-[r][a][i][n][b][o][w]- `in. mie . worlds`

2007-01-02T14:59:00.000+08:00

well, first post of the year! HAPPY NEW YEAR! x) it's been like days i last blog. well, 2007 is finally here and there goes the 2006 and we are formally the ex-GReans. well, i'm not happy cos seriously, i miss those days!

greenridge, eversince i'm in sec1.. it became an important place in my heart. i never used to be proud to be a greenridgeans, but now i'm. in sec1, i got into endless problems, couselling and headaces to ppl like mr chui and mr koh. teachers cant handle me, and i felt like this whole school are like against me. but then i have a very good class, 1E3. u ppl might not be able to read wad i wrote here, or some of you might never know how grateful i'm to have you ppl in my life.

in 1E3, i know wad unity all about. [beyond all boundaries] tht our calss motto. hmm, i have great time with ppl like elaine, shaun, patrick, saiful, joachim, khai, siying, amal, nysa, rai, joshua, bo hao, joseph, jurrel. and alot more. they taught me life and how to be happy. i rmb those days of paining and painting of banners, which is really cool. i rmb the turtle and the fork which me and shuan insist of having it. i miss all those days in school. and we are in the 3rd floor by then. life is just great.

promoted to 2E3, ppl left and no new comers, the class shrink. but then, u ppl still gave me this chance to play as a leader. and well, i manage to bring the class closer and i cant really rmb wad our class motto is for sec2. but then, i know it's great. den, follow b the gathering in sentosa.. wahhahas.. it just so wonderful. knowing it's our last chances to be together and we will be separated in sec3. the art lesson by mr lee sc is greaat. the biting of joseph hand. haha.. and the mdm radia of calling us vain? hahhaha.. so cute. and ppl.. I LOVE YOU ALL!

den to 3E3, it might be the worst year in GR, as the chairman, i seldom do much stuff for u all. i'm like so uhm lousy? but then u ppl insist of giving me this chance. the art fest 2nd year and the 4oth anniversaary. and stuff. i enjoy so much. i get to know mr koh better and mr lee sc as my daddy. i love all of them so much. the class grew more matured and be more understanding. dne ot the cambodia trip where bring all the 3 classess closer or even the own classmates. the 10days in cambodia is just GREAT! and i enjoy just so much in life lah. i know ppl and ppl shld compromise one another. i learn to treasure and appreciate my school and actually cambodia trip creat the sense of belonging in me towards GR. i realised i'm treated like one of the family members, in fact, everyone are treated like their family members. and the teachers just top tip one too.

den to 4E3, changes and lots of changes in life. i began to treasure and know the word, FATE. which brought all of us together. having uncle as my emath teacher is a pleasure thing too. having him as my godpa and stuff, i hearts him lots. and also my class grew more and more united. the co-hord became closer towards the end of fighting olevel. the singing in class. the torturing we undergo with mr koh. the fighting and snatching session with the teachers. the tons of math we have been doing. and so much, and now.. we finally grew and have this sense for the school. i'll always be back to GR if they need me. i'm ready to serivce to the school. they change me from an ah lian to a leader which can lead now. i really aprreciate tht. the deep friendship we have for one another, the teacher-students relationship just rawks. i love my school. and now i'm proud to tell everyone, i never regret being a greenridgean and i love gr. even though we might just be a neighbourhood school, which no one knows, but at least we have top quality teachers and they mange to create this sense of belonging in all of us or shld i say most of us. and this sense of belonging is more impt that acadamic results, whereby other top students might not even have for their school, but we have for GR. last time, we complained we dun like the school but then now we know, GR is our second home. the time and memories we have in this wonderful places is which money cant be brought. GRS, the quality school! =)

well, all have past, and a new year start. i wanna live this year more fruitful and by doing more charity for others. well, i'm ready to be back to cabodia to serve the less fortunates. x) that's life, you never know when something you nv tot of doing might strike you. haha.. and i'm the alumni members, i already plan to participate in the mega funfair. ahaha.. to help to raise money for the school for the younger generations. omg, sound old. well, uncle will have anew batch waiting for him, i have much more things to do now, and also he will never forget me! i dun care! you promise.

uncle, this whole year being with you is just great. no matter how much i say, i know deep in your heart, you already know i appreciate you alot. and so, let's wait for actions! i will show you by actions. i dun care how long you and me might live to, but then, i swear i will spent your every brithday with you. i choose to believe you. cos you really rawks my life. just like the E3! sarang haeyo! x)

well, happy new year to all. i miss all my ida, preena, rai, nysa, amal.. and my jie-mei team! 4E3, teachers and GR! the passion for it! saiful, i miss you lots too. and most imptly, MDM HO KEE SIONG! i miss ya! x) tkc ppl. cheers, and i'm sure all ex sc will be ready to be back to serve too. haha.. cos SC rawks! wahahhas..

i learn, i practise, i swear. you ppl are the only one i love. and passion, belonging. i'm forever a member in greenridge!

2007-01-01T01:57:00.000+08:00

well, HAPPY 2007~ =) another new year, more new year resoultion yea!

1) to really study hard if i got the chance to study again.
2) make mroe new friends.
3) help ppl in this whole world who are in need.
4) go to aust to find rach, cambodia to find mkr and jarkarta to find ms evi.
5) hope GR will be a better place. evern though, it's really the BEST in bp area!
6) mr koh and gang will be less stress in this upcoming year.
7) peace in every places. especially in GR =)

well, there are just some wishes and thing i wanna do. and most imptly, i really wanto study hard if i got the chance again. of cos, not retaining in GR but growing in other places. x) well, it just uhm kind of regret, i didnt study hard enough to enjoy the benefits of other stuff. well, but GR taught me too much and i grow. new year is here and it's really time to look forward and get on with life yea!

hmm, went out with peeps just now. first to sentosa and to esplandae. not really a nice place yea. so crowed but i have lots of fun! well, after tht they came over to my place to talk to me. wahahas.. and play mahjong and poker cards. i won $3.50! wonderful yea! haha.. so crazy lah! currently talking to mr ong, he's my nicest firends in the sch. uncle, is just forever my uncle, who will scold and discipline me. well, but mr ong, will listen and teach me how to handle life. wahhas, i'm really fortunate, to know them so much and well.

I LOVE MYSELF! well, life is great. not dwelling in the past, i just wanto live on my own and with my dearest peers, teachers.. hmm, gtg. update next time yea. tag me! I LOVE YOU ALL!

2006-12-30T15:05:00.000+08:00

alright, haven been updating regularly.. due to i'm busy. wahahas.. went back to school for sec1 orientation. it was just one word, awesome. i was back as a senior and surprise pop out and been called by the ex-cos as special guest. =) well, thanks to uncle for allowing me to be back.

first night, was great! the councillors treat me like one of them and in fact, they are really nice ppl. was there since 6pm and mr koh didnt realised i'm there. hiding among the councillors and finally, he saw me! he told mr chui, peiching is there! wahhas.. so he keep calling me the extra one and mr chui was saying he's very happy to see the non sc member back to help. i hope so. wahhahs..

so, i saw how councillors work as one and ex-cos passing down msg and the communication skill as well as the teamwork. overall, i find that in a team, ther isnt just one leader, in fact everyone is a leader. ita dun act like she's the president, which is a good thing, she allow ppl under her to be a leader and leading the team. tht really something i learn in this camp. they treat one another with respect and especially towards seniors, super duper seniors and teachers, they are really well-manner. however, there are still thing they can improve on, like closing up little gaps in the juniors and seniors but overall, i find the councillors have done a great job. andi really enjoy. thankyou! xD

well, took 1E4 for the orientation, they are just a bunch of nice kids i think. like nadia, nelson, bryan, galvin, who else.. and tht talkative guys. i miss all of you so much! well, i will be back to GR to help. hmm, the kids ask me why i'm back to help even though i'm not a sc members, and i told them the reason, cos GR is my school and i feel the need to do my part to pass on this sense of belonging to my juniors! well, they actually love the seniors company and they keep telling me they are afriad of mr koh and the SC. haha.. but i told them, they are nice ppl too! hmm, so.. they enjoy the orientation even though nelson keep complaining it's boring. haha.. but overall, they have lots of fun. especially the few girls who i'm close to. mr koh told the sec1 abt me, cos i keep scolding him lame. den he say ask peiching how lame he can be. and my E4 gang really came to ask me! and due to they call me senior, they ask me who is peiching. haha.. so cute loh they all. i love them lots.

alright, ms evi, mr koh and mr chui took really good care of me. and mr lee sc, mr seah, mr ong as well as mr hang was glad i'm back to help the orientation and they say it's kind of surprise. hmm, how can tht be. i love you ppl lots! seriously, i cant bear to leave GR so much. and watch the cambodia video, mr koh didnt tell me he is showing again. was up in the gallery with rai and ppl, cry when i think of those past, i miss it lots. and saw the CDP video and saw rach, cried again. well, wad to do. miss it rite. rai cant control too. "the family we left behind in cambodia." make lots of friends like zhong ping and linsay. they are really nice too! hey, stupid zhong ping, if you see this :" BLEAHS! you zhu tou!" i miss you all too!

hmm, grew up in this camp and told everyone i'm t he undercover and mr koh only ask me to do duty when i graduate. so thansks mr koh, he choose not to help me to adapt into the team instead he want me to know everyone by myself. i love you uncle! didnt really show the respect like councillors, cos i just get too high easily. so went on to keep hitting him, and he keep kicking my leg. like so diao loh, childish. and keep asking me dun hang ard blk 429. diao! haha.. didnt stay for ORD night, well, their super duper seniors will be back, not so nice. but i enjoy. really! thankyou ppl! x) ohhh.. somemore, is the stupid seniors, t hey are quite nice in fact, like jian hao.. haha.. hope u ppl dun mind i'm back to help yea! ;) i'll join the SC from now on. hahah.. I LOVE SC! =x

hmm, linsay and gang are cute too. farhan, xue wei, ita, changyou, mel and meneka. haha.. all are so funny. not forgetting my partner, haikal! ida's sister and nadia.. who else.. hmm, the station master with zhongping grps, the guys and ppl. well, thanks for accepting me aas one of you all. i find it uneasy at first but then, it's really cool. ohya, saifullah, i find u fierce at first, but overall, you are alright when i talk to you. thankyou! hehehe.. well, I ENJOY!

hmm, will go back to cambodia soon. wahahs.. cant wait for it. ohya, i going cambodia. i going cambodia. hahah... uncle wear the watch i brought for him on his birthday. the fossil one! uhm, like finally. *hugs* miss school and i will be passing everything down and gradauted and ppl will not know me anymore! =( mr lee sc was so darn happy when he know i'm back to relief.. but tht a lie, who wanna go. wahhas.. see how bahs. miss school so darn much. i miss mdm heng and mr jin. saw mrs chew and ms haryani. opps, is mdm haryani. aiya, one year le, i till like to cal her mdm haryani. mr ong and ms tan, hais! =( nxt dunno when is the time to see you all again.

uncle wear the watch we brought. and i saw the box on his table. =) and he always put it back when he finish wearing. so cute ah him. i miss you uncle. uncle will be the one i miss the most, cos he taught me too much stuff! woaini! hope he will not be stress next year. he's taking sec3! wonderful!

well, dunno when will be the next time i be updating. hope it gonna be soon yea. i hearts GR, teachers, SC and the sec1! wakakkas! xD

2006-12-18T18:54:00.000+08:00

alright! i'm back for more updates! =) well.. life is just so err- bored at the time being. yea! christmas is coming.. but then, there's no one to really celebrate with me. but then, my big family there are having this celebration but doubt i will be going, so sian one! lols.. only exchanging present! hahaha.. i guess, i will spent with peeps or just sleep the night. ohya, heard rai say we are supposed to check in for coucillor camps on the 25th with the ex-cos, but then, i myself not a coucillor, haha.. but then, i'm going cos i wanna treat them eat mah. decided with rai wad to do already. ohya, she's always, so productive when she wan to. =x no offence, i love her! =)

well, went to town and bugis, my usual places lah.. to get present for uncle and xm. haha.. cos, i wanna return uncle the 900$ by installment, but no matter how i disturb, he refuse the money. so i got him this super cute present, which again, is something i like but not him. lols. err, he ask me to keep those money and spent wisely. even i wanted to treat him dinner, he also refuse. cos he insist, it's my hard-earn money. wlel, thankyou godpa. you rawks! =D so i brought him a xmas gift, so i wun be feeling so gulity tht my class owe him so much, and he might rmb this gift for life. ohya, even this thing cute but then i saw smth nicer after tht. a robort calculator. it so funny. haha.. i know uncle love calculator, so.. hahah.. i'm like keep spending today. and finally, the feeling of using POSB card is great. finally! next target is to get myself a credit card, but then rai and ppl say, it's using future money. oh, i miss the JIE-MEI team to bits! *hugs*

ohya, got xm this really nice present, which i myself dun really like but then i know she will like it one lah. haha.. cos tht time, when we all searching for prom night things, she love it so much, so i just brought it loh. =) hahha.. well, i might be free this whole week. wakkakas, it gonna rawks for sure. but then no money, who cares. yea! i miss my class, my school, my teachers, my friends, my jie-mei team so much. well, i haven been hearing from mr lee sc, dunno how's he in the camp. =( ohya, and mr ong, finally, he gonna be back from his japan trip. yippee! and uncle is back, but then too busy to care abt me. well, it time to be independence! buhahaha.. so cool hor? i love myself! wakakaks..

so today is really a nice shopping trip. and i really hate working lah. it just not so rawks. hahah.. ohya, and i gonna send uncle christmas present via speedpost. i give him myself, he wun be surprise, den i must heard him nag and nag again. wahahas, so until he recieve, he shld be veyr happy. and i know, i buy him smth i like and it's in orange, i wanna get a pink one but i cant find any. whahahas.. he hab alot of pink stuff from me. such as the big big strawbeery shortcake water bottle and also i cant rmb wad i gave him, it mostly in pink lah, cos i laways like pink and he hate pink. haha.. but then no choice, i dun like white too. ohya, go for the recuitment in action city. hais, pls lah.. god, i love action city nehs, pls let me work there. ohya, suddenly sms ms yong ytd, and she got a shock or smth. haha.. i guess, i might sudden call mr koh, he might go crazy too. lol.. ohya, i miss school life, damn much lah! =(

alright, i gonna go watch those show now. so nice. ohya, i miss my uncle. haha.. he's bz. heard nlevel result is not tht good this year. well, wadever, it dun concern me. =0 wahahas.. and i miss school days.. darn much lah.. hmm, checking in with rai and ppl on the 25th most prob. and will help in sec1 orientation. yea.. i wanna go eat clapot rice, uncle, faster bring me go eat lah.. i miss mr ong, mr koh, mr lee sc, WO HAO XIANG NI MEN ARHS! =( when den can i go back and see you all again?

2006-12-11T14:48:00.000+08:00

alright.. =) i'm here to update again. wahahas.. so many days didnt update my blog, cos were lazy and bz working. i wanna take up more jobs, ppl, pls intro me.. lol! i got no choice, wanna go back cambodia and go aust find rach.. heh heh.. so ppl, pls.. got any lobang intro gimme ok? lol.. i now got a promotor job which only work on sat and sun. and every 730pm-1130 pm i'm working in town. so morning is consider free. i can take up one more job. wahahas.. so cool huh? i wanna work lah! rather den die at home.

alright, news for ppl in 4E3! i already decided to put our gathering on the 23th of dec which will be in sentosa, pelawan beach. and i will still send a mass email and msg to all my dear classmates! i miss you ppl so so much! okok, pls lah, reply my msg and email lah! gundu heads. wo hao xiang ni men! =)

alright, tht should be all for the gathering, i'm lazy to post as well! =) and ohya.. this fewd ays, like i say.. i'm bz lah.. looking for jobs and working currently. hmm, like wad uncle say i'm getting used to it already! *hugs*
was listening to when i suddenly think of last time the joy s and fun in class. it's so darn fun lah! ;(
i miss the noise i make..
i miss them asking me to shut up..
i miss counting down to my brithday..
i miss all those lesson which i find it a bother..
i miss been kept in AVA til 6pm..
i miss getting into trouble..
i miss those busyness in school..
i miss singing song with them..
i miss our 11 claps..
i miss the 29 of us being together with mdm ho..
most imptly, i miss the whole class..
i miss mr steven koh..
i miss mr ong..
i miss mr tan asking for PE..
i miss mr soo..
i miss mr seah..

so many i miss, but wad the use, once it gone.. it gone forever.. well, perhaps, it's really time to start something new. i really miss those days. i cant deny the fact tht i'm lazy and tired.. but then, thos stupid days in GR, it just so great. the path.. the animal farm.. the staircase.. everything. i miss all of you so much.. (",) when will we meet up? and hab those fun again?

alright, on the 8th of dec.. the JIE MEI team finally meet up.. with nysa, amal, rai, khai and me.. and also absent preena and bei.. well.. it so fun even though we meet up less than 2 hrs.. but then it so fun to be with them. ok, we were supposed to have this surprise birthday celebration for mr lee sc, daddy! but then the day b4, i keep bluff daddy say i wanna meet him to pass him his receipt. den daddy keep saying he's bz and no time for us. so ok, nvm.. on the 8th, i keep insisting of meeting him den he got really flare up and end his sentence with a "la" each. hmm, tht the first time daddy is so fierce and irritated by me.. lol..

but then, we still meet up at night. we got him a album which is a first page " HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY" den second page is the drawing of him and the JIE MEI TEAM. den third page is the combination of his picture and ours. den 4th page is 32 different languages of "I LOVE YOU" cos he's 32th this year! =) and lastly, a page of dedication to him! wahhahas.. so nice rite? and we also broguht him a birthday cake. haha.. i make for him a bottle of hearts with message in it and 8 rolls of papers with long long msg to him. haha.. miss him so much.. den still got a peice of letter to him. lol.. den we went to his hse, tot he's at home. stupid lah us!

den we walk ard the block of 420 and 421, and thanks to shawn ang sister, we manage to found his hse. but he's not at home. lols.. den we squat at the staircase there and think of ways to find him. haha.. rai called him eventually and he know i'm the mastermind lah.. but then he still dunno we wanna celebrate his birthday for him! so cute loh him.. den we passed the present to the father.. and his dad also very nice.. keep telling us thankyou andi think we scare him abit lah. haha.. so after tht we sent rai home and took LRT back home.. =) it just so great to be with them...

den went home, daddy smsed me! to tell me how touched he's lah.. haha.. so nice rite? err, he say we make meaning in his life. of cos, you are our daddy and it gonna be forever! and alot lah, this few years with him i really learn alot, play alot.. he's a nice daddy. wahahas.. but then now reservist. will come out soon yea? wo ai ni! <3HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! you are 32th year old le, so old! lols..

alright, preena went to india on the 9th. haven seen her for long time. i guess the day after we part at MRT? lol.. hmm, miss those days lah.. heh heh.. i enjoy surprising daddy than godpa. cos everytime i surprise godpa, he will be like : "oh, so touched!" or.. "u siao huh?" "when u so nice to me?" but then still i know he appreciate in his heart lah, only the way is not so direct. he keep in heart. i miss godpa too, he's in shanghai. how many more days do i left with to enjoy with them? i gonna miss such life, if i really gonna be gone. anyway, once it's gone. it's gone forever. rmb me forever in your heart. understand anot?

well, i gonna be working at night today.. cool man! lols.. not bad lah, i miss everyone... rmb, i'm afraid of thunderstorm.. I LOVE RAIN! =D

2006-12-02T01:21:00.000+08:00

well, went for an interview at sentosa today. err.. we was late. so darn pai seh lah, thanks to saiful. hmm, the interview was quite nervous lah, lols. i dunno wad to talk about it too. and joyce, the HR ppl.. seem like keep giving diffcult question to my friends. but then, my is perfectly alright. for all the question she was asking. gain new experience. cool! =)

well, went to vivo city since it's near by, err.. was kind of shock i think. too big to finish and we actually lost our way. was craving for long john since we met up. hahaha.. was suppose to report at 3 but ended up at 4 and start around 5. lols. how time flies. hmm, get to know from saiful, godpa was back to spore again. guess thise morning if not ytd night he reached spore. he didnt inform me this time, perhaps, due to we are not working on anymore project together. -_-" hmm, fun to sentosa bbut was like flashing back some other stuff till.. well, get to know if i'm shortlisted in 2 weeks time. currently rotting or is there any tempo job for me? lols..

ok, was thinking everything he once told me.. willing to do everything just for me. i'm the precious gem always. or even telling my friends he's a failure cos he unable to convince me. well, all this become very sweet past of ours isnt it? telling the whole world, how blessed i was but then it dun seem too true. well, i really hope to know, if i just meant to oyu or i'm simply nth? let me know.. i really hate thinking of you and waiting for your ans everyday. just tell me, am i just too much for you to handle or cos of other reasons, you dun feel like giving me a damn. let me know, i really living in agony this past few days, thinking if i make a right choice to know you. how am i suppose to feel? feel great and happy? putting a fake smile whenever i met up with my friends? looking into my phone for your msg? thinking of every moment you once tell me b4 i sleep? just the hell, wad am i to you? something when you in need then i came into useful use? let me know pls. i have no more courage to carry on with life. you left me. rach left me. 4E3 left me. mr koh and mr lee are all bz. i find life so darn bored you know. and all you do is just pacify me when you feel like it. i just miss those days in school. i just miss it. sitting outside the AVA, hanging ard the animal farm waiting for you. waiting for your arrival to find me. just this little waiting in my life just make me so happy cos i know, i matter to you at tht point of time. giving me calls when i'm studying asking me wad am i doing. but now, everything is over am i find myself dun worth it to you like in the past. why? why let me felt such ways? let us be back to the past, whereby all of us get our happiness? hais. i miss you and now i declares, i miss you real lots. can you just be fair to me? let me know how fukking impt am i to you to make me have the courage to carry on with you side by side. i really hope you do read this and let me know your ans and i know you nv will. nv will you let me know such things, cos you find me a bother, someone difficult ot pls. i can change, just you say it.

well, uncle didnt let me know he's back to spore. i dunno why, i guess i prefer to call him uncle. maybe find me fan too? yea, tht for sure. he's another one. =( well, 1 year have passed and it have been happy all along except you have make me cry several times. i know i might be a bother to you i know i'm just so irritating and sensitive but then. i dunno why, you seem like able to hold back my tears for others and manage make me move on. i dunno, perhaps, you really do matter to me. i dunno if you are bz or you are sleeping, tht wad i can think of. but i just found out one thing, whenever i told u wad happen or whether i'm sad, you choose not to reply. i dunno, perhaps, it another training for me to learn independence and not depend on my frenes or you. maybe. but then, can you at least sms with me? he dun care abt me, no one wan me.. i just felt so unwanted. you know? hais, smsed you like smsed wall. it forever the same. when do you gave me a damn like him? i cant stand it anymore. sigh! uncle, thankyou anyway. I LOVE YOU TRUCKS LOT too.. =( but then, can you acc me sms or at least, tell me wad to do. i'm so worry, you dun care abt me and you let me handle my life on my own. but then, at least teach me how to pull through this critical period can. i might be smiling all the way, but then, i do have up and down. i dun dare to tell you all this, cos i scare, you are as usual bz, as usual tired. but you are the best! x) sigh.. dunno lah, i also very blur. cheers, tkc bah.

well, type so much say so much. i just hope i die off without anything. those ppl who didnt treasure me will regret for life. but then, if i just die off like tht, wad will happen to my 4E3 and my other promises? sigh.. let it be bahs. just miss those school days, doing olevel as a goal and mathing all the way. at least everyday there is stress and we are working towards our goals. i dunno, i find it better than now. i have so much to think and worry. i miss prom nite planning most and mr lee sc. i called him just now. and he's as usual so cute and funny. mr lee, i love you. you are the only one tht treat me so good and nice. thankyou. you are my one and only best tcher! *hi-5* sarang haeyo. -_-" i just cant help feeling sad and feeling down. save me, let those ppl i treasure, treasure me as well. i feel like i'm a piece of trash where no one cares. can my uncle love me more and tht idiotic moron treat me better? or perhaps, it nv happen again. i dunno. miss the joy and fun in GR. miss mr soo and mr ong, dunno how they are doing now. i hate now. just let me die!

well, have been watching tv recently, pay back from last time bahs. uncle dun let us watch vcds, he say its a waste of time. ;) it's all his fault, everytime take away our holiday. now i got such a long holiday i dunno wad to do. hmm, well.. i just realise i talk too much. sigh. tkc ppl. xuan min going shanghai and she will find my uncle there. cool and so nice. err, ms tan to taiwan. take care ppl. envy you all. haha.. sigh, wad is love all about? is it right to be in it now? cant celebrate mr lee birthday. he's fully book. maybe we buy a cake to his hse downstair? hahah.. it's better! and cut for him. i love mr lee sc truck lot too. hais.. be it. tkc ppl. *hugs*

2006-11-29T14:24:00.000+08:00

alright, fianlly i feel like updating again. =) mr ong went to japan today. arghs! one more tcher is leaving me behind! =( sianz.. hais, this few days, i have been rotting and sleeping at home. life is just so bored lah! i hate it, i rather i didnt graduate, i rather i will be in GR attending lesson everyday. doing math every monday, arghs, mr koh! i want you to give me alot alot alot of hmwk. i'm seriously kind of bored to death at home le. hais.

alright, today is the 29th, last year at this time, i was having emath with the E2 in AVA with mr koh. sigh! this year? i'm rotting like hell. hais! i miss those fun days lah. it's also the first time, i buy mr koh drink and start to know him better, lols. and also know he gonna be my sec4 emath tcher. sigh. one year have just passed. i'm so darn bored lah! it's also i become his god daughter for 1 year liao. and thanks to him, i have been improving my math. hahha.. hais, i miss those mathing days with e2 and e3.. i miss those freezing to death days in study room. i miss those busy and tired days in class. i miss those teacher counting down to prelims or rather olevel. and now, it's over. i miss those days the class will do the 11 claps, the few of us will sing forever love. i rmb how they bully on my birthday. lock me outside my classroom, dun let me go in. hahha.. and i stand on the chair to sing myself a birthday song. and jur and nic will use water to pour me. haha.. so fun! and they keep threatening if i gonna be more noisy, they will throw me down the level. lols! they always bully me -_-".. hahha.. still got the time we chionging for events and endless events and it affecting our work. lols. omg, i'm just so sad abt everything lah. E3, rawks my life in every way! *hugs* =) oh, i miss counting down to my bdae. i miss them asking me to shut up whenever i wanan talk. i miss them calling me mafia, cookie monster. i miss them saying i'm noisy. i miss mrk oh calling me a gd gal. i miss those happy days in GR. i really do. sigh!

ok, mr koh ty, mr lee sc, mr k seah is all in jarkarta! =( i miss all of them. especially my godpa and mr lee! haha.. gonna celebrate his bdae. godpa ah, when u coming back? i wan you to bring me out to buy things and eat! u owe me my claypot rice! sigh! mr ong is gone, everyone is gone. i am just so darn sian lah! i miss my teachers and friends. i hate holidays. i wanto have school everyday. i will not complain GR ugly uniform. i swear. i will be attentive everyday. i will finish my hwmk. i will be a really gd girl. i will not show black face. i will not be noisy anymore. i miss you all lah! -_-" lameshit! *beat head* wake up lah! stop dreaming. sigh!

well, one year have passed.. and godpa say he will look for me ard dec. sigh! so long one. and this year under you is just great lah. so sian now, after ur training, i'm like craving for more math. cn u just faster come back from ur jarkarta! i'm so rotting at home lah! I MISS MY UNCLE ALOT! ahahah.. hais.. so long i must wait..

alright, i'm darn sian nowadays.. fianlly we are meeting up to ying hse and slack together.. buhahah.. finally man! i get to go out of my hse. was catching tian wai fei xian everyday. hmm, better than nth. alright.. now gonna go bath and go siying hse. buahhaha.. hmm, friday, i will be having an interview at sentosa. lols! yea! and i miss my mr lee, mr ong and uncle.. faster come back lah, zhu tou loh they all. left good girl in spore. lols! yea! uncle will be back on fri most probably! yea!

lols, gtg. cheers everyone. i miss my ppl and the ching gang! lols! jie mei team too.. hais.. LIFE SUCKS! i wanto have fun! =( miss everyone greatly.. alot alot alot.. ;) today is a wednesday, supposingly is a math day. but then olevel finish le, and now being too free, i also complain. i miss the study room and the endless mathing with 4E3 and uncle. WO HAO XIANG NI MEN ARHS! -_-" math math math, math make me mad. lols.. mr soo, how are you? I MISS YOU ALOT TOO! x)

2006-11-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

Everything is over. prom nite, GR-normal days, Rach.. everything have finally come to an end of everything. rach life have finally start a new chapter, isnt it time to start mine too?

