, fun to sentosa bbut was like flashing back some other stuff till.. well, get to know if i'm shortlisted in 2 weeks time. currently rotting or is there any tempo job for me? lols..
ok, was thinking everything he once told me.. willing to do everything just for me. i'm the precious gem always. or even telling my friends he's a failure cos he unable to convince me. well, all this become very sweet past of ours isnt it? telling the whole world, how blessed i was but then it dun seem too true. well, i really hope to know, if i just meant to oyu or i'm simply nth? let me know.. i really hate thinking of you and waiting for your ans everyday. just tell me, am i just too much for you to handle or cos of other reasons, you dun feel like giving me a damn. let me know, i really living in agony this past few days, thinking if i make a right choice to know you. how am i suppose to feel? feel great and happy? putting a fake smile whenever i met up with my friends? looking into my phone for your msg? thinking of every moment you once tell me b4 i sleep? just the hell, wad am i to you? something when you in need then i came into useful use? let me know pls. i have no more courage to carry on with life. you left me. rach left me. 4E3 left me. mr koh and mr lee are all bz. i find life so darn bored you know. and all you do is just pacify me when you feel like it. i just miss those days in school. i just miss it. sitting outside the AVA, hanging ard the animal farm waiting for you. waiting for your arrival to find me. just this little waiting in my life just make me so happy cos i know, i matter to you at tht point of time. giving me calls when i'm studying asking me wad am i doing. but now, everything is over am i find myself dun worth it to you like in the past. why? why let me felt such ways? let us be back to the past, whereby all of us get our happiness? hais. i miss you and now i declares, i miss you real lots. can you just be fair to me? let me know how fukking impt am i to you to make me have the courage to carry on with you side by side. i really hope you do read this and let me know your ans and i know you nv will. nv will you let me know such things, cos you find me a bother, someone difficult ot pls. i can change, just you say it.
well, uncle didnt let me know he's back to spore. i dunno why, i guess i prefer to call him uncle. maybe find me fan too? yea, tht for sure. he's another one. =( well, 1 year have passed and it have been happy all along except you have make me cry several times. i know i might be a bother to you i know i'm just so irritating and sensitive but then. i dunno why, you seem like able to hold back my tears for others and manage make me move on. i dunno, perhaps, you really do matter to me. i dunno if you are bz or you are sleeping, tht wad i can think of. but i just found out one thing, whenever i told u wad happen or whether i'm sad, you choose not to reply. i dunno, perhaps, it another training for me to learn independence and not depend on my frenes or you. maybe. but then, can you at least sms with me? he dun care abt me, no one wan me.. i just felt so unwanted. you know? hais, smsed you like smsed wall. it forever the same. when do you gave me a damn like him? i cant stand it anymore. sigh! uncle, thankyou anyway. I LOVE YOU TRUCKS LOT too.. =( but then, can you acc me sms or at least, tell me wad to do. i'm so worry, you dun care abt me and you let me handle my life on my own. but then, at least teach me how to pull through this critical period can. i might be smiling all the way, but then, i do have up and down. i dun dare to tell you all this, cos i scare, you are as usual bz, as usual tired. but you are the best! x) sigh.. dunno lah, i also very blur. cheers, tkc bah.
well, type so much say so much. i just hope i die off without anything. those ppl who didnt treasure me will regret for life. but then, if i just die off like tht, wad will happen to my 4E3 and my other promises? sigh.. let it be bahs. just miss those school days, doing olevel as a goal and mathing all the way. at least everyday there is stress and we are working towards our goals. i dunno, i find it better than now. i have so much to think and worry. i miss prom nite planning most and mr lee sc. i called him just now. and he's as usual so cute and funny. mr lee, i love you. you are the only one tht treat me so good and nice. thankyou. you are my one and only best tcher! *hi-5* sarang haeyo. -_-" i just cant help feeling sad and feeling down. save me, let those ppl i treasure, treasure me as well. i feel like i'm a piece of trash where no one cares. can my uncle love me more and tht idiotic moron treat me better? or perhaps, it nv happen again. i dunno. miss the joy and fun in GR. miss mr soo and mr ong, dunno how they are doing now. i hate now. just let me die!
well, have been watching tv recently, pay back from last time bahs. uncle dun let us watch vcds, he say its a waste of time. ;) it's all his fault, everytime take away our holiday. now i got such a long holiday i dunno wad to do. hmm, well.. i just realise i talk too much. sigh. tkc ppl. xuan min going shanghai and she will find my uncle there. cool and so nice. err, ms tan to taiwan. take care ppl. envy you all. haha.. sigh, wad is love all about? is it right to be in it now? cant celebrate mr lee birthday. he's fully book. maybe we buy a cake to his hse downstair? hahah.. it's better! and cut for him. i love mr lee sc truck lot too. hais.. be it. tkc ppl. *hugs*
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PROFILE
PEICHING
fifteen
25April
Greenridge sec
4E3
CRAVINGS
pass my maths tests
turtle paradise
ADORES
4E3
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* riza .
* elaine .
* zhihui .
* xuanmin .
* beelin .
* kokheng .
* atikah .
* jon .
* shaun .
* joachim .
* preena .
* colleen .
* Lya .
* connie .
* felicia .
* alexis .
* nysa .