Life without my daily fun with the 4Es friends and 4E3, mr koh, mr lee sc, mr ong, mr tan and so many people. i dunno how am i gonna survived through this new and boring chapter? Life without math is completely not fun. life without art is not fun too. i dunno wad to do or where to start this new chapter. I gonna miss all the fun in Greenridge.. my second family. i promise i will visit all the teachers who taught me and make a difference in my life whenever i got time. not forgetting mdm heng, who isnt at all demanding abt the prom night arrangement. and guide us through how to recieve the guest and stuff. she isnt tht fierce. really. i enjoyed.

ohwell, prm nyte was great. got sabotage and went up for a speech. i make it short and sweet lah. err.. cos i really got no ideas wad to share. haha.. i saw tht stupid mr seah and mr koh was like laughing at me as usual lah. haha.. i miss them so much now. bleahs! =D was awake at 430am cos really was nervous abt the preparation and i didnt get it done earlier enoguh. so ended up, preena was awake too. so reach school at 7am and chiong all the things until 2pm. rush home and preapre myself. wento do my hair at around 3pm. hahah.. so was again late for the meeting with the rest. was supposed to be in schoool by 330pm but i ended up reaching at 430pm. so settle the last part and around 5pm i let them change and get ready for the registration at 545pm. well, eneded late again. and not much comments abt the preparations, we really work real hard for it. hope everyone enjoyed. was really a waste tht we cant take a picture with one another. as it's really too rushing for everyone. haha.. so was running up and down and everything get started at around 7pm. so thanks to mr koh for taking over, he was really helping lah, cos he feel v guilty to dump us here and went to cambodia. lols. so it's really fun for others but hellish for the committee.

special thanks to the committee, coucillors and also ppl who turn up. x) i enjoyed every seconds working with everyone. was so tired lah. so when ppl was dancing happily, me and mr koh was cleaning the foyer with the help of sum coucillor, they are such a bunch of nice kids. hahah.. so nice lah.. so in the end, around 11+ we went up to clean the hall when everyone left us. haha.. so me and mr koh was darn lame lah. now he promote to be my laming partner. lols. i enjoy being with him, ms evi and even mr lee sc. haha.. so cute lah all fo them. so with the 2 uncle and 1 da jie, we went on cleaning and playing around. haha.. so we was even having competition when cleaning up. lols! xD ms evi and amal a team, me and sc a team. lols. so mr lee lah, so gundu one, cant even flow faster and in the end we lose! =( so in the end, it's the competition between me and uncle. lols. we push the boxes along the way and keep running. haha.. he was behind me and in the end i nearly fall. it so fun lah! hahah.. i miss them so much. and went on for supper aroud 12 bahs. haha.. so mr koh was lame lah! he keep suanning me and stuff and say thanks to all committee except me! wth rite? den went he tapped my shoulder he was like : NO THANKS! wahlao eh, nvm. den he still continue to suan me abt sipeng and ppl. as all of them are there. so he keep telling ppl how i conquer the level and how i behaved. idiotic sia! =( so ppl was laughing at me again. and he keep mixing the rice and noodle together. so i complain he ask me shut up. and always suan me! arghs! but such moments will not be here anymore.. humphs! cos i graduated eventually. haha.. so lee was keep talking lah, and the committee together suan mr lee together. lols! yea! x) so it so funny lah! i'm so paiseh lah.. haha.. so everyhting end around 130 am i think den mr lee send me back home. nice guy! haha.. mr koh no car, so cant send me home! wahahas.. xD i really dun like them lah, stupid mr koh lah, jio dem for supper didnt tell me, if i know, i wun tag along. so darn paiseh. stupid uncle purposely one. humphs! everything ended well. i hope i can tell the coucillor how grateful i'm to them. thnakyou! you ppl rawks! haha..

so went to send rach off ytd. cry like hell. start breaking down at suki sushi and keep crying at more than words. i gonna miss her so much. nothing much to say, she have left me. and all i can do is proceed to the next chap of my life. hais. working and forget everything . arghs, school life is so fun lah! x) i love them. hmm.. hugged her and eventually, let her go. hais.. godpa say he will find me in dec he is bz and leaving for jarkata tml and shanghai on the 6th. and i gonna disturb him to bring to brisbane. hahha.. sarang hae yo rachie! haha..

so, will still cry lah.. will still be sad. lols. i miss the planning most. so bz everyday. i regret not acc her for the 4 days. i'm really lousy. hais.. but then, i learnt alot in this few days. hmm, i email mdm heng. haha.. crazy rite? lols. .err.. ok, got to sleep. i'm lacking of sleep for many days.. lols.. hmm.. i gonna miss os many ppl in my life. hais.. working hard and go to brisbane! well, 4E3 rawks my life. wo ai ni men! x) *hugs*

hmm.. lets move on together to this new chapter. i miss uncle, finally he's back and he gonae to jarkarta again. he ask me to wait for his car to be here and he gonna bring us out to play again. hmm.. yea! oh, i wanto go disturb mr ong. haha.. 10th dec is my mr lee bdae! and mr ong on the 13th dec. i will celebrate for them. as they are growing older. and next year, mr koh. haha.. i told godpa when i got my first pay, i will bring him out. but he drive. hmm, i hope you rmb wad you told me ok? *hugs*

ok, gtg.. dunno when i will update again. lot of thanks to the following people. THE COMMITTEE - ( raihana, nysa, amal, beilin, preena, khairul), THE T EACHERS I/C- (mr lee sc, mr steven koh, mrs tan sh)
THE TEACHERS WHO HELP- (mr soo, mrs v lim, mr lim pt, MS EVI, the clerks.) THE COUCILLORS-( 20 of them? Ita, Chang you, Farhan, Xue Wei, Melissa, rai & ida sista! and many more... i dunno ur name) =x and i already told mr koh, i will b back for coucillor camp. haha.. crazy me lah. thankyou coucillors. hmm.. it's already ended, ending.. hais.. everything is over. and we are now formally the alumni members. haha.. siao ah, go join this alumni. but nvm.. i will appeal to get a stall for mega funfair. i gonna miss all the teachers like hell. i can go visit mr soo soon! yea, he retired already. yea! and buy him katong laksa. haha.. wonderful!

well, tkc ppl. i love you all 4 life..

2006-11-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

well, OLEVEL have finished! x) and i am having the taste of the freedom and everything. lols! it just so nice to be freed from the jail and touching the sky. hahaha.. well, i'm lame and slow i know. hmm.. life rawks man! X)

okok, i wento highlight my hair in red after last paper and the prom nyte preparation. see, nice rite? hahaha.. i kind of like my hair today. it just look so damn cute lah! ok, self-praise is no praise. but then, i only highlight my fringe. hehehe.. and i love the red. hmm, went to bugis to buy prom dress, and i brought it. make 2 new friends in bugis which is in the shop. damn funny lah they all.. haha.. so brought dress and earing. hmm, not tht ugly looking i think. i always look pretty hor! saw dear over there. he's so funny. called me so loud.

this few days have been tied down with prom preparation and stuff. i have enoguh of everything. keep changing here and there. blardy hell. i really feel is so darn irritating lah, and we have to sloved the problems cos of wad the tchers and alumni hab plan to do. perhaps, i am tired. well, the motivation sms by mr koh keep my team mate go on. and now due to this stupid problem, their mood is so darn down lah. i dunno wad to do already. hais.. perhaps, i am the lousy leader lah! mr koh, COME BACK LAH! i wanto work with you and mr lee sc! =( mr lee rawks. he is the 2nd one the keep us going without complaining directly to him. so just now, we called and "scolded" him. cos i got scolded for nth mahs and my rai and jie-mei team. thanks 4 working hard lah. i feel so bad lah. dui bu qi.

went to town followed by bugis again just now. i was searching for heels. and i found it. brought a necklace to go with it. and wad else? oh.. prom nite signing in paper. hehehe.. not forgetting work when shopping yea? lols! ok, special thanks to min, who been telling me and trying to convince me tht my hair colour is nice and ask me dun give a damn abt others. ok, there is just little hipccups in the 10 of us. all of us just cant compromise to one another. and i really dunno wad to do already. hais, A wanna go here, B wanna go other place. den A dun wan go to the place B wanto go cos B dun wan go to the place A wanto go. i dunno lah, so irritating. and cos of prom nite stuff, i only manage to meet them late at night or sumthing? lucky, off day for today. and i'm enjoying myself. ok, i declared i'm really tired. =(

okok, i believe my hair is nice lah. haha.. i really feel so bad tht my jie mei team have to work harder than b4. well, prom nyte is coming. buhaha.. kind of excitied? chionging tml. hais! =( i'm sad lah.. ok? lols.. they going kbox loh.. rubbish. actually, they very sad i cant follow them! hahah.. i know i know.

to whoever think tht my hair is ugly, so let it be lah.. as long as i think is nice can le. wahahhas.. cos i love it. dunno lah, i just dun like thte idea of highlighting my hair at the back. cos i love the black too. hehe.. alright. event is coming and all of them are so tired. so sorry ok? hais..

i'm full of guilt towards the 4E committee members. they are doing work and really helping me in wadever they could. rai, nysa, pree, amal, khai, bei. everyone is so nice lah, doing their part or even doing more than wad they are doing more than wad they are supposed to do. and i'm not the student leader. all of us are the student leader. and i know it's suffering to work with me and under tht person lah, bear with it for me, mr lee sc and mr koh. thanks ppl. *hugs*

hais, alright, i have to continue chionging the stuff. meeting 8 tml? kill me pls! i gonna die soon le lah! =( so much rubbish i need to do. wad the hell. my leg is aching like hell! i wan mr koh to be back, no worries 4 $ anymore. hais. okok..i'm lousy. let it be.

1 and 1/2 day more, my dear uncle will be back to singapore. i miss him so much lah! hahah.. be it, i know it gonna have rumours i like mr koh. hahaha.. be it lah. both of us got used to it.. so, BE IT!I MISS MY UNCLE! wahahas.. cool man.. he gonna bring back makara letter. yippee! prom nite tht day committee will be working like hell.

god, pls make it a nice one, b4 the ppl hantam me. ahah.. hope it gonna be cool lah. thankyou! I LOVE THE JIE- MEI TEAM!

2006-11-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

alright. today is really hellish for the JIE-MEI team! lols. we got to go purchase everything with mr lee at the last minute decision. but then, it was really darn fun! xD went back to school early in the morning to paint the boxes and stuff. was gossiping as usual. heh heh heh. fun arhs! the JIE-MEI team is made up of khai, preena, bei lin, rai, nysa, amal and me! basically, the whole lot of sec4E ppl. lols! X) and we been having fun too.. and found a new name for mr lee sc, xDMR RIEL LEE (really?) SZE CHUIN! haha.. i hearts my mr lee sze chuin, he so nice!

godpa smsed me ytd telling me must help. so was like smsing back, telling him i will help but then, seriously, i dun feel like doing anything abt it too. i just waiting for 20th nov to come and i can shoo.. go and play and highlight my hair. haha.. so morning, he called me again. lameshit loh him, keep telling me, the bill very ex. and so many times he was saying the bill very ex =_=" nv go back to the point one loh. haha.. but then, it's nice. i heard his voice finally. i miss my uncle like hell loh.. wahahas.. i miss his car. go out no one fetch me! =x

so raihana was found in the NUH garbage bin. tht wad mr riel say. haha.. so went to concourse and eat. find stuff and finally got all done. mr riel brought us lunch as the JMT(jie-mei team) have not eat since morning. so finally have "breakfast" at around 2pm. wahahas. mr riel treat us! x) cool man. he's the nicest teacher i ever have in life. so cool lah. so in the end, the budget was like cut until dunno left how much and seriously, i cant be bothered lah. it just so darn irritating. i have enough of the nonsense. and first time, i find organising a hassle. lols! but for ucle sake, i will perserver! yea!~ ohh.. so was playing with the cloth bei brought for the prom queen and king and in the end, we put it over mr riel's head and took a photo of it. lols! so cool. den buy him a " I LOVE YOU" pink balloon. he claim it's so paiseh, but touched at wad we do for him lah. i love lee sc 4 life! haha.. he rawks.

ok, so went on to forum to get the tiara and stuff. mr riel drop us there. and mr koh was smsing me! hmm, he wanna get others to help, but den i dun see a need anyway. heh heh.. so he was like saying i am a women who complete big issuses. thanks uncle. wo hao xiang ni ah! x) den walk to far east, where mr riel claim he's over there. but then we search high and low but cant find him. lols.. so went on to causeway at around 4+ and stay until 6+ and went to ikea. we was like running all over ikea and done sumthing not so right lah. but out of no choice. oh, i brought mr koh the heart cushion. he always say he want it! so finally got one for him. spent $ again. time with the JIE-MEI team pass so fast and so fun lah. i enjoy.

i know my uncle, have place ppl cant stand or wadsoever. but then, the committee love him! haha.. he rawks lah! xD hais, 5 more days, and my uncle will be back! yea` i'm crazy? yeap, i'm! haha.. so, we went home and thing of wad to do on monday. oh gosh, i cant believe it man, my olevel will be over in 48 hrs time. yea! so cool! i wanna go highlight my hair, i wanna go find my prom dress, i wanna go enjoy the life. and wait patiently for uncle to b back with my gifts! hahaha.. he gonna find me claypot, and riel ( cambodia $), finally complete the 4E3 video -phews-!
-_-"

well, just reach home. ohya, i got to know i got the GPA (good progress award) lols! yea! they are giving me $! hahaha.. finally. ibut then ppl who have done better got 2 lah. i shld do better. haha.. mr riel ask me to try MI too. see how lah! depend on my mood! wahahas.. highlight my hair seem the most interesting thing to do. finally.

oh well, i gonna rest. tml is another long day of revision. and by 9am on monday, i will formally declare, i'm the ex-greans. haha.. wadever it's. and uncle is back, semm like the most interesting thing too. i dun wan him to miss me too much. hurry back! haha.. i gonna go bonkers preparing the stupid prom night thing. to hell with it, if not for mr lee sc and mr steven koh tee yong, i will not be in the committee. if u ppl think is an easy job, have a try. hellish. mr riel didnt help at all! =( yea. life's fun. i love mr riel, miss him so much too. wahahas..

2006-11-14T22:19:00.000+08:00

well,have not been updating for days already! =) due to the endless olevel chionging and also the prom night planning. sigh! so much things are waiting for me, i didnt even plan to do anything for prom night. arghs! =(

mr koh, mr chui and ppl went to cambodia already! ;( i wanna follow, but who the hell will bring me there? stupid mr koh, i smsed him so many times and he just simply ignore. guess he will miss me for this 10days! haha.. no one to bully and entertain him.. wahahahas! and he will only be back on prom night itself. but good news is tht he will be bringing me tons of presents from makara and himself! he promised to get me a claypot and flim my makara! wahahahs.. anyway, is just 10days without him, i will behave myself. tht's the only things he say b4 he left for cambodia! and flying to shanghai on the 6th dec with mr chui again!

ytd went back to school to pass them everything for makara and thida and as usual, uncle was complaining tht i'm noisy lah, fan lah.. and lots more. i dun give a damn! wakakkas.. so mr chui is so nice, to put everything into his laugauge. unlike tht stupid steven! =x haha.. so have our mini meetings with mr lee. he promised to bring me out on the 2oth to get all prom night stuff! arghs~ can go arcade bahs! haha.. i brought alot of stuff for makara and the kids in the orphanage. hehe.. and today, they went over.. hmm.. it shld be 9:34 pm cambodia time now. hais, last year, we will be having debrift by mr koh. and it just endless talking den at 10pm we are suppose to sleep! hahaha.. so whenever he off the light, he will say:

mr koh: " i'm switching off the light! all of you better behave and sleep. tml we have another long day...."
me: " ok! mr koh, i'm a good grl hor?"
mr koh: " yah, yah, yah.. faster sleep! dun play arhs! --> me, colleen and siying!"
me: "good night everybody!"
mr koh: " good night!"
den siying and colleen will be talking and talking until i fall asleep! =P

it's just all so- memorable! hais. i rmb there is this night in makara hse, i think is the day doug and wid quarrel lah.. doug came into our room after the light is switch off.. which is stirctly, the tchers dun allow.. so we were all gossiping abt wid and stuff.. den suddenly, i think mr koh and mr ho did a spot check or smth.. den doug secretly crept out again. lols, he was so funny tht night. and we ended up waking up late and stuff. so funny! and also another night, the usual 3 of us --> colleen, siying and me! cant sleep.. after the light was switch off, we suddenly say this : " miss singapore leh" den we start with all the food in singapore like chicken rice and stuff. lameshit lah us.. den say wad after go back singapore must eat all those food. sigh, one year have passed! and if can, i rather i will follow the sch there again. =)

well, all this have been really really fun with the first batch. lols. and mr koh will be showing his moody face every afternoon cos we are simply too noisy when playing the heart attack. he will be hiding some where not doing anything, unlesss the camera get near us! such as the "chaw kway tiao" lols.. well, mr chui will be the one tht is doing so much thing, paint here and there lah.. i miss those days! then, me, makara, thida, colleen, siying will be hiding in hotel room and talk overnight, the next day.. so damn tired! lols! well, 10days only mah. they will be back soon! yeah! i miss mr koh, mr chui, makara and thida already! =x oh, they will be buidling a classroom this time round. nvm.. my heart is with you! x) i hope, i can be there lah, really!

well, at this point of time, mr koh is enjoying this wonderful trip in cambodia and mr lee sc was enjoying his performing arts exchange in malacca and mr seah in hongkong enjoying his excahnge programme! >( humphs, all my favourite teachers are oversea. so sian one! lucky still got mr soo in school! i miss mr soo! his " PEICHING, ARE YOU BEHAVING YOUSELF?" hmm.. mr koh will be switching off the lights in 15 minutes time in makara hse! buhahaha! =x
well, i will be back! i wanna go brisbane too.. to find rach. and 10 more days, racheal is leaving me for 4 years? hais.. and i have to fly 7 hours to find her. mr koh say : this is just part of life! we will meet up one day i guess. i hope so. so i bake alots of chocolate cups cookies and banana muffin with chocolate dip for makara and thida. hope she like it. x) i miss you tons lots! hais..

well, was editing the prom night video as usual. i'm lazy lah! 9 more days to prom night. i wasnt really looking forward to it. guess why, rach will be leaving mahs, and also prom night preparation is hassle man! i'm just so- not looking forward. but, mr koh will be back on 23rd. so, it just waiting for time to pass bahs! uncle, faster come back! i wan the presents from makara and letters! =0 i told mr koh, i wun miss him so no worries, and his face was like -err.. wadever! haha.. i miss mr lee sc too! he say must study hard and allow me to bring his soft toys hm! so nice of him. *hugs*

hmm.. so much of update, i left 2 more papers to go! chiong finish and tht's the end of olevel! uncle allow me to highlight my hair but no tinted! he's crazy. lols.. anyway, i'm only allow for highlight and same goes to those wanna come for prom night. lols. arghs! olevel after finish lah! it so fan to study you know! =( today is amath papers, hope they done well. i miss douglas! hahaha..

err, life just sucks at htis point of time. mr koh and mr lee are gone and i'm so darn bored. no one acc me smsed! lols.. stupid raihana! i dunno why, i love scolding her.. lols.. and i need the key for art room to do my stuff.. but lee is in malacca! wth.

aarghs, my heart is in cambodia! i wanna go there and be with makara and thida.. and kajiao-ing my uncle. one day nv laugh and bully his is so weird. well, i know why he didnt reply me, he didnt wan me to miss him too much. bleahs! i wun.. hais.. wad time will yong wei be calling me? i wait until, i have white hair liao. ok, tml is another day and one more day nearer to mr koh bring my precious stuff back! so i will be waiting! X)

* you used to tell me, i'll be your gems always. but will i be forever? the urge to see you now is so great.. when will i hear your voice again? i miss you lots*

2006-11-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

alright! today is a sat. ppl outside was enjoying themselves and ppl like us, the 4Es were invited back to school to have our usual emath lesson. cool man! first time, i went and learn nth. lols, i was distracted by them and keep playing lah! hahaha.. but overall it's fun and we beeen early release of 15mins? hahaha.. less than 5 times in a year man! hahah.. steven koh will release us early. =x

okok, so during lesson.. uncle was suanning me and i was suanning him back as usual. lols. i think he was like asking me abt toa cah soh stuff lah, and i'm darn weak in it. so paiseh! hahaha.. so then i dunno why, he was like keep saying his lucky balla. say must bring into the exam hall. den cannot do must rub the balla ask our genie to come out. lameshit! i was like so fake laughing loudly lah,. den the whole class laugh at me again! =_=" lesson was kind of err-alright lah. as usual loh, mathing all the way. and this coming thursday we gonna stay from 4pm-7pm. cheers! so cool man! it later than usual lah. anyway, geo paper start at 2pm mahs.. so end at 330pm. =) 1/2 and hr break and continue for to math-ing! ohh.. 2 more weeks, and everything will be over soon yea! x) *aja aja hwaiting!*

well, everyone around me hab been bz mugging but somehow, i'm slacking? hahha.. nvm lah, i will study one. if i blank out, there's nothing i can do rite? hahaha.. ytd hab a nice chat over the sms with uncle. was as usual laming lah.. but then, suddenly, he tell i must study hard le, no more playing. he have been telling me this so many time, but ytd i just realised it really time to start or its too late. if in the past i took his advice, will i still be struggling now? =( well, take one step at a time bahs. wad to do?

alright, today is the start of formal prom-night committee meeting! my dear uncle gave me a role to work with mr lee sc! wonderful! hahah.. its the decoration thingy lah, tht mean everything will go by me and mr lee way! yippee! and most imptly, the programme is kind of decided by preena! haha.. so, the 5Ns basically, is the food and they got the chairman! haha.. do nothing one. the decision still in us mahs.. mrs tan siew heng actually not tht bad lah, she quite funny too! we gang up and bully uncle during the meeting! yipppeee! okok, so the meeting was err- not really enjoyable lah. uncle keep forcing me to talk to the 5Ns. i really dunno them lehs! hahah..

so after tht went on for lunch with my uncle. was like keep nagging i wan claypot rice. haha.. so he brought me, nysa, rai, yati, amal out for lunch! X) and actually was supposingly to walk to farjar, den i complain of hot and i wanna take car. so uncle got no choice, he drive, den i complain again, saying i dun wan go farjar. i wan go other place. hehe.. uncle was like keep saying i'm pamper lah! =( but still, he brought the 5 of us to bukit timah plaza. on the way there was fun! haha.. in the car we has no lack of topic loh. introducing rai some chinese show. darn nice! and i found out, my uncle watch korea show too! he finish watching full hse long long time ago. and he know who's rain lah! he quite trendy loh. haha.. so he keep wanna buy 4D! arghs! this uncle arhs.. so went to eat.. talk and talk non-stop. about the past, about last time, the ah lian.. haha.. den he told me not to cry when rach leaving anyway, its just another part of the world? haha.. i will surely cry bahs. so.. nothing much, he was funny all the way. he went to NTUC to buy me a claypot and wanted the uncle to put rice inside! =) haha.. but we stopped him somehow lah. uncle was stupid lah, he ask rai how's joachim? haha.. i was laughing non-stop. err.. he say he wanna us take video of ourselves and show to makara! and he will take makara and show to me. thankyou uncle, you rawks! so he going JB tml, for meeting. omg, mr lee and mr koh all going, this 3 days i will be so darn sian lah.. thankyou uncle!

ok, so went back to school again, for the detailed meeting of the decoration. thanks to my 4 sisters ( rai, nysa, amal, yati) for the helping out in the thinking. everyone really focus and give ideas. the feeling is really great lah! thankyou! X) i really enjoy it so much. haha.. so kind of decided the colour and stuff. and tell you ppl wad, it so nice lah! hahah.. i love our planning, but then, will succeed anot, the plan can go on anot, is still a question. anyway, the sky is the limit! tht wad my uncle said wad!

okok, so came back around 3+ sleep til 6pm.. use com until 8pm.. still for 1 hr and watch tv and blogging now! wahhahs.. not slacking, but then i dun feel guilty, cos i did study my ss! and got scolded at 8pm when uncle called me. haha..

uncle: wei, i dun hab anything on me le.
me: wad talking you? *blur*
uncle: i mean the maht worksheet lah!
me: orh, den where is it?
uncle: shld b in sch.
me:den u tell me for wad?
uncle:tell you only lah!
me: lame..
uncle: wad u doing now? *turning the com to slient....*

me: err.. doing smth lah. playing com lah!

uncle: orh, go on and play.. play play play.....

me: studying soon. hehe..

uncle: ok, bye!

me:orh, bye!

crazy man. haha.. anyway, i'm called queen teo! nice rite? uncle say last time princess den now queen? omg, ohh.. i love my girlfriends lah~ hahaha.. okok, i better get down to some serious work. just smsed uncle, ask him to take care and enjoy his JB trip! *bleahs* and promise will do him proud on monday paper! *cheers* hope the decoration can carry on bahs. i'm sorry rach, dunno if i really every hab time to spent with u for our last 4 days! woaini! <3s!

2006-11-02T17:50:00.000+08:00

lols. i was supposed to studying hard now. look at the time, shiat, and i still so much and so much yet to be completed! x( i wanna start on my ss already but then ms tan wan me to do my chem, which i'm still really sucks at this point of time! arghs! =( feeling loss and scare already. hahaha.. study study, life is just so sucks, pile of books waiting for me to go through them! grrs! why olevel? i will die man!

okok.. today, i'm consider a good girl? ahahaha.. ytd uncle praise me! hehe.. he say good girl must study hard! hahaha.. i'm a good girl ok! x) den was like so darn trying my luck lah, told him whether i can go rach hse to stayover. so uncle agreed to let me go! hahaha.. i went over after alot of studies ok! i finish my english and abit of merger & separation. i also done my math test p2 correction! hahaha.. today is major in chemistry with ms tan. around 2 hrs of chemistry with her. learn quite abit of things. at least i know copper is black! =)

so i was darn bad mood ytd and i went over to rach hse. have talks and like telling each other about the past, and just for fun, i wrote her a 2 pages long intoduce abt myself. and i myself, was like keep drawing and scribbling. haha.. i have such interest nowadays. arghs! i cant sleep properly nowadays, keep thinking, this and this have not completed! everyone is seriously mugging now for the olevel next week. again, i'm a last minute person again! hahaha.. so oh.. slept at 2am! shit and late for ms tan 830 the chemistry. hahha...

okok, so.. morning, cant find ms tan and went over to animal farm. saw uncle, kailing, cheryl! so was like telling kailing, wait for me arhs! and wanted her to send me home! hehehe.. and uncle heard, got scolded! -_-" he told kailing, dun care abt me, dun have to wait for me one! grrs! and again, he say dun be so pamper! arghs! so i say if kailing dun send me home, he must send me home.. den he was like keep asking why why why? so irritating lah! bleahs! x) den in the end, kailing really didnt wait for me! thanks ah uncle! buhahaha!

okok, i am darn hungry lah! heh heh heh.. i was like thinking, blog abit den study mahs! ok today aim, chemistry and ss! wahahas! i wanna watch the show at 7pm le. hahah.. if let uncle know i'm not so hardworking, kenna again. but then compared to prelims, i'm working hard already ok! they say if prelims can do well, most probably shld be can pass bahs! hehehe.. i hope so.. just a c6 for my sci! hahaha.. cos i'm sucks lah! buhahaha...

alright, i'm crazy. ohya, on 30/11.. uncle gave me a drawing by himself also! we are crazy! hahaha.. he draw circle properties for me lah! x) haha.. lame shit! den he damn funny tht day. ohh.. i was ask to be the committee of prom night. err... i love organising, but then.. olevel is coming le! ahaha.. next week.. finish until 10th and i got 1 more week od study and on the 20th, it's finished! and 4 more days, rach flying off le! hahaha.. omg, i think we will flood the airport! *hugs* darling!

okok, enough of updates! study study~ lazy to change the colour.. i go study liao! x) cheers! *aja aja hwaiting* =D

2006-10-29T22:16:00.001+08:00

well, happy birthday TANSIYING, dearest sister of my 4 years life in GRSS! x) err.. tml will be a big day for all of you. chinese re-olevel! i believe you will do well my dear. and may all your dream my come true! woaini!

hais, olevel in a week of time. am i prepare, i can just say NO! hhaha.. i only manage to flip thorugh my chem tys few days ago and complete my organic chem. hahaha.. is darn easy lah! buhahah.. and social study and emath paper1 next week! work up.. and it gonna be over soon. yw and ppl have been coming over, they kept me company. rawks man! haha.. i love all my friends! i swear! hahaha..

well, got a notice tht prom night will be held in school due to various reason. and due to something, i'm the in the organising team. looking forward for sure! X) but then, uncle is honest enough to tell me, tht day, i will not be having the chance to sit down peacefully. and also, i might have to sarcrifice my time of the 4 days with rach and ppl. but then., after having their understanding and opinion, they ask me to help in the organising team. hahaha.. well, having to work with sec5 and ppl is darn stress lah, our working attitude are different. but nvm, work hard too. however, i didnt plan prom night in my entire night before. haha.. hope it will be a success lah. just went through some of advice on internet abt how to plan a sucess prom night. wahahhas, i'm doing reseach for it ok! lols!

ohhh.. special thanks to ppl of 4E3 for being so damn understanding towards me and also giving me the faith tht i will plan this prom night well. i'm able to convinced them tht, prom night will be grand. haha.. so they leave the decision to me and also agreed to have it in school. i'm loving it! haha.. thanks for the faith which make me carry on to convinced the others and also not angry with mr koh for unable to get us pine club. i really love you ppl, i nv felt so blessed and loved by all of you b4. *hugs* i promise, i will make it a great one! ps:/ i sarcrifice myself!
=( i cant play with you ppl tht night! haha.. but i love you all! my heart is with you ppl! *cheers*

to ppl who began to understand my situtation and stuff, I really appreciate least some of you bother to understand and convinced the others. especially your understanding of having prom night in school. well, perhaps, other is cursing and swearing me behind my back, but then, i really very touched that at nysa and ppl. i knew i wun be able to convinced the whole lot of them, but the trust ht u hab in me just like my class do, touched me greatly, thankyou! x) i love you ppl! *muacks*

err.. gonna go bath and sleep. tml is another day! I LOVE MYSELF! hahaha.. suddenly i miss ms tan. calling her right now.. gtg. i love my class and my friends. you ppl rawks! =)

2006-10-24T11:10:00.000+08:00

well, first of all.. HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED CARROT -CAKE BRAIN! x) - ms julie tan ching hsia!
hope you will....

talk less teach more.. =x
will be a big "french fry" in this few years.
wun get bully in sch anymore.
married soon and become our MRS KOH! =xxx
grow prettier
win mr ong in suanning. x)
errr.. wadever lah! good olevel result for PEICHING! hahaha..

well, ytd brought the sunflower for my uncle. haha.. he was like so happy lah. i already knew it le. actually wanna stay for night study.. but then, shirely say wanna come my hse. den ok lah, went over to meet her and come to my hse. err.. was slacking in the general office with mr lee sc, mr chui and dai nan. damn funny lah mr chui. ahaha.. omg, my mr lee sc is sick! =( well, tkc of yourself can? heart break lah, see him so tired and still must stay for night study. hais.. why is our teacher falling sick one by one? x( they ar eover working and too stress for the students. GR teacher rawks! I LOVE MR LEE! get well soon babe! <3s>

err.. due to something i do for uncle, i was define as cheap and asking for it. so wad if i'm cheap? so wad if i treat uncle better? so wad if i'm consider close to uncle? so wad??? why do i have to be called cheap? did i say pay me a few $ den can bed me? did i ever say such thingy? better! i dun think i myself was consider cheap, i dun think i'm so "fan jian" ( the word they use on me!) hais.. just due to tht sunflower which brighten up my day? wth, cheap? cos i treat MR KOH TEE YONG better? i was cheap. hais. so if i treat mr ong, mr lee sc, mr tan better, i was consider even cheaper is it? hey, mr koh treat me good, so i'm nice to him.. is it considered cheap in a sense? tell me, wad the hell is this? jealous.. den treat me better.the sunflower which brighten up me and uncle mood, i was consider cheap. thankyou.

i was really hurt for the whole night. thinking why am i define as cheap. until uncle tell me the real meaning of "fan jian" which is cheap and asking for it. thanks uncle! i ask ppl ard, no one tell me. =( well, i'm cheap. guess how hurting i was. i was like only buying uncle flower and i'm cheap. hahaha.. to hell with it lah! i dun give a damn anymore. for ppl information : I AM NOT CHEAP! wad the fukking hell.. =x

well, shirely is coming over ltr. =) i dunno why, with her, she always brighten up my mood. haha.. but only lin jia know why i'm so darn angry lah. thanks sister! x) well, as long as i know my 4E3 dun find me cheap and asking for it, i'm fine with it. just go on man.. from super junior : LIFE COULDNT BE BETTER! ( i think is smth like tht lah) haha.. this is my life isnt it?

selamat hari raya to all my malay friends! err.. enjoy lah! and i wan cookies! better invite me to all of your hse! x) err.. tag my board and tell me to go your hse arh! especially ppl like NYSA & IDA.. QISTINA! i dun care, invite me over! hahaha.. alright, life is really wonderful with friends. haha.. well, i'm cheap, you see.

i will be slacking until shirely come over. haha.. it's alright. i gonna complete geo, eng and chem. hahah.. for wad cos of such ppl spoil my mood rite? x) haha.. i'm cheap? perhaps bah.. cheap becos i'm nice to uncle. thankyou! i dun bother abt the person who say jokingly or wad so ever. but you have hurt me. thankyou. i hope my uncle wun find me cheap lah. and he dunno the reason why i'm defined as cheap. cos of the sunflower i gave him? hahaha.. wad a joke.

i <3>

2006-10-21T18:53:00.000+08:00

well, went back to school in the morning. haha.. i was like keep getting on to ms tan nerves lah! she just cant tahan me.. and keep calling me zhu tou ching and i call her the carrot cake brain. and we were in the animal farm with my jia & ling! den were like keep playing around, so i threaten to complain to uncle. wahahhas.. and ms tan was like so scared lah! hahaha.. she keep say i love to sabo her. haha.. were from 9-12? fun fun fun! hahaha.. was supposed to share the place outside AVA with mr koh, but then we rejected. haha. with them, make us look so stupid lah! hahahaha! x) so we sneak to the animal farm.

well, uncle was so darn lame shit loh.. he saw ms tan and was like : " err.. are you a new member of 4E3?" den me and ms tan give the <> so ms tan smiled to him den i scream: " lameshit!!!!!" den uncle hit my head! diao~ he dumb dumb loh, so obvious ms tan is not one of us and in the morning freezing cold, he crack such a lame joke. so i walk off loh, den he keep asking for breakfast! hais, so stupid loh.. i buy he dun wan.. i dun buy he keep asking for it. cant be bother with him lah! so lame loh.. haha.. so the 4 of us happily walk to the animal farm.

time spent with ms tan darn funny lah! she keep not serious! and she can sloved a math question tht uncle cant! *claps* 11mins in the record! hahaha.. so cool loh! so we was like not really serious i think. hahah.. so go through some math and reminded ms tan of how she intro herself on the first day! lols.. she so paiseh lah.. and she cant slove probability! yeahs! x) well, ended around 12pm den go to EMR to find the a-mather, the most impt one is kailing lah! i just went over to find her.. haha.. tot of going her hse mahs.. so was like wearing tht golden wawa shoe with the PE attire.. i know its darn ugly lah.. but then.. errr.. not to the extend of getting suan til like this rite? =( so was slacking outside the EMR until uncle took a knife out! so lame lah! so he saw me with tht wawa shoe so striking, he scream v loud loh!

uncle: hahahaha! why are you wearing like this? look so funny!! * and the EMR door is open loh!*
me: WAD LAH! cannot is it? arghs! i v angry hor! dun say already!!!
uncle: wad? why you wear like this?
me: cos hor, morning i wake up den my maid didnt tie my shoe laces for me lah! den i cant wear!!!
* followed by a burst out laughing from the few amath-ers lah!*
uncle: hahaha! u got maid one mehs? so spoilt!!! shoelaces also dunno how to tie ahs?
me: *wanna explain* forget it, i wan claypot rice!!!!
uncle: come in come in! dun disturb them arhs!

humphs! so i went in.. and all the amath-ers laugh at me again! wth! i only wear tht very funny shoe mahs. =( den jurrel and joseph keep bullying me lah! hahaha.. so uncle keep mentioning tht is my cinderella shoe (sarcasticlly!) arghs! den he keep saying so loud lah! i dun find it ugly mahs.. humphs.. den he keep saying i'm spoilt. really mehs? idiot! i wan claypot rice. ohh.. so he gonna fly to shanghai follow by hongkong in this dec! good life huh? i wanna go too! but then, i keep urging him to buy me present.. and he smile and laugh again! i dun care.. i gonna ask dai nan to help me look for nice stuff den ask him to buy! hahaha.. so he was so kpo lah, keep asking whether i'm going back to hongkong! crazy de loh.. hahahahha.. ;) so he went to see car today! liao bu qi! ;( better buy a PINK one! i ask him buy family car and get a PINK one. buahhaha! =x

okok.. went for lunch and called mr ong. tot of visiting him.. but then, slack again.. he dun wanna see me, say today is a public holiday! wad a nice tcher! ;x slacker loh. hhahaha.. he gonna go out dating! bleahs! mr ong rawks! i love him.. abit lah! hahaha.. i love mr lee sc and mr koh too! lols! ohh.. so was like asking them over to my hse for mahjong game. lols.. i miss mahjong for long! haha.. with yongwei, jia as well as cheryl. fun! i game a few times. lols! miss such mahjong games for so long.. err.. i gonna miss them so much loh.

brought jia and beilin flower in plaza. actually was like only getting for jia lah, cos i owe her one. den bei say she wan too.. so no choice, i buy loh. hahaha.. den i plan to get a sunflower for mr koh. see so nice of me! x) i miss mr koh! hahahahas! since he bring me to seoul garden, i will buy for him lah! hahahah.. i love seeing tht smile on mr koh face. when he's hao-lianing the present! the face like so childish! wahhahas.. ohh.. bei wanna get one for mr ong too! =( ahahah.. ltr uncle surely complain why got 2 same one. but i dun care, i think sunflower suit mr koh better! rather then get him a rose? so funny lah! err, i'm lame! hahaha.. there's no reason to give ppl present! hahaha.. err.. i just wan ppl to be happy i think! stop slacking tpc! x)

hahahah.. monday is a start over again. i dun give a damn how close you are to him. cos i dun care. if you think by letting me know how close u ppl are will make me feel bad, sorry i wun fall for your trap. i know u enjoy us calling you tht. hahahaha! i dun give a damn, if u dare, ssay it out. hahaha! i'm glad to know i hab so many friends ard me! hahaha.. i cant believe it, but well, i dun give a damn. thanks to you, i took a pill of sleeping pill last night! thanks ah.. den i can go sleep, if not i will nv be able to sleep thinking of how gross and how idiotic u are trying to do. getting close to him.. err.. try your best. hahaha..

i love my uncle! HE IS MY SUNFLOWER! buahahaha.. currently, addicted to sunflower? nice nice nice..

I LOVE LIM LIN JIA! she didnt ps me this few days! thankyou! =)

2006-10-20T21:44:00.000+08:00

hais, i'm loss.. i really in a loss.. is it he's sick and tired of pacifying me when i show him attitude. and for god sake i didnt say anything. i was like asking nicely whether he wanna meet me or not.. den he say he wanna meet the others, so i was like asking lah.. mean dun wanna meet me rite? den he reply, up to me! wad the hell is it? where the hell i provoke you again, i am really sick and tired of you treating me like tht.. hais. is it she is better than me? why always let me have the feeling tht i'm not as worthy as her. u promise to trust me, but then, i was like asking, why must u mis interpret wad i'm trying to tell you? hais, i have feeling too k? perhaps, you are really sick and tired of how i behave and how you feel. hais.

well, went back for geo. hahaha.. it's fun! in the com lab. rai and ppl were entertaining me! x) i'm enjoying their accompany. well, was planning to book aloha resort. which is nicer lah.. haha.. so big too.. thanks to mr lee sc, who's so nice to at least tell me he will check his schedule.. well, he's so super nice.

alright, nothing much to update, i felt so unwanted now lah. ok? thanks to you hor. hais. i have enough lah. let it be. so wad if you are like tht. you make me feel like i'm just so extra in between u ppl. hais.. wad have i done to suffer like this? can i know? arghs.. it's just so damn shit unfair lah! !@#$%^&*(*

2006-10-19T21:26:00.000+08:00

first of all.. i'm proud to be MR KOH's student. a really pure one. haha.. i dunno why, suddenly rmb the dec days, where i am still ms liew student.. need to hide here and there but now, i'm really a mr koh student. haha.. and i still wonder, how is it like to be mr ong student? but then, i still prefer my mr koh for the time.. nonono.. forever! hahaa..

what was it gonna feel to be like when someone declares they want your favourite thing. something which belong so impt to you yet there's no choice, the decision dun lie on you whether to share it anot. kind of feeling loss and i dunno wad am i suppposed to do at this very moment. tell her, it belong to me? or rather tell her i dun feel like sharing. it belong to me.. yet she told me : " what if i like it too?" i dun like the thing but i treasure the thing.. i cherish the thing.. i dun wan the thing to be shared with someone else regardless you are my friend, sister anot. i dun wan.. but how am i supposed to do. it dun belong to me anymore? it no longer belong to individual only. hais. i dun deny i am jealous. jealous of ya. jealous of everything. but then, so wad. i kind of feel i am like no longer impt to the thing anymore. the thing treasure you, enjoy your company. hey, it's mine yet i hab to share. you get the feeling? i dun wan, why? you know the thing belong so imptly to me but then, you choose to do this to me. hais. i am just afraid of losing. afraid of everything, i am not confident to say i am impt to the thing or wad so ever. i'm feeling so loss and scare now. am i just so.. hais.. the thing didnt give me any reconginzation.. yet, she felt the thing is nice.. sweet.. why? am i just so nice to share everything with you. hais.. i guess, i am then the failure bahs..

nvm lah.. this few days after graduating i hab been going back to school. everyday was more slack compared to normal school day and of cos it's less fun! =) but then, i will miss everyone. haha.. i realised i hab been stopping doing my math paper2. wahahahas.. suddenly, uncle ask me to do paper2, and i realised i cant do it anymore. iwas like diao.. so difficult out of the sudden. i feel really sad lah, so chiong my papers again.. haha.. cherry book. wahahas.. i cant tahan anymore.. thinking of it make me crazy.

well, remedials and remedials.. i kind of miss it.. haha.. hais.. i also dunno wad to do already. i am not in the right mind now. talking to ying. thankyou. i love you sister. happy birthday elaine. x)

2006-10-16T21:08:00.000+08:00

finally the day we gonna dread and graduate is here. i swear i will miss every single one that made a great different in my life. The 4E1, 4E2 & 4E3.. even though, i always, claim we are not a big family, but now we are and we gonna be proud we are the 2006 batch 4Es..

4E1-
i miss everytime running into your class.. i miss going into 4E1, taking you ppl things, drawing on your notice board. booing nisa? i miss calling you ppl the mr ong's students.. miss having the few of you standing at the door whenever there's a change of lesson. i will miss seeing you ppl suffering under mrs khoo whlie we will be going for our recess. i will miss the teachers comparing how good is 4E1. i will miss how uncle scolded us 4 not ebing able to behave like you all. i will miss those chinese lesson in your class. i will miss teasing dai nan & all ex-co members. i will miss the way your class react when i go into your class. i will miss you ppl asking me to get out. i will miss disturbing douglas teo. i will miss shaun yen, shawn ang, khai, qis, bei, sng, dai nan, pree and whoever, tht know me.. you people bring me happiness outside the class. i never know i can be so well with the whole co-hord. and seriously, every seconds, moments of suanning you ppl, is the thing i gonna miss most. i will miss comparing the different teachers we hab, miss the time when we compete for PE! ( and in the end, rubbish.. no winners!) i will miss your chairman saying my class mentality low. i will miss scolding all of you. i might not be able to recongized you ppl individuals on street but i will rmb the happy moments the whole co-hord have. thankyou for all. and i will also miss the way we planned for food&funfair.. i will miss you ppl hiding things from us.. i will miss you all calling me and boohoo-ing me. everything and everything. thankyou. =)

4E2:
by right, we should be so close compared to the relationship between a 4E3-er & 4E1-er.. cos we hab been suffering together every monday in AVA until 6pm. i will miss the noise in your class. i will miss the way you ppl just come into my class. i will miss walking past your class and looking for samuel. i will miss nysa & raihan noisyness. i will miss ida's singing, which touched my heart. i will miss how rid and ppl disturb me with saiful& ppl. i will miss you people come to my class to attend any lesson. i will miss you ppl exchanging questions and stuff. i will miss you ppl telling me wad did mr koh do in class. i will miss colleen smile and laughter, her usual : "why you look so sad?" i will miss siew laughing at me every morning. i will miss xinyan crazyness. i will miss lavayah as the chairman. i will miss how you ppl disturb rong seng. i will miss every single thing you ppl hab done with me in the history. i will miss the dec lesson where i attend alone for uncle lesson and you ppl find me weird. i will miss shouting in your class. sitting there and walking around in your class. i dunno if i gonna rmb everyone in this co-hord, but then.. you ppl play a part in my 4 years in gr. without any individuals, i will not enjoy every moments in class.. in the level.. in the corridor. i will miss the times we all hab PE and the time 4E3 are jealous of you ppl having PE together while we are having math!

my dearest and precious 4E3:
finally we gonna be apart, i am afriad of losing the friendship tht god gave me over the years.. i will mis nicholas' leadership..
yaying quietness..
kailing lameness..
emman funny face..
fatin pinching my face..
gabriel reassuring the friendship will be forever..
joseph telling me we will be brother 4eva..
tricia's reaction and easily to bluff..( and her sadness when failing math! =x)
xuan min 's sisterness and her teaching of sci! ( i might pass!)
shirely- the outgang gal (mph) & her entertainment..
cheryl- the time of bullying her
Lin jia- crazyness of jiatuek & her PAR
zhan yuan- the soccer fan's of real mandrid? ( dunno how to spell lah!)
hidhir- the slacker tht driven all teachers crazy!
hilmi- the really fun being with him.
saiful- his 11 claps & sarcasticness.
Amalina- her never say die sprit in running events.
haryati- her face tht only when she like it den she will bully me!
marvin- his so tao even until now he dun care abt me =(
yixiang- the oral seesion and he's really a great BROTHER of mine!
emily- his siaoness when she needed chocolate!!!
racheal- the idiot tht been spreading me as auntie and love me more than i love her!
nisa- hmm, forget it.. she's somehow dead? or MIA? i'll rmb her as someone tht make my uncle upset! =(
PEICHING- a cute and lovable, young and energetic.. been so welcomed by the whole class.. and the class love her the most.. and she's MRS TEO KS and wanna be MR LEE SC's wife when turning 18 year old. so cute loh her! full of leadership.. blah blah blah.. she's the best in the whole wide world! and most imptly, uncle LOVE her!
harold- my life saver in sci practical. and his sleeping look in class.
siying- the fierce women who always beat me up & gone crazy when she feel like it.
weijian- he hottest guy in town? =x i will rmb him when i c jay! the pure jay's fan!
jurrel- the brother tht say the most brothership and the one i hugged when i got my MT result!
yongwei- his singing and his entertainment by calling me a siao kin na!

hmm, you people brought me joys.. fun and being loved by all of you. i swear, i will rmb you people, 4 life. and i will married mr lee and invited you ppl over? i will miss the noise in class. the queen-ness i behave in all lesson. the crazyness you ppl have. how loud we can shout? the 11 claps that we always entertain saiful. and you ppl keep asking me to go away when i wanna disturb. the sadness of parting with every single one of you. the love and concern when i am bad mood. the song we used to sing.. the word we used to say. the ways we played, joked and bully each other. the conflict tht exsit. the way you ppl encourage me to move on.. the motivation and support you ppl hab in me to send me to represent the class for the speech. i will rmb how lame we can be.. how we sing when mr koh is nv there. i will miss the day we complain, the day we passed in all 365 days this year. the stupid face when i wanna collect money. how angry you ppl will be when you all know there's remedial and when got ppl in the class being bully. paarting with you ppl make me matured and realised it's not a forever goodbye. we'll meet again and by tht time, we are alla the alumni members? i will rmb superteen.. the days in hall.. the 2 nights we spent as a class. the unreasonable yet hab to tahan me. in this life, i'm very happy and contented to know all 28 of you. you ppl brighten up my days. * i came into Gr with nothing, yet i bring away all the happiness and memories we ever have with each other. the bonding, the photos.. the friendship, i gain alot.* i gonna miss all everything you ppl gave me but i know you all will rmb me for life. thank 4 giving me this chance to be the leader and i hope you ppl will enjoy being with me! i love you ppl, and it gonna be damn lot. hais.

teachers :

mdm ho- i gonna miss you alot, you are the best form tcher i ever hab! =) [ good thing. your name ish on my report card, i can be proud!]
mr vic lee- well, i will miss your lesson which is so funny at the end, the moment you ask me " how many hours i study!"
mrs choy- i'm lousy in physics, not your fault! hahhaa.. i wun fall in love for physics.
mrs valerie lim- i will miss you auntie! you rawks my life in one way or the other!
ms julie tan- you this carrot cake- brain, i will miss talking to you everytime and your suaning.
ms haryani- you are then my real f&n tcher.. wo ai ni!
mr steven koh- thanks 4 everything you done in my life, i will rmb this blah blah man 4 life! * thanks 4 pinning the drawing on your board. i love you uncle.
mr ong- zhu tou! always suan me! i will miss you asking to get you dinner! x)
mr george tan- my best best best PE tcher in this whole wide world, i will miss you asking me to perserve for 2.4km and your running with me!
mr seah- your suaning will make me miss you always.
ms liew- your bulletspeed math make me crazy!
mr chui- your funnyness and the way u tell me abt courtesy?
mr soo- the way you always call me TAN PEI CHING!
mr lee sc- the way u hab faith in me to complete the stuff for you and keep saying i gonna marry you when i'm 18! =)

* i will miss all of you and you all will miss me too?*

today wento fetch uncle, he's crazy den he bring me to school! and most imptly, tht brigten up my days is he pin the ugly drawing of himself on the board. i'm proud to be uncle's student. hais.. den pass him his box of snoopy but then he didnt open yet! -_-" went to seoul, uncle treat.. but then, i gonna pay him back, cos i isnt suppose to go.. =( but then, thanks to all amath students, you ppl rawks.. make me feel so nice and welcomed! haha.. i enjoy every second there. wahhahas.. and went back to sch to find mr lee and mr koh. hahah.. i love them alot! muacks.. graduate le, the life gonna be so err.. horrible. wo ai ni men yong yuan de yong yuan!

**i love you, you love me, we are one big family with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you, dont you say u love me too?**

2006-10-13T21:10:00.000+08:00

well, finally i got time to update today! x) today is marking day! wahahahhas! so cool.. finally 4Es dun hab to go back. but then as usual, amath-er hab to b back! so ms tan ask me to trish to be back too! anyway, trish was as usual late, i was as usual alone and loner.. hab to walk around. wahhahas.. so wad, i enjoy being a loner. haaha.. and saw jo, hilmi and blah blah ppl. i hearts them all. gonna miss them really much, miis their complaining! hey, ppl.. rmb me alright? wen i married, u ppl must turn up! i will prepare halah food for you ppl! wahahas.. <3s!

so was slacking aorund until ms tan found me.. haha.. so she force me to do math math and more more math! was doing cedas girl first. crazy paper.. nearly kill me.. so i was so useless.. i ask for neighbourhood sch instead. lols.. i'm really funny. was slacking as usual.. buhahahha! trish brought me nougats! love ya trish! ;) and then, i finish the paper loh. left some dunno. tml den clear.. still got paper2 nehs. hahaha.. den mr tan is so super funny lah! i love mr geoge tan! he was like keep walking to me and keep packing my bag, he just push everything into my bag! den i take out den he keep again. he keep chasing me off the place! thanks ah, mr tan!
;( den he keep asking to go home, dun stay here. i was really focusing doing my math ok! den he keep disrubing. so i shoo him off and keep begging him dun disturb me anymore nehs! den suddenly he ask, why am i doing there. i was like emathing lah! den i was like claiming i was upgrading myself den he actually say tht : THEN THERE'S ALOT OF THING YOU NEED TO UPGRADE ABT YOURSELF!" thanks ah mr tan. so nice of you hor? bleahs.. i will miss him lot lot lot.. he gonna go oversea le.. hais! =( he's so super nice lah!

ohhh.. saw the 2 4Es family members. lols! anyway, we will always be the 4Es co-hord'06! ;) hais.. 2 more days to the day we gonna graduate! and formally as ex-greenridgean.. and no longer a class belong to us. oh.. not looking forward. every sat will be so damn free lah! i will miss the cohord. everyone is just so funny loh.

i will miss 4E1s.. everytime i went in.. they will never say a thing. my douglas. hais.. so much and so much.. evryone who know me, i will miss you all. sigh! thanks, i truely hab a taste of happiness. thankyou. x)

*i dun wana cry anymore.. so just cut it short, i will miss all of you! and every single one of you.

2006-10-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

first of all were really sorry for the lack of update. damn busy for the past few weeks. enjoying my alst few days in school before formally going on for our study leave.

today were kind of last day together in class for the whole day for my whole class. were like damn emotional in the first part. guess wad, we really treasure one another for this one last lap. jurrel were like keep saying : " today is the last day, let me bully you!" joseph, me.. ying, trish, rach, jia, min and basically everyone were like acting hyper. ppl, i can sense it. the first period were like keep telling everyone, i gonna miss you. and to the table, chair.. everyone.. mdm ho. well, can sense mdm ho is really upset too. the graduation ceremony is on monday. i am feeling so damn upset lah.

i will miss everyone who make a different in my life, allowing me to know how's life gonna be in sch. what's happiness and stuff. i neve knew how wonderful live can be until i met all of you. the fun and luaghter, joy and tears you ppl brough into my life, let me realised how impt you ppl are to me nowadays. the quarreling, arguing, the " i love you" the i wanto break, every now and then, i wil lgo mad and all of you hab to entertain me. the endless giving in to me this blardy idiot, who have been take advantages of you all, the bullying teachers we hab been doing together for the past few years. i really miss you all and i cant bear to leave anyone of you. i tot i myself can manage everything tht happening in my life, but what make me to go on and keep going to school is non other than all of you, the 4E3-ers. worrying uncle will be angry, keep asking me if we are gonna hab amath or emath and everything, i cherish you ppl. the stupid kuku saiful will joke abt.. the contribution of laughters to the class. i miss everything. all this hab really been kept as part of my memories. thanks. it fate tht brought us together. regardless howlong we hab known one another, you ppl will be my friends forever. i nv tot of leaving anyone of you and i didnt expected graduation to be here so fast. i will miss the way the class hab fun, the class sing.. the class cheer.. the class boo.. and all the stuff we do. every morning the national anthem.. walking up 2 storey.. and saiful and hilmi will always say i'm disturbing.. pulling my hair.. pushing me.. bashing ppl up.. changing of bags? skipping lesson? everything and everything.. i miss that. well, i just gonna say, i love you ppl.. and i really really really do.

uncle lesson, was really a great one! for the last time. he was emotional as well. i just know, he love us and we love him too. rach was crying when uncle talking.. i was so engrossed listening.. flashback of how i get ot know uncle.. how come we will be so closed to uncle.. how the first time i attend uncle lesson during dec.. how much uncle hab confided to me.. everything. how to jump form a f9 grade to now a b3. how much i trust him.. how much different he make in my life. i love ya uncle. i swear i gonna miss uncle so much. suddenly, at this point of time, i miss uncle lame jokes. nxt in class when i am upset, no one will give a damn like uncle do. keep telling me, the bah gwa story. i swear i rmb the bah gwa story he told us during new year. cos he knew i am upset. uncle, i wanna let ya know, you make a different in my life, thankya! i miss all the motivation talk.. i miss the way u nag. the way u pushes us.. the way u keep telling me, you will bring us to this battlefield.. the typhoon we were worried to get in your lesson. the high expectations. for the first time, i realised you are gonna let us off.. haha.. so funny. like suddenly, you not pushing us anymore. not used to it. you are the best yeah! x) haha.. SARANG HAE YO.. i rmb every single stuff you tell me n your mind.. haha.. hmm, i gonna rmb lah! tkc.. and seriously, i hope you will be so happy like today. the smile and laughter on your stupid face. and i know u love bullying me! its okay, senior citzen.. today suddenly, told uncle : dun bully me le lah! nxt no chance le leh, still dun wan treat me good? den he was like " SHUT UP LAH!" thanks ah uncle.. so nice of you. so give him a piece of my drawing which is a stick man with hairy legs! hahah! so thansk uncle, i knew it were ugly lah! but u still say nice, gonna laminate.. thanks! i know my drawing isnt as nice as the one shao mei gave ya. i'm sry, but you are my best godpa and uncle! hahah.. i will rmb u love bah gwa.. pancake.. tou hwa.. herbal tea.. bubble tea- lime.. bee hoon ( egg, chicken wings, fish cake, vege!) carrot cake, soya milk.. snoopy.. and favoruite colour is white. x) anyway, uncle is so damn nice lah, u all know wad. he's bringing the amath student out lah, den i say he bias.. he invited me along.. but then this was how it goes lah, after he invited me, he say : YOU PAY YOURSELF! HAHAHAH! thanks ah uncle, so nice.. i was like.. thanks ah! haha.. he so insulted.. den i say nvm, ppl upstair treat me v nice one! den he got jealous and humphs me.. hahah.. childish! i will miss such moments with you uncle.. i really will..

hais, cried just now. isnt looking forward to any damn graduation ceremony in my sch. =( i just hope we will be together forever. with 4E1&4E2.. with uncle, mrs lim.. mdm ho.. mdm haryani.. mr tan.. mr lee sc.. mr v lee.. mrs choy.. mrs khoo.. mr ong, ms julie tan.. mr hang.. mrs chew.. ms kwek.. mr soo.. mr chui.. mr seah.. ms liew.. everyone who know me and love me like i do! how nice? haha.. i'm crazy.

every moments spent with you ppl will be kept in my heart. thanks for letting me know whats the real meaning of friendship and care and concern. growing up with u ppl make me mature and enjoy life. this 4 years is the happiest moments i ever hab. the 4 years with you all, i will rmb. thanks. i love you ppl alot. regardless we did quarrel anot, but you all are just my darlings. thanks! save all tears for monday bahs. cheers, uncle, stay happy, like u do today! x)

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS! 4E3!!!

2006-10-03T16:00:00.000+08:00

alright, hab not been updating regularly. =) due to the endless drilling when sch reopen until now. wahahahs.. prelims hab ended. and kind of know where i really stand. and no doubt, i done really sucks this time but however compared to midyear, i still make improvement of 6 points for L1B4. wahahas.. i scored a total of 17 points of my L1B4 this time. if english they moderate and include oral. F&N include coursework. i can pull my L1B4 to 15. =) but it just sucks lah.. cos my L1R5 is 24 points after moderation and currenlt i am floating on 26. lols, thanks to my combine sci. it drag down. but however, i will do better, cos i hab make improvement in some subjects compare to midyear lah. hahaha.. i got a b4 for math! sucks. tot at least an A2. haha.. forget it, uncle say : "work harder!!" he been promoting sci to me lah, i driven crazy by him. arghs! but uncle stop bullying me! hahaha..

graduation in 13days. i dun like lah! hais, separation and no longer in my lovely class. no longer having normal lesson. hais! so upset! nvm lah, i wil lsave everything i wanna tel my 4e3-ers on the graduation day. prom night in sch is alright for me. actually i am kind of fine with both lah. either in the pine club or sch hall. anyway, it's our sch hall isnt it? we grew up in this hall and dun forget, we are the last batch having prom night in this hall. this hall is gonna be tear down soon. so wads wrong with having our last memorable event in this hall tht belong to our batch? =) but of cos, in pine club will be more grand and stuff and seriously, i also dun mind lah. leave the decision to others. wahahhas..

night study, i didnt volunteer myself! guess wad? ms tan drag me on thursday to acc her! -_-" i gonna suffer under her hand. her endless suaning.. omg, wahahahas. i ytd math-ing til i hab migrain ( something like tht, dunno how to spell) but i tot uncle gonna check my today. chey! so i completed 2002 paper 1&2. lols. i think i am crazy. actually i wanna do my english and in the end, hellish man.. jurrel toh took my paper! humphs. and the compo one, i left it under my table. lols. guess, i gonna make a trip down to ikea, uncle wan tht heart shape cushion. hahahah.. mr lee face is like so angry lah when i let him know. hahah.. mr lee ay no. wahhahas.. of cos lah, i also told uncle no. this belong to me and mr lee. wahahhas. and on friday, they keep bothering mr lee asking why he dun wan get married so i help mr lee ans! haha.. i say : " cos mr lee say he wanna wait for me to grow up. 2 more years and we can get married!" mr lee face is like so diao lah.. haha.. i love mr lee sc! hahah.. i gonna miss him. i swear! haha!

alright! i got reprimanded for being rude to ms tan infront of the class! idiot! by uncle loh. actually is cos we laugh too much during combine lesson with amath. den uncle suddenly say: "julie, can u acc me after sch?" den we burst out laughing lah. not only me. hahaha.. but it's funny lah. i dun mind being scolded for this. but he say i am rude and not serious to ms tan. well, be it loh. hahah.. he is the one say treat ms tan as frene. make me confuse. well, i'm an excellent gal, so i apologized to miss tan loh. haha.. den uncle scold and scold.. i already listening and hiding my face liao, den suddenly he say : " ms tan, i talking to you. got wad i say anot? behave yourself. understand? pass the msg to jian lin." damn it, i'm so innocent! haha.. so it affect my mood. but after tht ms tan came.. so we keep saying lah : " respect hor, respect ms tan hor.. ltr uncle scold you ahs!" so stupid saiful was like keep acting the moment wad uncle scold me lah! hahah.. innocent man! but ms tan tolerated us long enuff. wahhahas.. i love ms tan too! =)

hahah.. stupid uncle, dun reply dun reply lah. big deal meh! hahah.. only joking with ms tan, say i rude. but nv, i very forgiving one! i forgive and forget. suan le, i know u are abit stress and sot nowadays.. scold bah. it alright with me! =) i ponned sch again! haha.. today lesson is a waste of my time.. 4 physics lesson, 1 geo, 1 emath, 1 chem, 1 eng, 1 amath. the 4 period of physics, mrs choy will be throwing worksheet to us and expect us to finish. and geo, those hu pass geo will be doing nth, self revision=) tht something nice abt mrs lim.. i love her too! 1 emath, uncle will be either laming, nagging or ask us to do the worksheet loh. den 1 chem, mr lee will be spotting question from tys. 1 eng, mdm ho period is slacking and sleeping.. ms tan period, only got one.. which mean only do 1 question and chit chat.. hahaha.. tht how we spent our tuesday. lame. i stay at home and go through my chem! hahaha.. but i am a good gal, i told uncle i dun wan go, ltr he say y he dunno again! haha.. so, it a fruitful time at home. cos i study my chemistry.. and there's the surprise chem test! argh! i study so much, den didnt get to do the test. i dun care! i gonna do my test tml. hahaha.. and f&n tml! lameshit! see how bahs, maybe i will skip just only f&n and stay at home. blardy ***** i dun like her. make my blood boils whenever i see her stupid face. hahaha.. ms haryani is the best!

well, will not be updating regularly anymore! hahaha.. crazy over studying! chiong ah! aja aja hwaiting! hahaha.. i love art frene. i wanna go back to art friend lah! with my doug. ohya, doug, going for night study. good! i can see him! yippee!

*hais, while treat me nice, awhlie treat me like shiat! also dunno wad happen loh. i think u prefer others den me, den why awhlie so nice to me nehs? i admit i am jealous lah! den why did you keep like tht. make me more and more drift from you! arghs! let it be lah, but i really hope, you can treat me better loh. humphs!

and to uncle - REPLY LAH!! 5 cents also must kegao! no wonder you really UNCLE! wahahaha.. scold me scold me! always scold me! boohoo! hahah.. and your joke is really lame, not funny one! can say sumthing tht i will laugh anot. always crack lame things, i gonna freeze to death le. =)

2006-09-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

hmm, i finish watching full house! i love it man! so nice.. =) but i didnt cry as much as the previous princess hour and the taiwan show. but it really nice. i know i am outdated lah, watch so long but nvm! it nice anyway!

hmm, review for the past few days.. i have been like slacking or smth? but anyway, i have been chionging vcds, sleeping or doing math.. wahahhas.. and smsing with si kin na as well as my dearest mr ong and mr lee sc! wahahahs.. for the past 3 days, i was like keep going out and study and watch vcds.. and today i went to town with my babes. siying, xuan min, trish, rach, shirely, jia, cheryl,kai ling, emily and me. total 10 of us. so fun in the later part. when we all were taking the neoprints. hehe.. look so cute loh all of us. omg, self praise. nothing much, i dun really like going town. cos, i dun hab$ to shop around anyway, it's fun with them. hmm, kind of relax myself over the days bah. tml we will be getting back all our results. and know how we do in it. haha.. anyway, i heard amath killed all of them today. hmm, nvm lah, none of my buiness too. i am only an emather. =)

oh.. just on the way back, got one guy very funny lah. he laugh at a lame joke we only supposed for the few of us. heheh.. lame shiat. and he laugh til so loud somemore. and in the end, i kenna suan. but the others not tht man lah. ahaha.. didnt sms uncle today. i dun care him le. he wanna mark all he want, not my problem too! wakakkas..

took alot of pictures today. and i visited art friend just now. i love going there. so creative the place. my top3 shopping places.. 1) sheng siong, 2) ikea, 3) art friends. brought some thing and decided to drew something for someone. haha.. anyway, the passion of drawing is there lah. i also dunno why. maybe i am too free this few days? hehe.. i miss school! i miss saiful and hilmi. but tml, we will be like sitting there and doing nothing. wahahas.. heard we done badly, real badly for our sci. hehe.. wadever nahs.. -_-" i cant be bothered with teachers. lame. haha.. but i love going sch. ytd i didnt sms uncle also, i dun wan frene him le. no lah, nth to sms also.. btut i smsed mr lee! wahahhas..

look at the time now, i am still blogging.. haven packed my bag. nvm, tml free. i dunno if i am skipping my remedials tml. wahahhas. i love today photo. shall pack my bag and den look at some pictures and then sleep!

hmm, hab enough of everything. thank ya! wakakaks.. i dunno.. perhaps, you can say i am sensitive or wadever shiat. let it be bahs. i done my part. you nv let me know i am worth it or anything. i seriously felt like a trash. =) -raymond. wahhahas.. hais.. actually i isnt in a good mood too. =(

AJA AJA FIGHTING!

2006-09-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

shalala.. today is a sat. kind of weird, no sch today. hmm, slack until 11 am and start watching full house again. nice. and i cant deny, addicted to korean show le. haha.. thanks to trish and ying. wahahahs.. and after went over to cheryl hse with yw. wahahas.. my bro. follow me whenever we go.. =) kind of fun to have him lah. tht idiot. i dunno why, he always manage to cheer me up. thanks bro. you rawks.

wait for yw with cheryl for a long time. and talk abt cheryl amath tcher. hmm, dunno him lah. do wadever he want. since wadever i say also the same. shan waste my saliver. he love marking paper den go ahead bahs. his health. not mine. somemore, over concern will let him felt so fan. so ok bahs, let it be. i hab my life too. wahahas.. kind of feel wad mr ong say is right. i enjoy myself as if i finish the major exam already. as if olevel hab finish already. i already used up 2 days of my holidays already. however, i hasnt been slacking much. do 5year series and stuff.. and den now chionging full hse. i dunno why, i like to call cheryl an amather. lols.. anyway, heard the amath under him done really good for paper1? all passed except one. and also most of my class ppl got an A1.. rawks man.. lols congrats hor. they are chionging for their last paper on monday. hmm, and i already been resting. ;x he mark the amath paper1 which ended just ytd from 10-3am.haha.. tht why i say, even i ask him rest is a waste of my time rite? suan le bahs. thanks cheryl! =)

anyway, went on to rach hse to acc shir. becos, she wanna backe a cake for her mum birthday tml. haha.. wad a good daughter huh? maybe i shall do this too. lols.. i nv bake a cake for anyone. wahhahs.. ohh.. and slack around. finish 1 paper1 and 1 paper2 and half paper2 of henderson sec. sms him, no replied. i hab enuff. dun worries, i will not bother you anymore. you love marking so much, take all bahs.. hahaha.. none of my business. oh, anyway, tht stupid mr ong, disturb me again! i cant stand him lah. funny.. sms and scold me for scolding him eating 2 kways ytd. haahha.. he say only half with sugar.. so he must eat 2 to make it one. and then, he say nxt he will gimme the white part and save the green one for himself. crazy. hu wanna share with him.. buai ba de. den say abt math paper2. lols.. he say gonna fail me. i think mr ong isnt feeling rite nowadays. hahah.. thanks ah mr ong, always like to bully me! eat so sweeetttt!

hmm, came home just now not long agao. thinking of all the stupid things i hab done before. anyway, thanks rach for talking to me. i am feeling so super down lah! really hope wad u told me is t he truth. anyway, i felt so unwanted lah. ohh ya! i called mr lee.. he ask to write tht rubbish thingy. hab to write. lols. =( not rubbish lah, for mr lee surely not rubbish. haha.. keep saying he go dating. den he no lah, gathering. who believe. hais.. if we can go back to july. how nice? can organised the event again. i l ove it. and i enjoy working with mr lee sc lah! hahaha.. i love swensen not tou hway lah~! hmm, gr tcher rawks! =) anyway, i decided to give myself a break too. so.. enjoy life! ;) i love my life and it's mine. i wun bother you le.. no worries.. i love ah lee! wahahahs.. i am crazy and i know. arghs! tml tuition at 9am? crazy.. it so early. but nvm lah, persever.. the thing i send to mr lee is shiat loh. my eng sucks lah. hahaha.. anyway, i miss mr ong too! humphs! he's sooo super bz marking. bleahs! cheer up!

I LOVE MR LEE SC & MR ONG ALOT ALOT ALOT! MORE THAN WAD YOU THINK! *

wahahhahas.. hais.. i hab enuff.. you never know what you have done. hahah.. oh.. not forgetting douglas! hehehe.. I LOVE DOUGLAS TOO! =)

2006-09-22T23:17:00.000+08:00

hais.. i dunno why. i just rejected the chance of following them to town. i really have no mood bahs.. i didnt wanna follow them and spoil their mood. it sucks. i dunno how am i supposed to feel now, weird. i guess so, i just look and sound stupid. perhaps, i really still cant be the one tht changing your life. sorry. enjoy tml bahs, i am still in this small dilemma of mine. dun worry! i will get over it soon..

prelims ended ytd. nice and cool? ahaha.. math paper2& fnn.. it's quite a challenging one, but it a good try anyway. hope can do well bahs.. haha.. pin lots of hope on math paper1&2.. wahahahs.. i love it lots. go ahead and call me bias of wadever, i dun give a damn abt anything anymore.. =) hais.. i'm again putting on a fake smile bahs.. let it be. i am stupid lah and i know i am. math p1, was kind of er-alright. i manage to do most of it.. and chemistry just kill me flatly. uncle suddenly walk to me and say this: hais, never study again. and he walk off. dunno why, but it just look funny.. and no doubt, i am feeling guilty.. haha.. let it be bahs.. but overall, it a good feeling to be taking exam in the hall. it let me hab the real feeling of olevel.

ytd went home striaght, whlie other amath students was still having amath with uncle. came home sleep and stuff. first time i feel so good and relax. ask uncle for solution to the emath stuff.. and he's so funny.s till ask whether i wan is emath.. crazy. do i look like i needed amath? and he promise to get it for me if he going out on weekend. thanks uncle. i aprreciate it. den talk abt the paper, i admit it's challenging. first part already kill me flat. and locus just sucks lah. first time in my life i find locus so damn difficult. but anyway, it over! haha.. waiting for result to be out! next week will be the week we will all be getting our result. haha..

hmm, at night heard uncle fall sick. got fever. hais. and i msged him ask if he's alright, and he ask how i know he's sick. lols.. anyway, can you pls pls pls take care of yourself. heard he's popping panadol again. tht's wad he always do when he's having fever. take panadol and continue teaching. hais.. why? i really hate uncle doing tht. just go and see a doc. tht not the first time he dun wanna go see doc. nvm lah, wadever i say to him dun made a different. kind of worry uncle will collaspe before he can bring the whole lot of us to this "battlefield". hope he get well soon. heard his mood is really good today. good luck to a-mather! =)

hais.. well.. cant deny i feel bad abt the suana stuff. and i got enough of everything. i'm really stupid. and my heart really ache loh. hais.. suan le bahs.. and went to tuition. instead of tuitioning, i hab mahjong games with my tuition tcher. lols.. sos funny loh. den went back to gr. got this lantern festival thingy. and hor, dunno why, just wish to see ms tan at tht very moment. haha.. and went back loh.. she keep claiming i wanan be back to see mr koh. let it be bahs. the way she suan me look really funny. hais. mr ong too. he suan me again. enjoy their company i think. and mr ong ask me to be back tml to help him. rejected! cos i wanna sleep. lols. thankyou mr ong. no matter wad, you made a different in my life. love mr ong. love ms tan, love mr lee sc, love mrs lim, love mr seah, love mr tan, love mr v lee, love mrs chew, love mr koh, love ms haryani, love ms eng, love mr hang, love ms liew,love everyone in my class. everyone tht matter to my life. but most importantly, I LOVE MR LEE SC! and i mean it. ytd during math paper2, i saw him beside me. i was like so happy loh.. den i keep smiling to him. so long nv see him liao.. wahhas..

alright, i shall go chiong my full hse already.. hais.. i cant deny, i still feeling sad. hope uncle will get better tml. oh, mr lee called me in the afternoon. he ask me to write the dunno wad thing for magazine. hmm, shall ask him tml. my dearest art tcher! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! hais, mr lee.. i really dun wish to leave the sch loh. hais.. he's my one-day daddy! everytime, i saw mr lee, i will feel so happy. perhaps, his energentic brighten up my days. love working with him on events, it just so cool lah. hais.. mr lee sc, HAIS! =( i'm damn worry for uncle, i also dunno why. get well soon bahs, since wadever i said dun matter to you. =)

well, look on the bright side of life bahs.. watch full hse le den go sleep. tml den decide where to go bahs.. but then, i really no mood to do anything le.. until i heard uncle is alright and i finish writting the thing for mr lee. actually i also dunno wad the hell shld i write. hais.. kor just called me just now. miss ya and thanks. the moments he heard my voice, he knew i am feeling not good. hais.. thanks.. i really love everyone!

*everytime i walk near mr lee sc table, i felt so happy. he still keep the pebble and glass art work we do for him during the sec3 art fest'05. when i am also the chairman of it. haha.. i really miss mr lee. i dunno why. i think i will still miss you when i leave gr bahs. thanks for giving me such a wonderful art lesson in or outside of the class. ;) you nv fail to bring a smile to my face. and i will forever rmb the way you call me : ohh.. ms tan pei ching! no no.. is mrs teo.. haha.. i really enjoy you being my art teacher. tkc bahs.. =D*

2006-09-19T23:09:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18TH&16TH BIRTHDAY TO DARIUS&PREENA!
*preena: wahahs, regret knowing you! =x but anyway, may you really enjoy your birthday. LOVE YA LOTS!
*darius: haha.. AMW bear! hmm.. you are really funny lah! may you have your dream come true! tkc!

lols, i was watching the new show in channel u. omg, so super funny can. i was addicted to watching drama nowadays. not a bad decision. mange to slack abit. hahahaha.. i was chionging my full house too. but currently haven really fall in love with rain. but tris say i gonna addict. wahahhas.. ms tan knew i am chionging vcd again. so she say she gonna complain to uncle. not scare lah! uncle already knew i have been chionging vcd since princess hour2. anyway, go to be on channel u! yeahs! but i already watch. i dun mind watching again. but too bad, it speak chinese. i dun like korean show with chinese. because sound so super weird. lols.

today geography was kind of success. cant be proud, ltr i sway sway fail so super paiseh. but overall, wad i have studied came out lah. yippee! the manufacturing and enviroment. manufacturing, was kind of er, lucky. it came out on blangore. i didnt study at all for blangore but then it's kind of similar to wad i have study. so hmm, trying my luck. thanks to sy sway mouth, the stupid gradient thing came out. guess how stupid i was? i connect the two point together! den i drew tangent and using the y2-y1 method to slove for gradient. siao liao lah. but i reliease i am wrong. so anyhow do loh. haha.. 2 marks only, nvm lah! hehe.. but then enviroment was lucky, i know wad to do wahahhs! =)

hmm, i kind of like to chat with sng more and more. i knew he always have intelligent talk. sometime, his talk is quite awakening. wahahs.. but then, we are not tht close bah. hehe.. hmm, he's always confident in stuff he do loh. like today, the geo paper, he told me he study already. ss paper, he say he can do well. lols.. i mean it the confident in him make me like to talk to him more. hehe.. congrats sng!

ohh, uncle was damn lame lah! i cant stand his lameness during exam. i realiease he love to bully ppl during exam! and especially me, joa and the few of them.. like harold? hahah.. cos i finish my geo and left with 15 mins. so was slacking lah, den uncle come disturb again. it standard one loh, every last few mintues, he will walk here and there. den i pretend i didnt see him again, was looking at joa's side. cos all of them was like scribbling, i was kind of er- i done too fast? den uncle was like staring again. den he hit my shoulder. den he scold me stare wad stare? den i was like diao.. you stare me not i stare you. den cant be bother.. he say nxt if he look at me wan me to ask him back stare wad stare but dun include vulgarities. den i was like orh, but you also scold me tmd loh. den he say it's not vulgar, it's greeting to each other mum. crazy one lah. i think he super bored during the papers. haha.. physics, kill me flat. this included those who study already. they claim they cant do, i'm not sure. lols. den half-way, i fall asleep during my physics paper. uncle came to keep my pens and stuff into pencil box. den zip it up. iwas like why my things can moved one. den got a hand. tht uncle lah, den he say finish so fast dun wanna keep still wan him keep. den i say i haven finish lah! i taking a rest. my stomach really hurt. i dunno why. =(

anyway, having papers in the hall is nervous as well as fun! the teachers like mrs lim is cute loh.. keep walking around and looking at our geo papers. hahha.. tml math paper. i bet uncle gonna walk around and of cos touch my stuff again. ARGHS! i am feeling nervous for math paper1 tml. anyway, there's chemistry! uncle always will say standard line : if dun do well, i will disown you. hahha.. chemistry will kill me man. but nvm! olevel! hahah..

alriight.. math need sufficent sleep to concentrate tml. oh.. thanks yw.. you are really my dear dear bro! he called just now to ask how am i.. hmm, touched nehs.. haha.. everydya he will call me le.. haha.. thanks lah! i love you, brother! hehe.. pray hard for me tht tml paper1 will be an easy one. cos paper2 is a difficult one! cheers, 2 more days and i end my prelims! =)

I LOVE MR LEE SC & DOUGLAS! so long nv see them already! ;( only everytime, when queuing up, doug will purposely walk pass me and knock me "accidentally." he's crazy too. lols.. but i miss them.. hais.. uncle wil lkill me if he saw my sleeve got the full doug. haha.. he warn me say i'm not allow to draw on my uniform. hehe.. LOLS! cool! buhahha..

2006-09-18T22:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO ANDY ALFIAN! (tht super lamer)
*can smoke legally and watch m-18!!
*pls hor, dun bully my xm ahs.. anyway, behave yourself lah, bully are cowards! always bully tht guy in your class. haahahs...

hmm.. today is my english p1&p2 as well as my ss paper. kind of alright i think. but english p1 was shocking. can say it's easy bah. but then, i'm not sure whether i wrote out of point. but nvm, to me.. no used cryng over spilled milk. so whenever ying tell me i will be like over den over.. look forward to other papers. wahahas.. i worte about confidence. crazy topic lah. actually wanna write the first one which is about someone that have done something to your life that make your stituation better. hahas.. den at first i look up, i saw uncle and ppl.. den thinking wanna write abt uncle mahs.. but then, so bias lah.. den the teachers will be saying smth abt me again.. so choose to write question3! x)

hmm, i'm always lucky, i finish it and have a left over time of 30 minutes. i was like slacking lah. haha.. den look around. den uncle came to talk to me loh. he's crazy lah. he came over and stare at me den ask whether i finish anot, know how to do anot.. can anot. super naggy lehs.. but then he also disturb other ppl. i think he too bored? haha.. den suddenly he ask which topic i wrote and say is hld write question 1 den can write abt him. omg, crazy lah he. haha.. the other paper is alright lehs.. ss, lucky meger got come out. ikind of know wad to do. haha.. but nvm.. i'm quite looking forward to tml paper. geography! haha.. i study already! but surely not tht stupid physics lah. i think i will die if i study tht.

i dunno why. but my gastric is really hurting me during the last paper. maybe i am skipping meals often. but then, i'm just so full lah. and i keep vommiting. hais.. i dunno wad happen to me. surely not food poisoning. i didnt feel like eating cos i know i will vomit it out. den wad the use of eating? hais.. lazy to chew lah. i dunno already. and i felt full whenever i was in the canteen. hahah.. i guess nothing will happen bahs.. and i 'm feeling so uncomfortable until my last paper ended. arghs! i think i am lacking of sleep. hais.. =D i'm still feeling so bloated despite i didnt eat today. i guess only biscuit.. hais.. i dunno lahs..

hmm, today i will chiong for my geo! wahahhas.. but sometime, in the hall, i am so nervous tht i just feel like vomitting too. wahahas.. stupid mr ong, go hit my table when i really feel like sleeping in the paper. die, tml physics, uncle&ong will be there. haha.. they gonna keep hitting my table. wahahahs.. i really love my classmates. thanks babes.

2006-09-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. i'm kind of addicted to jay's new song. nice! x) hmm, just went over to my aunty hse. slack there from 8-930. quite fun lah. my auntie they all keep saying so super long they didnt see me already. cos i always skip the family gathering as and when they have it. i dunno wad happen to me today, but wen suddenly my mum say : " ltr go auntie hse eat, you surely dun wan go. so you stay at home loh." den i was like : " huh? wad time?" my mum say : " 730 must reach. aiya, so ma fan one loh." den i just say lah : " orh, i wanna go." my mum got a shocked. haha.. but it quite fun. maybe i need a break from all the huge pile of books and stuff.

i finally complete my revision for ss! get ready for tml exam liao. ;) first time, i done so detail about my revision. but tml will i forget abt it anot, i'm not sure lah. hahahas.. but anyway, i dun have tht gulity feeling tht i didnt study and i am just there to try my luck. first time in my life, i do revision myself, sitting in the room for 3 solid hours ok! haha.. read through notes and notes and more notes.. but the feeling is great. my brain is so full of stuff. hahahaha.. but i shall reward myself with a ice cream or chocolate tml. hmm, and like wad yw say, i must score really high this time. thursday is the end of exam. SHIOK! and i will still continue study bahs. now i was like abit crazy, like to study already. perhaps, all sec4 will turn like tht bahs. wahahahahs..

anyway, thanks to jia tht she lend me a storybook about cambodia. it's called the clay marble. super nice. and als othis is the first time i read a storybook until i cry. haha.. cos the story is about refugees in cambodia war tht time ahs.. not sure lah.. and when i read, i know where the place was and the kids keep made me remind of the kids in the orphanges. hais.. so sad. so ytd i read until 1am. den i dreamt of makara and thida. i dreamt tht i hug them until i cry. i just know i keep crying. den i think of ms tan, i cry again.. hais.. i think ytd i was crazy.. but i cry during night. i really miss them too much.. hais.. i dunno..

hmm, what if one day i gone b4 you do. will ppl start taking care of you? i dun wan you to be lonely i think.. hais.. let it be bahs.. but i just know the few of you are impt to me.. i really love you ppl. rmb ok? i gonna go sleep and get ready for tml chionging! jiayou! haha..

2006-09-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today i went back to school for emath.. poor uncle.. so little students is there. but anayway, amath is great. joseph turn up. thank you bro! emath was just so funny. due to it's a small grp, uncle hab fun with the whole lot of us! =) there's only feroze, yixiong, yongwei & me! uncle keep calling yongwei lame shit! haha.. anyway, uncle suan yw math. say he surely cant get an A1. wahahas.. seem like yw is chionging now! bleahs! you will still lose me! uncle confiscate my i weekly. and i was like cursing him asking him to return me. guess wad uncle did? he blur out : tmd! hahaha... den i w as so shocked loh. cos after he heard this den he scold me. i said: " uncle, you dun understand one lah! tht's youngster magazine!" so he feel so offended. hmm, lucky, i did go back, manage to clear some doubts. but anyway, such question will nv come out in our prelims i guess. ;)

ohh.. went over to cheryl hse after tht. play puzzle bomber or smth lyk tht? den mugging for social studies and get really focus in it! haha.. so anyway, half revision done, will continue such thing tml. hmm.. english and social studies prelim for monday~! cool.. and luckily, i am only doing 5 sub, my exam will end on the thursday! and fri,sat,sun,mon is consider an holiday for all of us who drop amath and poa! x) so happy! wahahahs.. but then have a deal with yw, we will continue studying for fri,sat&sun! and only play on the mon as a little break and continue chionging for all the way! olevel is then our target. isnt it? wahahahs..

anyway, after tht, yw came to my hse. have jokes and fun~ we wil lforever nv ran out of topics one. cos he really nice to ppl around him. so we joke abt when we go cambodia and stuff. hahaha.. i love yw! my bro forever. hmm, and today he treated me drank bubble tea. nice huh? first time lehs.. no lah, first time he treat me so nice. whahahas.. i think he worry i will sell him away in cambodia. =x

hmm, exactly one more mth to graduation. how am i suppose to feel? kind of lost and really dun bear to leave the 28 of them. i really cant survived without their fun and laughter. i hab only a wish, we will stay united forever. but seem difficult at this point of time. i dun look forward to any graduation tht is schedule for all sec4Es.. hais.. next time when we gonna meet, it shld be more difficult bahs.. how? i really love my 4E3.. next time, no more carrot cake for uncle liao.. dunno the next sec4 will gave him headaces mah.. and whether he will miss our batch of sec4 anot. or he felt better? how abt mr v lee, will he continue his chemistrying? and mr lee sc, will anyone help him in his art? mr ong, got anyone for him to suan somemore.. and ms tan, the next batch will bully her mahs? i really gonna miss all this, i really will.. hais... =(

well, my bro is hurrying me for the usage of computers. and also, kind of let rach know how i felt abt all this while stuff.. seriously have enough of ppl back stabbing me.or perhaps, like ms tan say, i am sensitive again. i dunno. but anyway, you ppl remain as my frene and it gonna be forever. this goes to jia, tri, shirely or anyone who know me and i know you too. =)

*why forever i let you know smth, your ans will be go study.. hais.. seem more different from last time. but thanks. perhaps you are my only listener now.*

hais.. kind of feeling lonely now. i nv felt lyk this before. but anyway, i see the true colour of everyone. =)

2006-09-15T11:39:00.000+08:00

there's mother tougue paper today. i dun have to retake, so i dun need to go for this prelim exam. hmm, tot i can kind of slack and watch drama den study for ss which is on monday. but uncle suddenly ytd wanna all of us to be back to take this paper1. no complains nor arguement. hahaha.. but anyway, i tot it's just a waste of my time. cant possibly becos of my drama and skip sch. haha.. uncle will be darn angry.

ytd was kind of alright in class. so many problems.. so many things. kind of doubt my standard in math. ytd uncle let us so a paper1 of unity. guess wad, around 1/2 i cant do. which really sucks. =( i feel so damn sad abt it. hais.. even though uncle mention tht the paper is tough.. got lots of thinking question. you cant do it doesnt mean you are lousy but you can do it means you are superb. haha.. kind of feel real upset. if last time i start working hard, will i really be superb? hmm, today test is 230-430. haha.. ms tan will be there i think.

uncle is crzy. ytd amath in AVA, and he keep calling ms tan ah ma. haha.. and himself ah pa. thanks to joa i think. joa go and call ms tan mummy. hahaha.. cool! and now we joke abt it uncle seem.. hmm, alright? ohh.. and ytd uncle call me a complain queen. cos i told ms tan i hab to be back. hahaha.. okok.. lame shit lah uncle. and i dunno why, nowadays he step into 4E3 he will be smiling. and guess ytd his mood isnt tht bad. still can joke abt my gastric pain. haha..

anyway, ytd last lesson were chemistry. mr v lee talk alot abt reality in life. this time, finally, i dun find it long winded. instead, it really hit my heart. he say : dun give up even if you fail prelims, work harder for olevel. and finally he told me this when lesson gonna end : "peiching can easily target an A1 if she wanna do my chemistry. if you can like my chemistry like how much you love mr lee sc art, i believe you can do it." this isnt something new i heard from ppl, nor is it smth tht mr koh say to me. i heard it from mr v lee, ijust felt really good and nice abt it. and also sorry to neglect his chemistry all this whlie. but now long will this motivation be in me? awhlie, one day or 2? i really afraid. hais, kind of elt uncle's pet talk is getting so boring and he always hit the same old thing. and mr v lee also say: " if i am not good enough, you can go and find other teachers to help you in all ways. but dun say i'm lousy cos it hurt. but i hope today onwards you ppl will really settle down and study." i'm really kind of sorry i guess.

one more month, is the month we gonna graduate. 16th of oct. the day i'm afraid. i didnt feel like graduating. i didnt wan to leave GR. my class.. my second home. the joy and fun everyday we have with one another. every morning, saiful and hilmi will surely bully me. i will scream and shout. every lesson of suanning of one another. seriously, i cant bear to leave anyone of them. this include nic. now, i kind of face trouble alone and no more mntor to help me neither i'm there to help him. i really dun wan to graduate. i believe i will cry and i cant bear to leave mr lee sc, mr koh, mr ong, mrs khoo, ms tan, mdm ho, mrs lim, mr tan, mrs chew, ms kwek and all those who really know me and stuff. i cant bear to. every morning of walking up the staircase to second floor have become a habit. every math lesson will worry if mr koh gonna blowed up anot. every morning have been a math day. everyday we will heard teachers fighting for us. every mdm ho lesson have been slacking. all the times tht we spent as one is really something i dun bear to leave behind for GR. next time, when i really leave GR, i wun be able to share my problems with uncle anymore.. ms tan? hais.. 4 years in gR, pass so fast. i dun feel like leaving, and i really dun.. =(

going back to cambodia with yw alone? i am still thinking abt it. suana stuff.. uncle ytd gave me another call. i dunno. i am so stress up by so much darn stuff. good luck to ppl taking chinese today. especially my class. i love you ppl. =D it been a long time we take photo together. did you realise? haha.. i really hope i dun have to graduate now.

2006-09-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

hais.. practical today. sian! anyhow do and i left with 30 minutes to slack around. hahaha.. but then overall it's fun. beginning, i heard ppl things keep drop on the floor and it was darn irritating lah. den i was like thinking better dun drop again and in the end, mine drop. hahaha.. so loud and 2 time somemore. =( but anyway, it's fun. chemistry one rawks loh.. i mean only when adding the stuff.. haha.. den got one is adding the poder, the test tube is warm! i'm so surprise.. and i keep shake and shake lah.. haha.. den add in some weird thing to let it became black. hahaha.. it's fun. first time i enjoy practical.. and harold and ppl was so cute. haha.. and also stupid hilmi lah.. he keep nutella when we went back to the music room. well, was kept for around 3hrs or so for quarantine.. hmm, finish up a paper2. supposingly finish it up lah but then i went to clear my emath test doubts. cos after tht got retest until 3pm bahs. lame shit.. anyway, i can do all the question! =) it''s a same retest paper anyway. i felt so stupid. nvm lah..

anyway, look like there's only 3 of us going back to cambodia. shit lah! i dun like it at all. ppl keep telling me they wanna come along, in the end left 3 of us. kind of err.. dun feel lyk going back, but i really really really do miss baby. tht the reason i wanna go back asap. =( but then now, uncle is leaving on the 23rd. and how? i look kind of stupid. i isnt close with mr chui and ppl.. and.. argh.. forget it.. dun talk abt it liao.. maybe i will go back on dec? but it gonna drags! hais.. suan le lah.

kind of dunno wad to talk to uncle. let it be. got my princess hour2.. i finish my mathp2 already. left the graph. alright. i got no mood to update too. it just so shit. maybe go back on dec? since ms tan wanna go too. it cool! hahaha.. i gonna die soon. hais..

2006-09-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

hais.. special thanks to ms tan for consoling me. hmm, i clearly knew uncle is pissed off or rather angry with the rumour thingy. and i knew it start with me eventuallt, but it's not i am the one who spread to the lower sec. i swear. and also the suana matter, is my fault again to write it on the board without realising the consequences tht it might spread to others as well. so, this few days, wadever i have done seem wrong to everyone. uncle is angry.. just dunno wad else i can do to ask uncle dun angry.. but then, i guess, there nth much i can do, perhaps, ignore is my only choice.

today didnt went to sch. was feeling abit sickish.. and vomitting.. same old thing. but no worries, i am not gonna die yet. ;) things around me isnt going smoothly. seriously, i dunno whata else i can do already.. seem like at my wits-end. but wad to do? actually i'm stupid also lah.. never think of the consequences then i wrote on the board. how stupid can i be? hais.. no comment lah.. let it be, i told ms tan sooo much, and really thanks ms tan for understanding how i felt and consoling me. and dun bluff me le lah, i know uncle angry with me cos of wad.. dun hab to tell me it's other reasons.. dun worry, i can handle.. thanks ya.

ms tan: i dunno you for too long, but in terms of feelings, i felt lyk we are old friends loh.. whenever i am feeling down, you will always know what happen and be the first one to notice tht. i dunno how come you will became so close to me, but thank god for letting me know you. after transfer under you, i felt more relax towards math and no doubt, i dun ask uncle anymore question. last time, i really resist have to go under you to be honest, cos lack of confident. you dun hab lesson lyk wad mr koh is doing, but you go through with us one by one. and not forgetting, you always rmb i got phobia towards distance time graph, transformation and also other things which i hate and i have not clear my doubt. i know mr koh longer than i know you, but i tend to share more personal feeling with you compare to mr koh. i seem close with him but sometime, i really doubt whether we really are anot. but for you, i share all little sercrets with you. we have no boundaries in term of friends or teachers.. i really appreciate it. i rmb everything you told me when i am feeling down. "dun blame ppl for not telling you, ask yourself why ppl dun wan to let you know." hais. actually, whenever uncle is angry with me, you do know it, but you knew it gonna hurt tht's why you told me, its not. well, it might seem like a lied but its for good intention nonetheless.. i dunno what happen between me and uncle, perhaps still unable to stand in each other position to think of stuff and looking at matter with different angles.. i know you dun hab to entertain me and stuff, but thanks for being there for me. i really hope, you join GR earlier and i get to know you earlier. i know you like to suan me, better do it before i graduate. and seriously, I REALLY LOVE YA! knowing my history and bother to find out from ppl like mr koh. even you didnt tell me who told you abt my history but i knew in heart its uncle who told you last time i am an ah lian. but thanks for having this trust like wad mr koh do have in me tht i change for better and i will nv go abck to my old path. hais. anyway, when i am feeling down, you are always there lah.. thanks. and i really do appreciate tht. =D and i am really sry tht the sec1 knew wad happen and the joke i crake abt your slowness.. i am really dead guilty abt it. sorry. beside sorry i also dunno wad to tell you already. thanks, ms tan for being so forgiving ehs. hahahaha..

alright, tml there's practical.. but luckily we ended at 930 but got to be detained til 130 if i am not wrong. and uncle is taking over the classess.. hais.. i still dunno why he can be angry for so long. but nvm. good luck to my practical tml. done some revision.. hahaha.. didnt waste my time today. thanks ying for acc me to talk and listen to my endless problems. love ya lots. and yongwei for insisting to acc me to cambodia. i really love you bro. and he promise to bring me to chicken rice after practical tml, but seem like no chance huh? really hope uncle will cool down soon. and things will be abck normal. anyway, i love the uncle who are smiling. hais, maybe only me and yongwei plus colleen going back. sound pathetic, but nvm, we gonna enjoy for sure. but i worry colleen might mind abt it.. haha.. nvm lah, i love myself. hais, wad have i done wrong? why is the whole world look angry with me? hais.. forget it.. sorry to ppl i offended, especially uncle and ms tan, guess i hurt you 2 again bahs.. dui bu qi! ;(

2006-09-10T15:57:00.000+08:00

sigh.. i think i am really stupid and over concern of ya. i shldnt even bother about wad will happen to you. i guess this really sadden me too much. i dunno wad i meant to ya neither do i know what significant do i have in your life. all you have given me are just some empty dreams. hais.. why should i bother so much. i shldnt even care. perhaps, i am the really stupid one. i worry you wuld not be alright.. i worry this and that.. but in the end, you dun give a damn about me. so how am i suppose to feel now. am i know, i felt really hurt.

well, last day of our wonderful "holiday" or shld i say we dun even have a holiday.. nothing much, just getting ready to chiong til the end bahs.. olevel in 2 months more time. prelims in 3 days time. haha.. i haven even start revising anything yet. i guess the most confident will be my math? haha.. hope so bahs.. i know i must do really well for this prelims. hais.. dunno lah, currently feeling so low and down. ;(

hmm, have a nice chat with jie& ms tan ytd. cool. maybe ms tan also might feel i am fan. argh.. i dunno lah.. hmm, sch gonna reopen, i gonna be as happy as ever. haha.. maybe ppl feel my smile is fake, but so wad. i really sometime doubt i matter to you.. hais.. dunno lah..

alright, go watch my drama series.. kind of know who is the back-stabber in my life. thanks ah! idiot ppl. dun always assume can anot. and to those ppl who always think i will be angry.. pls keep your fukking mouth shut! i have enough all those of your craps and nonsense. what chemistry and math. to hell with it. when did i ever stop you ppl from doing chemistry? pls, if i really did tht, say it on my face ok? if dun have den dun make comments like : " dun let chingz know, ltr she unhappy we do chemistry." i haven heard with my ear and i believe these ppl will nv let me know.. so be it.. if you ppl love to hide den do it with a more sercret way. idiot. i dunno who is it. but anyway, if you are having guilty conscience now.. den it must be you. so ppl, just keep your damn mouth shut and let me enjoy my days in sec4 ok? blardy hell. and most imptly, those BTKs if you ppl dare to again let mr koh know anything abt this, and i kenna again, den i make sure i find out who's the BTK. idiot! and if uncle got to know, i am the one kenna.. when will it be ppl from other classess or involved in this? it always me! anyway, thanks to such ppl exsit in sec4 Es, making our bonding sucks like hell. so thank you ah.. i really dislike your doing. if you dare, dun back-stab me.. do it in board daylight. hmm, let it be.. i am in a good mood. ;)

going cambodia loh.. i wanna go.. thanks colleen.. you are the most supportive ones! I LOVE YOU!

i dun give a damn about ppl who dun give a damn abt me too. stupid ppl, when in trouble den come near me.. when there's not, den shoo.. cant find you. arghs.. wadever.. idiot ppl.. nvm, i love myself and ppl who cares abt me! =D

2006-09-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

this the first time i thank my bro. he retrive my msn account! ppl, pls add me in msn : chingz_love_energy@hotmail.com ok? den i can talk to you ppl.. ;)

hais. my uncle is currently feeling down? I LOVE YOU UNCLE! cheer up lah! hais.. worry for my this uncle.. haha.. but nvm lah.. i think he's alright..

argh.. i am feeling upset lah.. dunno why too.. not much happen.. except there's still math and test.. and i going crazy. life sucks! hahahahah..

shall update tml.. and today uncle say: YOUR BAG LOOK REALLY AH SOH! BUY IN BUGIS AH? STOP BRINGING IT LAH!

thanks uncle.. i just hope you reply. ;(

2006-09-06T17:56:00.000+08:00

hmm.. came back from school after the long hours of boring lesson. hahaha.. it quite fun todaay lah. all of us were like as usual playing and stuff. during ss, me.. samuel, yw, siying, xuan min and cheryl, came out from the AVA to buy food. heh heh.. we seriously so hungry lah. so no choice, eat in the canteen in the end everyone know. so ppl start wanting to come out and stuff and mdm ho look really angry.

not really sure about who wanan go back cambodia. but i wanan go back for sure. ;) perhaps, yw, tri, and siying is going back too. no need visa to go cambodia liao. great! ;D hmm, so math is kind of lame lah. we play the whole time and rush through a paper1 in 1 hr time. hahaha.. superb huh? slack for the next hr as godpa wanna conduct amath. ;( but anyway, it really find to stay in the AVA and during chemistry i went to sleep of the floor below the bench and get caught by mr lee. haha.. if he tell godpa i sleep on the floor during his lesson i can prepare to die liao. haha.. but mr lee really funny. and this time i am saying about victor lee ok! hahaha..

ok! again, during math this toot uncle call me aunty! i dun understand why too. do i really look like an auntie? i'm cute and young wad. -_-" so uncle keep saying i look auntie, my bag is auntie, my hair is auntie, my attire is auntie so in the end i overall is an auntie. stupid. mr koh is lame lah! and now tri and ppl also think i look auntie. always point at me and say " HAHAH! mr koh say you auntie!" idiot uncle. so math ended and i went to talk to uncle. uncle was lyk still cant believe i applying for visa to cambodia. so have some chats and uncle keep asking when i flying back to cambodia cos he staying on 15th nov to 24th nov.. den i will be going on the 21st nov to 26th nov. provided rachcan come along. hahah.. so funny enough, un cle say he cant see me if i am flying back on 25th nov to 31st nov. haahah.. he claim he wan me to find him there. i think bully me help him take things only lah. so uncle say i'm not able to attend his wedding. crazy, i cant find anyone tht wanna marry him. ;x nvm, i love uncle! so in the end he ask me to find mr chui. mr chui also very cute. he request us to fly back on the 21st nov instead of 25th nov. so he can look after us for a few days. hahaha.. so we told him we going pp also. ;) and mr chui ask if makara still lyk uncle. no wonder uncle wanna fly back so soon lah! he wanna see makara! =x ohh.. and he keep saying he taking silkair we taking budget airline. idiot sia. stupid uncle!

hmm, i told mr koh he's the best uncle in world. and he gonna chop me up. hahah.. so fun lah. anyway, i really wanna go back cambodia. but the overall cost around $193. =( i dun care, i will still go. lend $ from my mum first. -_-" anyway, uncle say if i go cambodia on 21st, he will be very happy cos can see me and also tht he will fetch me from the airport. hehehe.. cant wait for tht day to come. with determination, i will go cambodia on the 21st. but if rach is not coming, perhaps, i will still fly on the 21st. see how. dilemma. ;(

ohh, and today uncle say we didnt get him bubble tea so i say old people shldnt drink too much. he look diao lah. haahha.. he hate ppl say him old. cos he claim he's my bro? bleahs! i'm not tht old loh, uncle! hahahah.. mayb ltr go la-kopi. hahaha.. den jio uncle go. .see how. i will go if i am not tired. hahahha.. anyway, i go sleep first, ltr do math! hahahah.. prelims coming. so be it. hahahah... I LOVE CAMBODIA! uncle lyk makara! =x jokingly lah!

I WAN TO FLLLYYY TO CAMBODIA NNNOOOOWWWW!

2006-09-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

omg. today i went late for math. on purpose actually. manage to woke up at 7am and lesson start at 8am. but the weather is just too nice for me lah. hahaha.. so decided to have some no integrity act. smsed uncle, telling him i am not feeling well and whether i can take the test at 1030 instead. ;) so i wait and wait and wait. uncle didnt reply. argh! +finally i decided to call him. haha.. he picked up and say : ok lah ok lah.. you come late! i was lyk.: orh, ok! den i kap the phone and continue sleeping. omg, cool man! i'm really loving it. so finally drag my feet and went for the test. haha..

ytd, uncle gave me a call at 10+ talk around 15minutes about so many random stuff. he ask me muz rmb to study. haha.. and i called uncle bias. talk about nisa, my attitude, siying, xuan min and some other runbbish which i cant rmb. hmm.. uncel finally treat me good. after all the chatting, i felt better. of cos, this isnt the first time he called lah. but so lame lah him.. cant stand it. he say i can get a2 or b3 easily. for a1, i still must work hard. and no doubt, my attitude sucks, but after quarreling with ppl, i will regrets. that quite true. uncle say he understand me too well. o_O" i dun believe it. hahahah.. but it's really nice lah. but just that he is too lame. ohwell, thank uncle!

hmm, bluff those ppl tht i tot math start at 2pm. and i got 65/80 A1* for my math paper 1 ytd. well, it no big deal but i am just happy wad. cannot mehs? hahahaha... i paste for myself a good job sticker. heh heh heh.. uncle got nothing to say. he say good effort. bleah. joachim 's dunno have wad. but nvm, i just love it. and he annouced tothe class i claim i am sick. hahaha.. in the end i completely forgot i am suppose to be "sick" lah. taking the test alone is great! i sat at the back and uncle keep saying: leave tht siao char bor behind, you all move infront." or " dun disturb tht auntie.." cant actually rmb wad he say lah. but he's crazy! he really is loh. and i manage to complete my paper2 in 2hrs time. slack for 1/2 hr, uncle dun believe i finish. ;( but anyway, he keep calling me an ah soh. i really dun lyk lah. icall him uncle is he really old mah. i look very auntie mehs? i think i look cute and enegentic loh. hais! you idiot uncle, you shut up!

so heard from them that, uncle is giving us off on thursday? omg, i dun believe. uncle wun be so nice de lah. ahahah.. ;x he only will stay us back longer. ohh, samuel and saiful both pass their paper1! =D *wide-grins* i'm so happy lah.. hahah.. alright, ytd during the phone call, godpa say i'm not being able to accept reality tht rach is leaving and wad he felt i am acting happy all this while. perhaps, i myself cant let him felt the real happiness in me. but seriously, i feel alright this few days. ;D anyway, i love godpa! hahaha.. but if he can stop calling me an ah soh! i'm not loh! hmm, went to town with min and ying. quite a nice one. ying brought herself a donald duck's girlfriend. dunno her lah. crazy. and i didnt spent anything. i am saving for the air ticket. hahahah.. and min brought herself something for andy i think. cant rmb. ohh.. and we have lots fun. perhaps is we too long didnt come out and suddenly, this is just fun lah.

prom night is after olevel one week or smth. cant really rmb lah. hahah.. yeah~ and min and ying just now say they are really looking forward to it. me too! and also they say i am lyk so close to all teachers. hmm, not really! they do bully me. but i love GR teachers. but heard have to join alumni den can go prom nite. nvm lah. good also. wahahahahs... i wanan join alumni. hehehe.. hilmi, you sucks. i know your sercrets. haahaha.. ;x anyway, we might be flying off on the 25th nov or smth. and only will be staying for 5days. makara recommend us to phomen pehn (dunno how to spell lah!) we will be going siem reap den to pp. so the 5 days will be 1st day to angkor wat in s.r when we reach. den follow by the next day to orphanges and some visitng. den on the third day to pp to visit their museum and palace. den last day dunno wad. but mostly is visitng bahs.. actually wanna ask if koh wanan extend his stay den can acc me to pp. but doubt he will and my sister wan. hahah.. so nvm. so looking forward. ppl wanna go? the hotel in pp will be $10 per night and visitng to musuem and palace is $8 and in siem reap we will be going angkor wat which is $20 as it's the one of the 7 wonders. and maybe we will stay in makara hse for these 2 day in siem reap. and transport from siem reap to pp is $4. omg, it dun really cost much. hahaha.. and makara will not be charging us the stay in her hse. ;) so happy. *pls tag me if you ppl wanan come along, i gonna book the air ticket soon!*

hmm.. guess i gonna go sleep. tml there's english, chemistry and math. which actually is amath and poa. and poor dropper gang got to attend the amath one! ;( but anyway, congrats to me, saiful and samuel.. we passed! =D anyway, was talking about wedding nxt, i gonna ask colleen and ida to be my emcee.. hahah.. and i wanna invite all my GR tteachers and friends. especially 4E3 &4E1 ( cos douglas friend in it.) 4E2 too.. haha.. remind me abt it. =x and uncle will be my marriage withness. i crazy liao.. nvm.. i love douglas! hahahah.. joking lah.. i love myself more.

whoohoo.. i got 65/80. =DDDD

i love every second spent with you.

2006-09-04T20:08:00.000+08:00

well, math test today was great. i manage to complete it in an hour. ;) anyway, it exactly the same as cherry book. so no big challenge. and i mange to "memorized" one ans or two. yw is great, he put the ans down without any working. ;( lucky, saiful can do most of them. hmm, if he pass, i gonna buy him smth. good boy! oh, there's this misunderstanding between samuel and me. hahaha.. he was actually asking yw to call me ask if i wanna come out. and in the end, yw sleep til 5pm den wake up. funny sia. den i tot he dun wanna meet me but it is not. and yw cause him to study alone at home for this test. hahaha.. paper2 tml will kill all of us. i haven look through my paperyet. gonna complete cherry book r5 tml. die!

hmm, i am feeling so damn guilty now. just now me and yw went for job hunting. and we manage to get this job in delifrance. with the basic pay of $3.80 per hr. which is actually sucks. and i didnt wanna work too. i dunno i wan to work but... .... sigh! wad if mr koh got to know? if he really caught both of us red-handed, we will die flat. i dun dare to let him know, cos he will blow up. but keeping it from him is worst. sigh.. i feel really guilty when i think of this. perhaps, reject the job? it's only $3.80 for god sake. but i wanna go back cambodia. >(

sigh. feeling so wrong now. wad should i do next. godpa still treat me so nice. hais. yet, if he know i went to find job with yw, he gonna kill me. hais. i dun even dare to let him know. argh. i am feeling so idiotic. and min is so unhappy tht at this point of time i am still looking for jobs? argh. DIE! lying isnt good for me. i hate action w/o integrity. this really sucks lah!

hais. perhaps, i ognna reject the job bah. it really stressing me. and i dun feel lyk working in such places.
=( wadever. let's see how.. tml paper 2. good luck to me ppl! =D

2006-09-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

hmm.. was supposed to meet samuel today. i waited the whole day for him but he didnt called. well, was abit er, dissapointed ya. but there's nothing much i can do. i dun blame him, perhaps he forgot abt it or maybe i didnt rmb to bother him or rather he's waiting for me to call too? there's nothing wrong abt it. but still sigh.

i felt abit kind of upset. but after i talk to godpa, i felt better. thanks godpa. i dunno how evil you are during lesson but outside sch, you are the best listener yeah. just dun understand how ppl think and feel. perhaps, tht human. we care about ourselves more than others?

godpa told me, dun bother.. well, i cant dun bother. i believe there's just this reasson he didnt wanna or forgot to meet me. and how i am feeling perfectly alright about it. heard tht ytd godpa have a nice caht with ayun's father. hmm, and godpa obviously still angry about that lying matter. but guess he's alright now. i dunno too but he got me anyway. x)

tml is nlevel MT paper. good luck to jon, elaine, and everyong taking n'level in GR or other places. may you ppl get really good result. love ya ppl.

sigh, i isnt in the mood to update too much but i love everyone tht love me. i am feeling sad and unwanted. nvm. and anyway, my idiot mum went to throw away my blanket which accompany me when i am only 5 or 6 years old. it already 11 years yeah. got feeling. omg, she claim she gonna get me a nicer, bigger, same colour one. but i dun wan. i wan this torn and nice smelling one. ;x of cos, i throw my tantrum again and no choice they have to go find an identical one for me, if not i not gonna talk to them. if i am not wrong it's in the balcony. hais. my poor blanket. they got me a pink one now, but i dun wan. i wan this red one. so something is not the new can replaced the old one.

cos i rmb how this blanket acc me when i am young. playing batman with it. sigh. well, it gone. gonna go catch the show now. nice! saiful is meeting me at 12pm and didnt tell me meet where? crazy. sigh. i dunno lah. let it be. there's test tml 2pm-4pm. cheers! i love test. sigh...

seriously, i really want to know why you forgot, but does knowing it matter? nvm lah. life's great. ;) thanks godpa. i love you..

2006-09-02T21:57:00.000+08:00

wahahas.. i am crazy! i'm currently visiting the website of jetstar. i wanna travel to cambodia. and kind of decided i wanna flew back on the 21st. since my last paper end on the 20th. will it be too rush? but it perfectly fine with me. told mr koh about it and this is our conversation in the AVA!

me: i wanna go back cambodia leh. you must teach me how to order tickets and book the hotels hor.
mr koh: when you wanna go back? same as the school?
me: no lah. most probably on the 21st or smth.
mr koh: told makara already?
me: yup, through sms and stuff. but maybe yongwei following too. ;)
mr koh: ok. so by tht time we gonna fly back to spore already lah.
me: no lah, you all wad date?
mr koh:24th i think
me: can see me a few days, nvm.
mr koh: makara know i going back?
me: yup. she say she rather you dun go back, give us your air tix, we go back for you. ;D
mr koh: anyway, i went to watch the snake planet.. *blah blah blah* snake swallow the head... ...
* and our dearest mr koh got carried away until i got a chance to say smth... ... *
me: oh, i dun lyk.
lin jia: Nc-16? so gross.. must be lah!
shirely:shit cant go in..
me:buhahaha.. check i/c, i also cant go cos lost liao.
yongwei: BRING PASSPORT GO LOH!
* all of us burst out laughing and mr koh is still so damn engrossed in his snake planet, sigh!* =(

therefore, in the end, there's no chance for him to tell me about cambodia lah. he hor, i think cos flying made him think of plane and he wanan talk about snake. omg, dunno wad show, but after mr koh recommendation, i am not gonna watch. he say till so gross, who dare to watch. haha.. i think tht his trick to prevent me from watching movie and going out to slack! ;)

hmm, math-ing the whole morning. it bored not to deny, but well, since it my punishment so no complaints. thought of having good news of dun hab to go back on monday&tuesday! but in the eeennnddd? we still have test. thank yoou mr koh, you rawks! =( well, i am really serious of going back cambodia, can ppl dun doubt me abt tht? hahahaha.. anyone wanna come too? pls let me know. i need to prepare the cambodia shirt too. hahaha.. makara, i am coming!! heh heh heh, den on my arrival, mr koh have to fetch me in the siem reap international airport. =D *no wonder, he dun wan to teach me how to book ticket, scare i go disturb him and makara* wahahahhas... but no worries, godpa, even if you stopped me, i am still going. heh heh heh..

so, godpa gone crazy again!!! hmm, thanks nisa from 4E3, your absense have driven my math teacher crazy and he been scolding and dunno wad to me. argh.. i am always the innocent victims isnt it? ;( but nvm, i didnt really get scold today, just tht godpa kleep saying I TALK TOO MUCH! >( wad's the problem with teachers nowadays, i dun talk say i throw tantrum, i talk say i talk too much? so hard to pleased ehs. but nvm, not my prob! ahahahas.. cos i good mood of cos feel like talking lah! have been slacking the whole day and only doing a few question and guess wad, there's test. and i told myself if i manage to obtain an A2 for this test, i gonna reward myself with a puma bag! *-* hmm, see how lah! hahahaha.. i love talking and i am really feeling happy. cos i going back cambodia. wahahhahas..

and today i am so random lah! i told mr koh i wanna kick his car plate can anot. and he's so angry. not really lah, only blur why i wanan kick. hahaha.. and he keep saying "babe" is not pronouced as wad is supposed to mean. ahaha.. wadever, tht crazy old uncle. keep denying he's old. omg! =x and say i auntie you know. where on earth do i look like an auntie you tell me. you stupid old uncle, stop bullying me for god sake. ahahahahs..

ohya, samuel is meeting me tml. own accord after today session. buahhaha.. i feeling so happy. if he pass this test, i gonna buy myself a... *haven think of wad yet!* wahahahs.. thanks samuel. hahah.. and anyway, i'm kind of getting used to saturday as a sch day and no holiday for me. nvm lah.. i'm loving it. wahahhs,, going back cambodia. i really wanna go.. godpa, you will see me too. ;) ohhh... stop slacking. time to replenish my sleeping time. have been not sleeping early. and anyway, tml is a sunday!! but still i wanan go meet samuel. hehehhe... so shiok!

MMMMRRRRR KKKKOOOOHHH!!! i wanan go back CAMBODIA! o_O"

say that you love me, say that you do...

2006-09-01T17:30:00.000+08:00

hmm.. decided to update after such a long time. well, there's just too much conflict between us and mr koh. and i can heard endless complaining regardless of outside or inside the classroom. not to deny, it getting on my nerve. but no matter wad, i am complaining about it too. =(

sigh. it's really tiring for us to be back on everyday, for those hightlighted ppl. whlie this time, the amath got 2 days off. cool. and we have to gave mr koh our 4 solid days to brush up our paper1 and getting ready for emath prelims tht is coming next. hmm.. not much complaining cos ppl ard me are just lyk suffering together? well, for those ppl who have been complaining endlessly, why not look on the bright side of life? if you are the hightlighted ones, just know effort will pay off. if you happen to be an amath students, think of ppl who suffer more than you do such as mr koh, himself& the highlighted ones. if you are those who are non-amath and non-highlighted, i dun seem a need for you to complain, so just shut up! hmm.. and most imptly, if you happen to fall in the highlighted group or you are an amath-er and you really dislike coming back, why not just say it out loud for mr koh to heard? or just gave him a piece of your mind, since he gave you his too? hmm, so siding of anyone. but seriously, i dun seen a need to complain to other teachers not realted to you, compare the whole day about how good life other classess are nor asking your poor frene ( such as me) to go and talk to him. and not to deny, mr koh are unreasonable too. the load is too much, but yet none of us have this courage to tell him.. so, just follow his way, it will be over soon. look on the bright side of life.

hmm, teacehrs day concert is just a word. SUCKS! i dunno why the hell will ppl come up with performances like shit, it not impressive or wad and the singing is the worst. i meant the 4Ts! omg! i cant stand it! hmm, not much complains lah, at least have a really nice present giving to teachers. gave mr lee this heart tht i took long ago, but of cos i brought him a new one. =D and brought me koh a funny thing, a strawberry shortcake waterbottle with snoopy handkerchief in it! ;x and of cos the long note and stuff. nice ok! haha.. i force him to use and he was like feeling so idiotic lah. haha.. but anyway, you got to use! told him, he shall be my marriage withness nxt when i marry doug.

well, went to cheryl hse to study ytd. fun! hmm.. kind of lacking of topics. and mr koh's mood sucks and this led to me and him flaring our top. but luckily, thing sorted out nicely. he keep asking abt r. i dunno how to ans too. today b4 i left, he asking if i am meeting r and stuff. and he scolded me an ah soh. mr koh, you nv understand lah!

math today is funny too. too much thing happen and he keep remind me abt the past. say i am ah lian last time now a da jie da. crazy! den abt sp. omg, keep say those random stuff. mr koh, you are mad! hahaha.. he say i have no manners and the thing he dislike i purposely wanna do to made him angry. ;) of cos, if not how to see your irritated face nehs? hmm, samuel is funny, he wanna take the AVA key to put on mr koh's car so he cant lock the door. tht's cool. i might want to try one day. but worry, he might go crazy. hahaha.. well, it darn bored. i am sway to be in the highlighted group so no holiday for me. it's a punishment for me as i play with my math p1 test. sigh!

*mr koh, DUN YOU NEED A REST TOO?

2006-08-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

hmm, before i go to sleep, i decided to blog, before i have no chances to do so. ;) well, school have been really long and tiring. i hate monday lah. have this phobia towards math again. ;( but thanks for samuel and saiful, they really push me on by telling me that they wish i will teach them. thanks ah. however, i only manage to teach saiful today during math, becos, samuel is busy at the back. dunno do wad also. but then, he mange to finish up his work! well-done samuel. thanks for giving me this little moral support hor. LOVE YA! =D

wahahahs, idiot sia! i got 22/80. and samuel got 36/80. thank god! he got a better result den me. and saiful got 28/80. claps! 12 more marks to go! =D i love both of them, brighten up my days. babe.. hehe.. somemore hor, idiot sia, i got a really good scolding and ppl not suppose to fail are failing. like me, kai ling, cheryl. because, of the matter and also we are sick and tired of math. omg, teachers nowadays are driving us nuts. argh! thanks ah! ahahahs.. have a really nice time with saiful in the AVA. this included ridzuan and hilmi. i dunno why, but i began to love hilmi more. haha.. as a brother of cos. nowadays we are really sacastic, by saying thank you and friends forever to ppl who we dislike and felt angry with.

mr koh scolded the whole class for not being able to put our emotions aside and also all those little immature stuff. ( thats only to him!!) and beside that, the same old stuff is coming again. sick and tired of it too! =x but well, i love mr koh, rmb tht! haha.. so early dismissal on wed have to stay back. if i am not wrong and not dreaming. his scolding included :

mr koh: i am having a high temperature of 38.2 and i pop 4 pandaols to supressed my temperature. i gonna go out to buy the panadols for cold one, as i am running a nose! (hahah.. running a nose?)
me&hilmi: *smiling to each other*
mr koh: if this problem ( me & r) are not settled by wed, i will lay my hand in. know how i lay my hand in? i will not turn up for teachers day celebrations!
me: * not bad, no math afterall.* =x
mr koh: i was suppose to have hi-tea with mr lee at the 72-story, raffles.... PLACE ( seem lyk he forgot abt the place) but now i am telling mr lee, i am not going, why? cos of you all.
*the class remain quiet*
*he continue he shouting, yelling, screaming, suaning*
mr koh: dun ask how i know abt it, i think i am smart enough to know what's happening and i can sense it.
hilmi and saiful : he is covering up for ppl lah!
mr koh: i dun wan any nonsense for 4E3 and tell 4E2 that also..
*sigh! the class look so gloomy and we already know what he gonna say next.*
mr koh: better go and settle ie before i going to make an ugly scene.

hmm, this is the first time, mr koh is so directly, without sparing anyone talking about such things in class. was kind of sad lah. but then, hilmi and saiful brighten me up. ohya, i meant, he's the nicest ppl.. blah blah blah.. but then. this talk is just too much. oh, this my personal comments, dun report it to him. heh heh heh.. and also just dunno why he's threatening about not turning up for teachers day. not my fault wad! haha.. so it didnt affect me much. =$ wahahas.. smsed him after tht, no reply. bias king, talk to r dun talk to me. win liao loh! nvm, i got s&h! ohh.. saiful, quit his soccer team. nvm lah, good. new mission help saiful. but my result lyk shit lah. ahaha.. 22/80 not my usual standard ok. i can easily get 62! =x kidding, see next test how. ohh and he ended with this : you ppl better pass your paper 2 which is coming in a couple of days. ;(

well, hab a chat and it goes well and stuff. ok le bahs. no comments. ohh, i finish up my f&n already. =D great. geo and english. wahahas. i am super tired now, i must sleep before i flare up tml. wheewee.. and i bluff them i order a sofa? hahah.. joking nahs.. i LOVE you ppl! hais.. dilemma.. dunno shld sms mr koh mah, ltr he boom up again! hehe.. so happy, dunno why also. thanks ppl! i LOVE 4E3! and it not gonna end just like tht.. wel, good nite.

i'm sorry godpa!( so long eversince i called him this, but nvm, i know you are stress, you are still my godpa. know you care, but nagged too much =x.. ohh, no! you are the best! happy teachers day!) ;D

2006-08-27T14:39:00.000+08:00

have been really tired and busy lately. this is the first year without a gathering during teachers day. hmm.. due to mr koh, he object it and insist we shld concentrate in our last lap. ohwell, teachers day we still have to be back. =(

there's just so much stuff happening lately in the class. which really made me feel tht the class morale is been affected. but wad to do. got to know hilmi better. tht funny and joker. everytime when i see hilmi, he always brighten up my days. haha.. and of cos yongwei and ppl/. i love them lots.

have been hiding stuff from mr koh and ms tan. especially the thing tht me and r is currently going through. that we refuse to gave into one another about so much misunderstanding tht been occur daily. mr koh say i am always honest to him abt stuff. but this time i refuse to let him know, becos i knew he wun help me and instead, i will be put onn the blame of bullying r. perhaps, tht is still lack of trust and stuff. but whatever it is, i hope ppl who know abt this matter dun only listen to mine story or only hers. but now to me, it wun matter anymore. i have enough abt everything. abt the screaming and shouting. abt the i wanna change hu.

didnt talk to mr koh for days neither did i sms him. just felt lyk so hurt bah. i dunno, not in the mood to say anthing abt all this stupid stuff. perhaps, he felt better tht i dun disturb him.. hahaha.. wad a failure i am. but so wad. my class is in a mess. everyone start to beware of one another. afraid the backstabbing and stuff. and thanks to ppl who have been contributing to this conflict. >( i had a hard time bringing them together, and now, it start to drift further.

mr koh realised me and r have smth on. and instead of asking me, he went to ask my friends. but thank goodness, they didnt betray me. they kept quiet abt it. thanks. perhaps, he can really observe abt tht. but ohwell, so wad even he know, i am still in fault. ;) so he get jia to sms him but i stopped her from doing so, cos i really dun wish him to know. and given my atitude and stuff, who dare to tell me when they heard abt it, they dun feel it's my fault? cos, i am always the unreasonable one and she's always the nice one. but nvm, she's still my friends nonetheless.

hmm, didnt wanna do the emath test ytd. and indeed, i anyhow do loh. cos samuel force me to. =) wahahahs.. mayb i will fail and stuff? nvm lah.. i look on the bright side of life. omg, monday is the most darn boring days. oh, got the pillow from ikea. tml still must go get the markers for them. hmm, finally, i got the heart sshape cushion from ikea too. cheapskate, only $9.90? haha.. =x nvm, i will return it to mr lee with a bit of my writting, since he love my writting so much. hahahahahaha... I LOVE MR LEE SC!

ohh, things shld hab end by now rite.. anyways, i'm darn tired. currently feeling so sick. but nvm, may my 4E3 become who they usually are.

thanks hilmi, he say this: why everyone always think is your fault? she always right mehs?

hilmi, saiful,ridzuan, yongwei, emman already become my good friends! and they always give me this support tht whenever i gonna fall, they will just be at the back supporting me. thanks babe! you ppl rawks. and this included harold, joseph, samuel.. haha.. i just realised i have so many good friends around me. i'm a lucky babe. haha.. and of cos, my sisters regardless who you pp lare. dun hab to mention, they are always ard me. this incident indeed brought me, xm, sy closer. thanks to whoever have caused this conflict to happen, cos if not for you, i will lose the 2 of them soon. =D

well, i didnt meet samuel today. i am sick lah! hahahah.. i will still remain happy and smiling. cos i'm lovable! ahaha.. rite brothers? well, teachers day is coming, cool man! n wed they allow us to go back at 1225 for the celebrations of getting the CDP&NE awards. haha..

i dreamt i went back to cambodia. but well, i am still in spore. ;( perhaps, there's just too much misunderstanding between all of us, but i really hope mr koh will not know. thanks babes..

to ppl who have always been by my side, without you ppl, i dunno how i gonna survived. little support meant alot to me. dun worry, i will be strong.

mr koh is my godpa who i love and respect, you ppl are my friends who i cant live without with. if, you ppl doubt mr koh is been placed b4 you ppl, is this consider no faith towards me too? nvm, no matter wad happen, i love you ppl as you ppl always love me. *muacks*

2006-08-21T19:54:00.000+08:00

i got back my math result for paper one tht i did on sat afternoon. i got a B4 and the others got an A1. =( how stupid can i be and i really feel so down abt tht lah. i only improve by 2 marks and wth. hais. my math really sucks lah. mr koh say ppl hu got A1 doesnt mean you will get an A during prelims. so does tht mean tht we get Bs will get lower? hais. i am really afraid of losing focus and stuff. keep doing reflections on why i done badly. godpa say if i really done badly, he gonna disown me. hmm, lose to ppl like rong seng & bo hao. all are seriously improving fast and furious? omg, and i am like keep slacking or smth? =( hais, really dui bu qi mr koh loh.

tht lamer koh, still tell me lame things. i dunno why, the more he wanan entertain me, the more i dun feel lyk entertaining him. hais, i'm really upset abt my paper1. if i falied my p2. i really gonna kill myself. disgrace to ppl ard me. sigh! -_-" godpa do all those lame and funny stuff in cls which i funno why. not interested. hahaha.. he go ask ms tan why she cry. where got guys ask liddat one? lols, gone crazy during lesson, kick ppl chair, fight with yongwei and bully ppl. fun! =D hmm, didnt listen in class lately. cos i gone crazy. hmm, drew sly and "smile babe" for ms tan. haha.. she feel sad mahs.. mr koh also dun hab hor. actually wanan ask mr koh help to pass but ltr i kena again. so better dun. i am real tired. mr koh say i keep bother him abt rach stuff. >( omg, wad a nice tcher i hab. hhahaha.. =D no lah, i love mr koh ok! MR KOH, I LOVE YOU! but i love my classmates more. =x

omg, good news for 4E2&4E3. our dearest teachers are asking us back to sch on sat. and this is the schedule if i'm not wrong. timing for sat:

7am-9am : amath/emath
9.30am-11.30am: D&T/ F&N
12.30am-2.30am: math mock test.
2.30am-4.30pm: geography

wahhaahs.. this is so nice and cool for our teachers. SAT also like normal sch days. LOVE YA, TEACHERS! thanks huh? if there's no D&T and stuff. geo will be locateed in the time slot. and and and.. 31st aug which is the celebration of teachers day, we are so honour to be a sk to stay back after the concert for math and geo. omgg! i'm so LOOKING FORWARD! =( and dearest mr koh might be missing me, he even 1st sept also wanan us back. wahahhas.. see. how fortunate we are? isnt it? sigh! beside tht, our one wekk holidays hab been taken up again! by our lovable and nice teachers. we hab to come back again due to the prelims coming next. wahahhs. this is cool man, no break at all! =( arghs, how sad can life be. but no complaints shall be heard by mr koh and no bargain most imptly. hais, teachers, WE LOVE YOU! ;(

well, there shld be no more playing and chionging til end year. hmm, kind of settled for our remedials schedule. and teachers hab been fighting for us like nobody business. and we are robort not human anymore. today is cool! straight tahan 8periods and continue with math without a break. we are supposingly doing tht. but due to the complaints and math test start at 330. our PE been took away by mr koh, first PE lesson only 15mins of games and follow by 15mins of breaks and we hab to go to AVA for our beloved test. =D and again, this test i guess i do suckyly sucks. and of cos, we tahan for 2 and 1/2 hr til 6pm to try the full paper2. omg! cant imagine time pass so fast. and until brainjuice been suck out by him den we are been release.

went to find ms tan after tht. pass her the drawing i drew during lesson just to cheer her up. she look happy. haha.. she say mr koh say: your godsis say tht you cried, so i am here to check on you. hhaha..." so lame.. ms tan also funny lah. say she wanna change us away. lols.. she wun bear to one loh. I LOVE MS TAN! =x haha.. alright, i wanan go sleep liao. so tired. life is TOO tiring. omg, i haven got cheryl cake. siao liao! ppl pls kill me! =(

happy celebrations of teachers day to ppl out there. hais! not everyone hab this opportunities to celebrate teachers day! arghs!~ I WAN TO CELEBRATE TEACHER DAY LAH! I WANNA GO BACK MY PRIMARY SCH LAH! I WANNA HAB CHALET LAH! THANKYOU MR KOH! YOU ARE THE BBEESSTT IN THE WORLD! >(

2006-08-20T22:02:00.000+08:00

i'm getting on with my life abt the racheal-incident. and i am more determined to be really strong and give her this 2 months the unforgettable one. i myself cant belive it too. she's really leaving but oh well, nothing can change the fact instead of working harder and strive on.

samuel came to meet me today. thanks. and he really finish up his work. hmm, tht sound great. the first sentence he saw me was " why you look so sad nowadays?" i dunno loh, just told him i am really sad about the leaving and i am stress bahs. kind of useless me nowadays. i wanna ssleep after teaching samuel.

wad time will rach call me. ask godpa question he dun wan reply.. not impt to him but impt to me mahs. siao liao lah.. my heart really pain sia. i wanan start everything all over again. hais.. is rach angry with me or smth?

i didnt wan to treat her like tht. i didnt talk to my family. i get angry easily when talking to them. i dunno why. i hate family gathering and i hate attending it. i hate attening family fuctions. i just felt so uneasy with them lah. stupid.. i tend to scream at them.. wadever lahs..

hais, i really so lost. will rach called me anot? tml is another long day. guess i gonna throw my tamtrum again. i choose to be a happy me tml. haha.. but just call me can anot. idiot sia.. hais.. dunno lah.. mr koh another one, sms you dunn how to reply huh? wadever loh, nxt i also dun wan reply you. =( arghs, i am just so irritated lahs!

2006-08-19T20:15:00.000+08:00

well, another 24hours have passed. another 24 hours nearer to the prelims, the olevels and the graduation on the 16thoct. my heart sank when godpa told me about it. i am really really really upset about all this parting with my dear dear classmates and my really good friends. the fun and jokes we always have in class. the singing of national song and the joke about cookie monster and stuff. the 11 claps. the few hyper one have to really go and find ways to get the class closer. the complains we have about mr koh & mr vic lee. the cushion all of us have? the little cafe and stuffwe have in the cardboard. the never-ending birthday celebrations. the time together until 6pm and non stop joking. i miss those days. when i am feeling down looking out, there wil lalways be ppl around me, talking to me. loving me and concern about me. so much all this little things my classmates are doing for me. and to be honest, i really love you ppl so much tht i dun wanna leave anyone. the "choir" we have in class. the stupid song we always sing. the sleeping time during mdm ho's & mrs choy period. the up and down we went through, i just hope 4E3 can restart our life again. will we meet up with one another annually? and i swear i gonna join the GR alumni. and i am feeling so super down now. =(

cried during morning emath. sit at the umbrella, in sch again.

i rmb how rach will serve me, hit me and of cos when i am bullying her. the animal farm we always hide ourselves to study and to wait for mr koh and ppl. no one will acc me to hide beside mr koh's car to scare him. no one will help me pass letters and notes to mr koh. no one will take care of me when i am really sick. no one will run to the canteen to buy me milo. no one will ask me to study chemistry. no one will lend me her jacket when i am feeling cold. no one will wait for me to reach sch in cab. no one will wait for me after all my stupid activities. no one will talk to mr koh about how stress i am. no one will send me home. no one will acc eat. no one will help me to do all the unresonable stuff i request. no one will salute mr koh with me. no one will wait for me. no one will acc to toilet. there's just so much daily routine i have with rach. if she's really gone, how am i gonna live. mayb tht's wad mr koh named as pamper. everyone gave in to me cos of my poor and lousy attitude. my whole class gave in to all demands i wan. all stupid stuff i always request for. the blah blah stuff i really loves to be with everyone of them. =)

now, she's leaving in 2 mths time. due to all the emotions i have, i cried for 3days already. ms tan and mr koh have enough about me crying. ms tan gave me a piece of her mind just now in sch. i shld be strong, i shldnt cry so easily. as the united class, i shld bring all of them to pass math.. the buddy system we have and as the pillar of the clas, when i fall, everyone will start falling down. when i felt really sad, they feel really sad too. =( i cant be selfish. i cant be spoilt. they call me dajie, with reasons, cos i have this mission tht is given by all ppl ard me, to led the class to greater heights. if i really cry, they will feel really bad. well, i think through, for 4E3 & rach, i'm not gonna be so weak. there's just so many true friends around me and really love me lots. i wanan be the happy peiching tht ppl always see. 4E3 success is in my hand. i really love you ppl. thanks. dun have the mood to do math and stuff, sigh. got scolded from ms tan. =( godpa told her, i was an ah lian once, but i changed for better. i know wad's right and wrong. hais.. got scolded by godpa too. he pass by saw me crying and ms tan talking, he's so angry. he said something like: " dun forget wad you promise me, dun give me empty promises." ms tan knew it and start saying godpa have high hopes in me. he didnt wanan see me cry lyk tht. i know and i really know it. thanks ppl.. i wun gave my godpa empty promises, i will dry my tears and carry on my life. keep the emotions til she really leaving, for the time being, made her stay worthwhile. =-)

ytd went to ying hse, godpa gave me the permission to go. i promise him, tht will be the last time i breakdown and he wun c me cry again bahs. tht's why, he's so angry with me today. =( i am sorry godpa.. but after tht was alright. they brought me breakfast and drinks, godpa saw i stop crying and walk to me, telling me to enjoy my meal. -_-" and i ask him to go away. haha.. dun disturb me. and he buying jia present, ;X and he say i cannot be jealous, cos i talk craps whole day. hhaha.. during math test was hyper, but still talking craps with godpa. keep suan-ing him about everything i hab in my mind. haha.. so he's nice not to be angry with me. the test was er-alright i think, can pass. haha.. from alst time single digit to now hor, i felt really proud of myself! =D so went to kbox to destress loh.. hehe.. I LOVE ALL MY PEEPS! hmm, graduation, dun come near me. i wanna be a pure greenridgean not an ex-greenrigean. =(

samuel meeting me tml. thank god. haha.. I REALLY LOVE 4E3 & MY BELOVED GODPA & 7 PRINCESS! =) i am not pamper, but i have a life with so many good friends and teachers with me. thanks, WO AI NI MEN! =DDD

IF I CAN GO BACK TO THE PAST, I WILL LOVE YOU PPL EVEN MORE! ;)

2006-08-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

just recieve a really saddening news ytd. racheal is leaving. am i just this lousy frene who didnt treasure her enuff? i really feel this guiltiness and stuff. i know she dun wanna let me know due to my emotions. break down when i heard frm ppl. been crying from ytd to today. there's just so much we as the e3ers have not complete as one. i cant bear to see her leave. i really feel this kind of loss. but there's nothing tht i can do. can anyone tell me why life is so unfair? why let me lost my great frene? i cant cry in class today cos it's jia birthday. but am i hab to act happy. cant breakdown infrnt of them rite? hais, i have to be hyper. the sadness is really is in me. until f&n i cant stand it liao, went to toilet and cry my heart out. hais, i am really feeling so sad and idiotic.

during lifeskill it's mr koh who taking us. just awhile, he told this to the class. "racheal will be leaving us." ppl stunned. as for me, my tears came out again. i dunno. this is the first time i dun feel lyk listening to mr ko. i hope to get out of issac. i wanna be alone. i wanna hugged rach and nv let her go. but godpa say, it time to look at brighter side. i dun wan her to leave me. i dun wan to be alone. i need company. i wan her to be in my life. 2 more months and we gonna leave each other. hais. i am feeling sad lah..

will blog tml. go do some math. =(

I WAN RACHEAL! I LOVE YOU! can you please dun leave for my sake. hais. i regret for not treasuring you. i really really really love you. =..(

2006-08-15T21:47:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR BRO, JOACHIM! =D

heard from ppl tht he has this misunderstanding about my previous entries. hmm.. no comments, i was saying about how no life and sorry to my dear 4E3-er.. not complaining about you my dear. anyway, work harder for math ehs.. you promise a 50/80. buhahaha.. anyway, no comments.. let's strive as one.

a new promise to 4E3 : to be really happy to spent every single day with my darlings. =) well, teopeiching promise tht lah ok? hahaha..

hmm, kind of moody in the morning but during math i went all hyper again. haha.. godpa was like so super lame when i am teaching yongwei. cos he keep snatching away the paper. so he kenna scold. hahha.. so shiok. actually is i always drew his paper den godpa didnt see. and in the end, yongwei hab to apologize to me. wahahhas. shiok man.

kind of unhappy about so much stuff nowadays. but then, hais. no comments. i didnt finish up my math. 2days and i am still doing it. tml oral i shall chiong finish. arghs.. f&n coursework. all undone. wad the hell. i am again, eating into mr koh timing? wahahhas.. wadever. i cant stand it anymore. pls stop it can. b4 i really threw my tantrum at you. arghs! today i threw the equipment during physics due to my stupid hot temper. enough is enough. dun try your luck ok. i dunno why, perhaps stress? i guess so..

got to know that the suana cost about $6000. shit loh, and well, godpa got to know abt it and he got really upset and stress. sigh.. dun feel like talking about it already. there's f&n execution tml. it gonna be hell man. mine is always super messy and stuff. start on the normal MT. and i got free period.

*well, even if there's no one helping him, so wad. i already told godpa i wan it. tht mean i wan it. i hab enouff about everything in my stupid blardy life.

thanks mr lee. YOU DIRTY MY UNIFORM! =(

2006-08-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

hmm, so much stuff to be completed over the days and stuff. ARGHS! if really driving me nuts. 23 more days to prelims. i gonna do well and got the incentives from the alumni. promised godpa i will do well and i know how to pioritised my time. hmm.. but on sat i went out with them. kind od guilty and sinful if let godpa know, i gonna been chopped into pieces.

told godpa i will be going rach hse to learn chemistry and starting my hmwk after rest. guess wad, we went to have steamboat and esplanade to watch firework follow by ton-ning at tricia hse. been slacking loh. see how dishonest i am. and worst still at 12am we still wanna go to kbox. wahahas.. crazy me sia. but i treat it as a reward for myself after so much harkwork for my chinese.

kind of glad with myself tht i will get an A1 with distinction for oral. cos, i have been just anyhow doing those papers. but thank god for blessing me. godpa was the one tht told me about my result. i cant bring myself to believe it. i must really thank the 2 oral examinors.. cos they are really nice to give me a distinction despite all those craps. haha.. i rmb i was in the hyper mood but mr ng was then really angry with me about my not attending lesson but go for art fiesta. haha.. and i was so sweaty and tired during oral. but oh wells, it all over. =) the feeling of getting an A1 but your friends around you are all so upset with the result isnt tht great. hugged with jurrel, and i feel we are really getting closer. wad does tht mean? counting down to the days we departing? i cant bear to. A1, is it the only A1 tht will appear on my result slip. no, my emath, CH and F&N will all get at least an A2 but emath, i wanna an A1. all those looking down on me teachers got a shocked or smth. well, it's just over. no more MT no more anything. godpa, i wun let you down for A1 in emath. no worries.

a really good news, tht samuel passed his math test with a score of 42/80.. he made me feel tht all efforts are worth it. I LOVE YOU SAM! haha.. of cos as my little bro. haha.. hmm, i am upset with my result of 49/80. wth. a losuy grade of B4. shit loh. but then, godpa say olevel we will at least obtained an A. whahahas.. hope so bahs. finish one set of chemistry. i gonna go rest. i hab been vomitting for days. and i dunno why too. haha.. nvm lahs..

hmm, i gonna really study hard le. godpa gave me permission to draw balla balla.. -_-" after much fan-ing. thank you godpa.

godpa: hmm, even though i cant deny, you have been nagging alot lately, but like wad mr lee sc say, you love us too much. thanks 4 being understanding enough to let me draw balla. it my passion. i know all promises i made to you seem crappy. i didnt start any revision and stuff. i am really sorry. upon hearing from ms tan, knowing how stress and tired you are, yet i cant do a thing to help you instead me and joachim have been adding on to your burden bahs.. i feel really bad. maybe there's time i seem not focus, irritated by your endless nagging. the same-old stories you have told darius batch, the care and concern i took for granted from you, but well, i still respect you. dunno wad more to say, but thanks for letting me know, you are proud of me about my A1 in chinese. and your non-stop pushing for chemistry. well, it stressful but godpa, I LOVE YOU! =D tkc..

alright, shall end everything now. class friendship dun look well, dunno waht to do too. hais.. dunno lahs, give me time to think.. wahhahas.. i get to draw balla balla.. ;)

2006-08-09T20:50:00.000+08:00

i have no ideas how to find back this smile i used to have for every now and then. the real smile tht always is on my face. the one that i feel really haapy for every single day with ppl and friends. but now, everday i am kind of no life. its always surrounded the same person and hmwk and sch. nothing else. life seem so empty and friends are grumbling about my bo-chapness in them. but wad can i do? i have been putting on this strong feelings of not breaking down infront of all of them cos i knew they will feel really heartbroken and dunno wad to do even i cry and yell infront of them.

things have been going well and going downhill at times. he became the next important person in my life. i care alot for him, wadever i have done is just for him. we have been quarreling for days and ok back for a few days. but everyday, i have to worry and stress about everything. every sunday, i rather gave up anything i have just to meet him. am i being nobel or stupid? i have been hanging this fake smile around me. trying to cheer mr koh up when he look really down. screaming and behave like crazy in class just to bring up thier mood. i know the days with each other is getting lesser and lesser. tht's one reason why i behave like tht too.

i am stress. i do not know wad to do. i have been talking to myself non stop. screaming at the phone. telling myself there's still time. but i can sense, i geeting crazy with all those directly or indirectly stuff for me. the class.. samuel, myself, friends. what am i supppose to do. put down everything like wad ppl say? i cant, i really cannot. i hope someone will pity me, and help me to settle all this little stuff. but whose life is not full of rocks. i am seriously, declaring tired and i wating to give up everything i can, you understand?

my classmates are compalining of my lesser time with them. samuel as the top piority and stuff.. i am really hurt and i felt so bad towards them. everyday, i will talk about samuel, think about samuel, go and see what samuel is doing. the responsibility of taking care of him is so huge. even though they say just worry for his studies but then, opther stuff are link as well. i feel sad when thing not going my way. i feel like cutting myself to let him know what ia mfeeling. but samuel dun deserve such stress. i worry his work not on time. i worry he got into trouble. i worry i cant score for olevel. i worry the MT result tht is coming out in 2days time. wad am i suppose to do. seriously, leave everything down to wad is suppsoed to be?

when is the last time i went out with the big group of them? when is the alst time we went shopping? eating? watching movies? when is the last time they saw me really smile and be happy for the whole day? when is the last time i went to arcade and xboxing? when? why do i deserve to suffer like tht? why do i need to gave up every spare time i have to coach samuel or others? why? cos simple, they matter to me. but i wanted to help them, but as time goes by, the load is getting bigger. i have to really manage friends and him properly.

ppl say, i'm bias. samauel is my first piority. except samuel i wun teach anyone. cos of smauel, they didnt see the smile i usual have. i felt sasd for myself. i pity myself. and i really hate myself. my friends love me and they hate to see me suffer with all this unhappiness but why? why am i suffering? why.. i hate everything now. i did not feedback to mr koh abt such stuff cos i know he will worry and stuff. i hate it. i am sorry peeps. i am really useless. =(

hais, sorry to jaochim and yongwei, if you ppl think i have no life pls give me time.. u ppl matter to me as my great frene. samuel, is currently working hard, i cant gave him up. hais.. why do i have to suffer this?

i just wish to find back my smile. but it seem impossible....

2006-08-07T22:06:00.000+08:00

omg, it been super long eversince i update. school have been really tiring. =( everyday, we are been forced to listen to endless nagging and about how many days more to our prelims. arghs! this is really getting on my nerves.. i have to really start studying for my own now. hmm, but well, there's just so much stuff waiting for me to do.

hmm.. the few of us will be performing for the national day concert tml. =( we are doing this really cute dance and guess wad.. mr ong, mr seah will be suaning me.. " i cant believe you can dance." i kept it so low profile to godpa.. heh heh.. and he flare his top today about the not going math but for the reharsal thingy.. ;) well, quarrel with samuel this few days but just realise he been in my mind for days.. hais.. wad to do.. i am so stress up and stuff abt him.

ytd went to meet him and complete his work.. ;) i love you sam. hahah.. ohh.. and ytd due to my kindness act, godpa allow me to go rach hse. first time man! haha.. and today, i was coaching 5 at a times during math.. cos i finish my paper2 liao.. already knew godpa will ask me to do. haha.. so finish it b4 hand. haha.. so i feel so proud of myself. and i coach, samuel.. saiful.. joachim.. feroze and rong sheng! heh heh heh.. =D i am a super good gal lah, wad to do.. so finally one time, godpa called me a good gal. wahhahas.. no big deal actually.

i was really grumpy during the reharsal. i am god damn tired. and angry abt some sutff lahs.. but i think is becos i am hungry. lols.. hmm, kind of sry cos i am the only grumpy ppl there and pulling down everyone mood. sorry ppl. i love you! ahaha.. told godpa i like sam, which was supposely scaring him, but godpa seem like taking it so serious and ignore me. hmm, he most probably got a shocked.

was angry with mr lee for not being able to pull us out at 330 but afterwards he manged to pull us out at 430 after much begging. haha.. ohh, and i keep saying, : i dun wan to talk to you. he's kind of mad at me i think.. samuel brought me chocolate today.. haha.. i love you babe.. haha.. jk lah.. idoug iwanna divorce with me. dunno why too.. wahahahs.. I LOVE GODPA! wahahhas.. so, went home after a long day. will be bz nowadays and not updating tht often. hmm, go sleep liao. tml must jump ard. hahah.. i love 4E3! buahahaha.. tml onwards i will put paper bag over my face. heheh.. tkc ppl.. I LOVE YOU!

2006-07-30T19:22:00.000+08:00

this the letter from us to mr koh. =D

To: Mr Steven Koh

PS: ENJOY YOUR JELLY WHILE READING THIS!!

We would like to say thank you to you, for giving us freedom. We are truly sorry for not completing our mission of looking after Samuel. Even though nysa is doing on her accord. We know that you pinned a lot of hope on us and hope we would coach each other and walk together as a cohort but sorry, we failed as his friend and classmate.

Nysa:

You don’t know that I’m doing all this work all this while rite? But I think you might have guessed it sammy have been sitting beside me when we are having maths lesson in the AVA. I guessed peiching have told you the whole story already. All this have been happening since the 2nd half of last year. I treat him like a brother. For you info, sammy will do all his work when I mentioned Diana’s name. His WHOLE heart is with Diana. Now, I can’t do anything liao. Since he mentioned that he knows what he’s doing. I am not on talking terms to him since rai won’t let me talk to him as she thinks that I’m wasting my time. I thought it over, I think the same way too. Let Diana do her own way. Diana told rai that she knows what she’s doing. So it think its fine lorr.. I think it all started when I found out that he’s been very close to Diana lately and I did not want history to repeat itself so I decided not to talk to him since he got a new guardian mah. I got nobody to turn to, so I told peiching. Since I know that you gave her the responsibility to take care of him. So I think she should know about this. After all this happen suddenly both of us fall sick at the same time. This is a coincidence not a planned one. I think both of us need a break. I have to really focus on my studies now. I feel that I’m helpless and lost but can’t give up because my mum really spends money on me. Thanks for coming to our rescue from going to Hougang bungalow. hehe.. Appreciate it a lot. All I can do now is wish him “all the best”. I don’t want to end our friendship but I think it’s too much for now. Need time to recover. I’m scared that he’ll go back to his old ways. He’s not in gang anymore. Just scared that he’ll join back.. Thanks Mr Koh.

Peiching:

Godpa, I don’t know how to say sorry to you but I really can’t continue doing it anymore. Thanks for giving me a chance to play as Samuel’s guardian angel, I love and appreciate this chance but soon, I realize that I’m not the one that he’ll work hard for and preserver for. I know I’m useless and I felt truly regretted for giving you this “false hope” that he’ll work hard. But sorry, I failed as your god-daughter and student. Peer-coaching is not my job. I really love and hope to see Samuel excel but I can’t. I decided to give up not because he’s useless, but I’m the useless one. No one understand how I felt towards this matter except you n nysa. Maybe, its time to end all this things, I have enough and not good enough to take care or coach him. Effort and time was spent on him but no result shown. He’s a kite, I don’t know if I should pull him harder or let go the string. The kite is flying but the person flying the kite doesn’t know what to do. This kite should fly high but I don’t know how to let it fly. Maybe like what you say, cut the string off, let it drop? I really don’t know what to do, I didn’t want to let him go just like that but this kite is beyond my control. Am I pulling him to tight that the string break halfway or I’ve just been holding on to the string because you asked me to? Thoughts went through my mind, every night, I can’t sleep. Even dreaming also dreamt about him. But what I have done don’t matter to him anymore. I decided to hand over the string to someone who has the passion for him. I can’t trust him anymore, even that day when both of us are sick, he still gets into trouble. I have done all I can perhaps I need a break to think through everything. There’s just too much things on my mind right now. Samuel, friends, family, I can’t take it anymore. I used to be confident telling you, he’s the best but now I don’t know what to say or do. Because, we drift apart further, the heart attack he always give me is more than enough. I just hope that I can relax my mind and think through the next step. The stress and pressurize have on me is too much for me to take. Thanks for being so understanding about this and Godpa, I appreciate your concern and care. Thank you for being there with me when I fall. This time, I really fall badly. I’m a great failure. I’m sorry! Love ya, Godpa.

Thanks for spending time reading this. We will now formally hand over Samuel to you. Please be patient and guide him through his darkness. Both of us have already done our best in handling in this matter even though nysa is doing it on her own accord. Samuel is actually a good boy, it’s just that we think he’s lack of attention at home so he’s desperately seeking for attention in school. We hope you’ll act as his dad and feed him with parental care. Make him report to you about his whereabouts. But nysa thinks that he won’t care. Feel free to share your sadness to us. No matter what is it we will always behind you. hehe.. Thanks for taking up this challenge, we are waiting to hear good news from you soon. Don’t check in into Hougang bungalow okay. =) thanks for giving us a chance to find back the smile we both have lost for so long.

Lots of Love:
Chingz & Nysa
29072006

2006-07-30T19:03:00.000+08:00

didnt update ytd due to the super tiredness in me. went to school early in the morning and laft school at about 1230. =) there's as usual ms tan's math and ms haryani f&n. finally finis hup my course work part b.. left abit more to be done on wed. guess wed not attending math, gonna go do f&n if i am not wrong. last day already. haha.. so it as usual fun for the day. but still kind of ignoring sam. dunno why, nothing to talk i think. so keep chatting with ms tan. she so nice and funny. ;) went to fajar for breakfast. actually not suppose to eat with godpa.. but saw him there, so he ask me to sit with him. -_-" have abit of chat and he keep saying random stuff lahs. haha.. ohh, mr ong.. he go and call ms tna and kajiao. say he's my dad. crazy.. of cos, i hope you isnt my dad. =) haha.. so kind of bullying ms tan and mr ong smsed bei. haha.. bei is so over the moon i think.. shalalala.. breakfast with godpa is great. haha.. he so lame lah, keep talling to forgive and forget.

den during f&n went out to walk walk, cos about to finish liao. den with xm mahs.. haha.. den godpa sitting downstair there.. den shao mei keep give me tht stupid face. haha.. den wen godpa turn back, i hide.. ltr he tot of the 7th months again.. haha.. so funny. den suddenly he ask me: peiching ah, i tot you wanna talk to me." den i was like.. must wait lahs, i got f&n nehs.. den he say ok. so chiong finish my f&n faster pack bag and talk to him.. so went on to see mr lee sc, tht lamer.. keep suaning me =( say my favourite is mr koh.. haha.. bleahs, but mr lee is super nice to me. i love you! haha.. den kind of heart to heart talk to mr koh about the samuel stuff.. i really going bonkers soon.. so godpa kind of agree to let me off.. =D thanks godpa! hahaha.. he's nice lah.. ohh, he told me, there's shld not be overnight grudges between him and me. hmm.. thank god.. i have godpa. haha.. so finally went home and felt more relieved. =D

hmm, went on to lot1 and eat with tri&kai ling.. haha.. funny ppl. so think of doing agar agar for mr koh, since he return me my freedom. went to rach hse follow by nysa hse. have fun with nysa sister. and a really ncie talk with nysa. hmm, so went home at around 9.. haha.. den godpa ask me to write letter to mr ng. but then i think i am rude to godpa bahs, i say i dun wan.. den he kind of unhappy so ignore me. after tht at night, smsed him, he replied once. sigh.. guess it's my fault bahs.. but i already decided to write liao..

today, i sleep til 1pm.. so yw&wj meet me at 3pm around my hse to talk and do hmwk. my 2 brothers. =) so yw tht joker was like keep saying random stuff lahs.. so wrote the letter with yw. and drew snoopy for godpa. haha.. yups, we finally have this chance to find back our smile. =) so, just now was darn fun lahs.. yw was talking nonsense and me and wj was keep bullying him loh.. thank god.. i still having kind of gd mood. haha.. tml there's detention and math as well, but who's care.. mr koh will cancel for us bahs.. dunno.. -_-"

2006-07-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

i have not been updating daily as school is really so super duper bz and tiring for all of us. well, thanks to mr koh for creating the unwaken us to wake up. he remind us tht 39 more days to our prelims. well, i seem cool with it but to be serious, i haven even start flipping my books for anything yet due to my darn laziness and mr koh have been catching on my this little error or so or my stupid lazyness. aha.. he keep asking me to have this passion for chem. and i guess, i do have abit. haha.. mole concept? hmm, wish me luck.

happy birthday to tricia. haha.. hope she really have a nice birthday. i'm kind of tired and bored for all those stuff already. handling all planning of birthdays to jia and ppl. as i am so super duper tired. haha.. but ohwell, i love 4E3 so super much. *hugs* lesson was just er-alright as usual. have 3 period of free-lesson as mr vic lee and ms haryani was not in.. so i used all time to clear my math. and congrats to me, i done it again. left geo paper and stuff. mayb i will do it tml. no choice mahs, 39 more days to prelims. if during prelims i not gonna score for my chem, godpa gonna nag again. -_-"

oh, just realised, every thursday are a darn sway day for me. i got into this conflict with mr ng ytd. and we left his class halfway through. so we was then send to mr chui for being rude. so as usual, godpa was so sick and tired of saying things to me abt my attitude. so he dun give a damn but he did laugh at me. =( for sitting in the foyer. lols. so kena detention. i dun give a damn, just take it to finish up my hmwk loh. haha.. but it suppose to be ytd den change to monday. hahaha.. as if godpa will allow me to go lyk tht. haha.. got math test loh. =) wahahas, so i already decided to skip MT lesson from now on. i dun care. tht freak. if i was to score a b3 in my chinese i will ask mr hang to help me. wahhahas.. i love 4E3.. and ms tan gonna kill me if she know i skipping MT.

woohoo, so shit lehs. today lifeskill was alright lahs.. tot suppose to be mr ho talking, in the end is mr koh as usual lahs.. so damn sian loh, keep showing us this snoopy slides of him. argh, he really love snoopy so much. hahaha.. bleahs.. so he keep suaning me.. and i told him i am mrs teo. wahahahs.. he cant sleep for everyday, heh heh.. but still got energy to scold us. wakakakas.. i also dunno lehs, i feel so stupid already.. so much stuff not done for myself. hmm, tml they are going out. doubt i will go, so super sian 1/2.

ohh, i am getting on good with nic. hmm, kind of motivator for me to work hard as well. haha.. beside godpa loh. haha.. well, good thing godpa isnt angry with me for mr ng stuff. and i dun think he deserve my respect after all. shit you. hmm, went for a chat with mrs chew. wahahahs.. went to mac lah, supposed to drive godpa's car but godpa wanna go watch ballet. haha.. godpa rawks man.. now i know why, when you see his car is out dun assume is him loh, he always rent his car to ppl.. i seen mr seah drove his car b4. haha.. and mrs chew say he's the only one who will lend his precious "wife" to ppl. =) so there's still unfairness in sch lah.. teachers are always right. well, no deny. i cant do a single thing. haha..

so, pass godpa tht snoopy inside the ball and he said he have. and he say my test on monday must score full marks dun even know if i am allow to take the test. wahahas, i am so hao lian, i keep claiming the paper he gave is not challenging at all. hmm, ms tan is so nice to us. haha.. i love her more and more. ohh.. tml there math and f&n. =D wahahhas, and mayb going out after tht if i am not wrong.

cried in class just now. due to ying and min lah. and godpa got a shocked. cos i refuse to tell him wad happen. haha.. scared ms liew too. i feel so idiotic know, i cant help any of them. hais, so due to all those upsetness.. me, min and ying crie together. first time we 3 cry together. arghs, and in 69 more days, we gonna leave each other. i cant bear to leave them to be honest. i love all of them. thanks babe.. hais..

godpa mention the horrible talk we talk on wed. and until now i am still getting suan for my english. ;(
so he say he didnt go through with the 3 of us. lols. i dun care. hahah.. it so darn paiseh lah. anyway, we are the best. =D ohh, chalet is not been booked yet. shit de loh, dun even know whether they wanna go anot. it so close to prelims and if godpa objects, tht the end. somemore it our last year. arghs.

well, i gonna go pack my bag already. math everyday.. haha.. anyway, i love you ppl. thanks godpa. and i dunno wad to do already, i;m at my wits-end. wahahas.. my sister is telling me she's getting enagaement next year jan or smth. crazy dumb. omg, i will be so super happy if she move out. =x haha.. alright, tkc ppl.

2006-07-26T20:11:00.000+08:00

arghs~ today is a wednesday, which simply indicate i gonna talk today. well, the speech went kind of alright. thanks ppl for your endless support. i am loving it. haha.. kind of talk nonsense during the talk. ;) godpa keep smiling at me.. cos he knew i will be making a fool out of myself again. and ppl comment after tht was: " wah, steady lehs, your english!" " why you so nervous?" " it's not tht bad lah, but you speak kind of short." ahahahas.. but anyway, thank god, it's over. and hmm, i kind of talk to godpa already! ;) well, all along, i am the one acting angry all by myself like wad godpa say, throwing my princess tantrum again. hahaha.. but hmm, this speech do made us closer lahs. love ya godpa!

ohh, lesson was kind of er-alright i think. breakdown during english. i am really so super nervous tht i cried in class. =x no choice lahs, i get tense up easily in school. wahahahs. ohh, so didnt talk to godpa for math lesson and well, not to deny, i am really upset both of us are like uhh-not bothering attitude. kind of the reason i breakdown too. and theres math after school with ms tan. mr koh annouced it, i was like so super glad! cos ms tan rawks! =)

wahahas, went on for 2 period of chinese and all of us was like the dun wan to do anything attitude~ so me, nic as well as weijian was been send out of the class to the foyer to complete our hmwk. so rawks. we were all simply having so much fun loh. hahaha.. was to write reflections on an article. so we wrote all purposely stuff and trying to make him go crazy. well, we seriously dislike our chinese teacher so much. after food&funfair. cos, he's angry we put math as first piority and mr koh for not informing him about the foodfair. crazy teachers nowadays.

was panicking during f&n. i kind of keep losing my stuff. =( hope i can really find it back. it just so sucks. so went on for the speech and mr koh allow us to go out 15mins b4 everything. i was like so nervous all the way. keep waslking round and round. haha.. but well, when i was talking, godpa was smiling so happily, not becoz i done him proud but my english is something he love to laugh at. so he smile all the way until our speech is over. i didnt really notice him is my cls ppl notice him. he's so evil! when nic is talking, he was flipping through his stuff and rach, he was like doing his own blah blah stuff. when it's me, he look up and giggle. wth! my english isnt tht lousy rite? is just with lots of singlish mah. bleahs! so, the 4E was kind of giggling at my pro-english. and mdm ho was having this *wide-grin* on her face. omg! we emerge as the best out of the best! haha.. but tht not the prob. teamwork is the most impt. hahaha..

godpa didnt mentioned abt zhafri stuff and he kind of treat me normal during math remedials just now. =) so, have this suaning back again and keep disturbing me saying he wan lime-coke! wahlao, where to find lime-coke in sch? so i brought lime-coke's good friend! the LEMON PEPSI! haha.. they laugh at me again when i brought it back to the AVA! cos i told them: " no lime-coke, i brought his friends, lemon pepsi!" -_-" hahaha.. nic and me was like keep breaking up and patching back. arghs! i dunno.. haha.. and godpa face is super annoyed when we start imitating hoew other ppl talk. hahah.. have great fun in the AVA just now for the first 1/2 session with mr koh. ms tan came in slightly later and yongwei called her " mrs koh" she was so super paiseh tht she blushed! haha.. who ask her to called mr koh my beloved! buai ta han! haha.. so, mr koh was as usual smiling. and ms tan was like keep asking us to shut up! buahahaha.. i dun care! so i kena again, by ms tan.. and godpa ask me to serve her. sian 1/2. it always me, why cant it be other ppl? =(

so, cleared my BPGHS paper. and just nice due tml! ;) didnt found my chemistry and godpa nagged again. "YOU BETTER LIKE CHEMISTRY!" wahahas, wait lah, not my fault also! i wanan do, but cant find the worksheet mah. hehehe.. and i am very super angry with yixiang! he keep insist of changing math tcher. crazy dumb, he just love mr ong so much. siao balang! hahaha.. nic is great. i love him more and more.. yup, sng too.. he's so funny as usual! =D so much of friends stuff, i just love them.

ohh, min and ying is quarreling currently. sian. i feel so bad, this few months i am always tht bz. so i have to like ps-ing either of t hem. i dunno, but ohwell, i gonna go sleeep now. i complate my chinese and math. actually, i rather get out of cls tml. tht dumb head gonna scold me again. hahah.. nicky, you rawks.

thankyou ppl, kailing brought me a kitkat and tricia brought me kinder surprise. heh heh heh.. mrs koh, i get to see you tml. so happy. if koh know we are so happy, he gonna pull all of us back. arghs, there's f&n on sat. hahaha.. but not tht bad, math will end at 9am! ;)) hmm, tml geo will be so darn bored. it's ms kwek, but it gonna rawks if it with E1, cos got hubby there. haha..

ohh, douglas told me to look at him if i am really nervous for the speech. thank god, i love ya. haha.. ohh, all of them are my brothers, so we say i love you easier. hahaha.. godpa changing car soon! yeahs! =) family car is better! hahaha.. but it gonna be lame. he alone wanna drive family car. ohwell, sleeping time. there's lesson for math tml. hahah.. how fast times flies. spectrum event is gonna be over a week soon. hmm, i gonna join the alumni for sure. cos godpa did ask me b4. wahhahahs. have fun in sch and it really rawks. lucky, everything have ended, good luck ppl. and together we strive as one! i love 4E3! =DDD

2006-07-24T19:03:00.000+08:00

hmm, happy birthday racheal. LOVE YA LOTS! =) hope she have a nice celebration in school just now. just so much of sabo touching and stuff. and to be honest, i am kind of high during the first part of the day.

nothing much happen today except we got to know our speech is being postponed to wednesday. i just feel so unwanted, our speech was like keep delaying and delaying. i mean i wasnt looking forward to talk but i just hate the feeling of being treated like this little useless thing tht we been asked to talk cos there's just a space or time slot. this really pissed me off and i really dun feel like doing this blardy speech anymore. since ppl dun appreciate, why do the 3 of us suffer and got so stress up about small things like this? rather, he can speak all he wan, i can do all i wan. this is the first time i felt so unfairly treated and stuff. this just sucks. i isnt interested in this so called speech to the school anymore. cos i dun feel as honour as sng and dai nan. they are invited and the 3 of us just cant help feeling like we been treated like trash. and i tell you all, i dislike the way it is right now. ;(

well, so much of complaints.. hmm, went for the 2 periods of lesson with ms tan. began to like her more and more. it's just so less stressful compared to stay in amath class and been stressed by mr koh. she's so super funny loh. help me talk to samuel and stuff. keep scolding me for calling her mrs koh. wahahahas.. =x i dun mean it rite? but now, the few of us keep address her as mrs koh, and she going bonkers soon. =) but then she is just as nice as any others. she really treat us so good tht she wun complain to mr koh even we really misbehave. so me, samuel and yongwei rotate to bully her. heh heh. snatch her stuff and we kee p calling her mrs koh. lols, tht's really fun.

follow by math den math remedials. i kind of detest today. i didnt look straight or talk to godpa the whole day. no choice, i dunno wad to say to him and he's like kind of pissed off at me too. so better dun provoke him. today, i was really quiet through out the whole math session. i kind of sit to myself at a little corner and ignore wadever ppl tell me. godpa did talk to me, by handling me rach paper for math and tht all. i knew he's unhappy. but me too, i wasnt happy abt it too. den wad am i suppsoe to do, ignore you for life? or keep doing the hiding from you thing. went to toilet when E2 having math, i didnt look inside and i just look at other direction except straight into his eyes. i'm guilty for wadever i have done lah. so we eneded the session by this lecturing and scolding as usual. those ppl who dun attend math and stuff. it's kind of innocene to ppl who keep up their work regularly. but he say it's not enough. if we isnt gonna help ourselves, den no one will. i know, i know. wadever you say is for our own good. but he did hint on this " I DUN WAN ANY NONSENSE" ohh, tht's cool. he repeat like 4 to 5 times. and saying " DUN BOTHER ABT OTHER PPL STUFF, IF YOU CANT EVEN HANDLE YOURS" so wad shall i tell him? thankyou? hahahah.. i cant care less about all this stuff. i just realised, i kind of dun like to talk to him today. weird. hmm, enuff of all these unhappy stuff. he dun give a damn abt me, den why shld i care? ying asked: you seriously dun wanna talk to mr koh liao ahs? den i was like he dun care abt me den why i must i talk to him first? ohh, to him.. i am childish and implusive. i still dun understand why, i really dun wanna do the speech anymore.

hmm, so.. mr lee promised to bring us out on this friday! =) so shiok. for dinner i think. bei lin, doug, dai nan, shao mei and ppl will be coming too. so cool! sigh. isnt really looking forward. there's math on sat as usual. i have enuff. argh! but anyway, i love mr lee! ;) well, so wen will i start talking to godpa? mayb tml or mayb a week more or so. i just wonder, does this matter cross his mind as well. wadever. gonna go clear abit of math and chinese and i gonna sleep! hahaha.. i didnt msg godpa ytd, cos i know he's still angry with me. so.. be it lah. tricia's birthday coming next. =D wahahahs.. keep calling me a gang leader. but do you know your gang leader is unhappy today too. ;(

everything is just my fault..

2006-07-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

well, it been really so many days eversince i have time to blog. well, there's just so much stuff tht happen in school lately. montage, racial harmony, spectrum. the school have been actively involved in all this little events and well, the 4Es are not been spared too. =)

school have just been revolving around of math, teachers and class. there's always endless math lesson. non-stop teachers&students conflict and stuff. well, most imptly, we been bz lending each other costumes and stuff. shall upload some if possible. will try to get pictures from rach about spectrum and racial harmony. due to our class is the whole class tht have been wearing costumes. we been invited by the new paper to do aan interview and photo taking. hahaha.. it's endless fun! of cos, we have the honour to invite our mdm heng and mr jin to take with us. nic&me was overjoyed about all this little events tht have been a great succeed with the individuals hard work and co-operations. i began to love my 4E3 and i believe life is getting better one day by one day. tht's lesser inter-class conflict and well, most opinion is been voiced out by more indiviuals. anyway, me and nic will never be able to taste the fruit of our hardwork if without anyone help. thanks, 4E3. making the sec4 life a really memorable one.

tuesday, i fall really sick. and then, most peers was like showing endless concern to me. thanks ppl! ;) was like having astma during chemistry. and faint outside class during math. sigh! and godpa said i finally been defeat. well, i am not. i just took a rest. no voice and serious cough and nose block. was been send home after half way after tht order by godpa. he's really nice to accompany me after recess. talk to me and stuff. and keep saying i still behave like a child. well, tht's my really superb nice godpa! i'm fortunate to have you! and promise me, you wun throw your tantrum as well. hahahaha.. was made to promise to rest and not to throw tantrum anymore. well, i am feeling so blessed tht day. nic help me switch off the fan. jurrel and ppl keep lending me their jackets. the girls was bz taking care of me. and during recess all came and look for me. and ask if i am alright. it really so blessed to be in 4E3 and the love and concern we are showing one another. like whenever there's something stopping one or other to continue the journey, there wil always be a handful of them being initiative, wanting to help us. thanks ppl. i love you! i am so happy tht i have a godpa who loves me and a class who loves me so much as well. this year will be the most most memorable year i ever have. =D

well, i scolded zhafri on thursday after i heard my class was been insulted of having low mentality&physically. bullshit! so, i scream and yell at him and of cos, it attract so much of a crowd over there trying to be kpos. well, problem is now like kind of over, and ms julie tan knew wad happen exactly. i start to trust her tht i kind of tell her everything. like my frene. she's super nice! godpa told her tht anything can just ask e to do, cos as long as it is his order i will do it. well, see this blah man is bullying me. well, i kind of hide things from godpa, dun really want him to know i get into trouble before i get into real deep shit. but however, he knew wad happen and i really wanna kill myself liao. now there's this little conflict going on and on. i really dislike ppl who start to say bad things abt my class. godpa say he gonna give all of us a scolding for being rude and implusive. have no ideas how to face him tml. ;( he's still angry with me currently. i will really get a good up and down cscolding and punishment by him. hmm, dunno wad's the verdict but can know tht he's super mad abt wad i have done even after i apologize. well, there's nothing much i can do but to hear my verdict on monday. *dui bu qi godpa =(

sigh, this coming tuesday speech is another headace. i am suppose to shared the upper sec feeling but then such conflict happen to us and e1. even e1 ppl dun really blame me or rather they support me for scolding him but godpa was so upset and angry tht i spoilt the express bonding. i dunno how am i suppsoe to shared my feeling about diligence. but nic was endlessly making me going on and persever. i dunno why, i am so ashamed of myself and not saying how to face godpa. if other teachers were to know. how? hais.. i dunno too. perhaps bah..

there's math on 7am after spectrum on friday. we was all dragging our feet to sch. godpa refuse to change timing and keep insist i am crying. crazy. we were all super duper tired on tht day. and i slept on for 20 hrs after tht. only manage to wake up at 8am today. ;) i gonna continue sleeping. no choice. there's vectors test tml. sucks! godpa mood for tml will be super duper bad. hais. no choice, all my fault bahs.. didnt msg him today. cos he's still angry with me. msg anot, he also wun forgive me. sigh!

well, let's see how tml. either i die if not nothing will happen. hahah.. tml's rach birthday. have a full day events but there's math remedials after school. arghs! i am so confused now. sigh! feeling so bad tht i spoilt godpa best mood after the success of spectrum. he was so upset after he know and i was like so stubborn and refuse to apologize. so without much choice, he ignored me again. shalalala..

kind of touched tht samuel promise to passed vectors and write the letter of apology. he pulled my uniform on wed after i ignore him the whole day on mon&tue. so he was like saying asking me to talk to him. i cried after tht. cos i can sense he isnt tht happy after wad i done. and he really going bonkers soon. so after a heart to heart talk. he promise me. i really sayang him as my little bro. and good thing, he listen to me. thank god. told godpa he agreed to write tht letter, and godpa praise me as a good gal of going extra mile. but then, i do wrong things to 4E1, so in the end, got a scolding bahs. hais. but anyway, the feeling of samuel doing his work really brighten up my mood.

godpa: i know i shldnt scold them for these little things they said. but i really love my class so i was in the urge of anger, i went to scold them. i know you love me and joachim and refuse to let the two of us get into any trouble. strict discipline is apply to both of us. and we isnt allow to be rude to anyone. you try your best not to be bias to anyone of us and wanting us to balance all subjects. 4E3 class unity is been put on me, i already try my best. you also want me to bring the 4Es closer. i tried to but there also no reason for them to insult anyone of us. i admit i am in the wrong of being implusive and using vulgarites to them. but then, i was angry at tht point. i know you are angry at me for spoling the friendship and being so barbaric to 4E1 and most implty, i didnt admit wad i have done after this happen. well, i know i am in fault. but i didnt want to get punish and scolding from you. and also, i know you always will scold the whole class then follow by me. but they did tried their best to stop me from going to 4E1 but no valid. and out of anger, i use vulgarities and scolded them. wad done is done, i already damit wad i have done to you. arghs, i really dislike zhafri lahs! wadever lah, tml gonna get hell from ppl. =(

sigh, i wun go and provoke godpa tml. before, i really dig my own grave. he's sick and i still cant behave myself. ohwell, but to the friends in 4E1, i still love you ppl. except zhafri~ i will appreciate it, if you keep your mouth shut. once again, i behave like an ah lian, screaming and shouting and yelling at ppl face. tht last time wad i will do, how come i am so implusive? hais, godpa said we are childish, we gonna get scolding from him soon. but i rather you punish me and scold me alone. this is nothing to do with others. hais, nite ppl. bless me! =D

2006-07-16T16:09:00.000+08:00

oh well, it's scary. i slept at 11pm ytd night and i wake up at 330 pm just now. i am just so super tired. all hmwk is untouched. this is the first time i am dragging my feet to complete my math. due to it's damn vectors. so sian loh. i hate it so much, i dun understand but somehow it is easy at time when i wanna focus. hahaha.. shall go and try. there's chinese and chemistry hmwk. if undone, godpa gonna nag again. I MUST LOVE CHEMISTRY! ;x

wahahas, ytd went to town and bugis with min and ying. it's great! i mean after such a long time den we manage to go out together again. siying said tht she been pressurize eversince jan and til now it's july. finally, got a chance to relax and come out for a shopping trip. me and ying gonna shop for clothing for spectrum which is this coming friday. =) i brought a top and a pair of wawa shoe which i love it so much. because it's so gitterish! hahaha.. ying brought herself a jumper and a pair of wawa shoe too. but her's is sliver and look quite nice. actually wanna buy tht too. but felt abit weird to have the same shoe as her. haha.. but anyway, min was just there to give us advice and accompany us to shop. ying spent around $90+ i think. her jumper already cost her $60. i spent around $ 60+ hahaha.. but anyway, we really do felt so comfortable with one another and relax as we really understand each other tht we dun mention the word 'homework.' so cool! =D

went on to bugis to look for elaine. heh heh.. den we shop until all of us gonna die flat. ohya, andy did join us after tht. and at first felt abit of uneasy but then now is alright. he's so super funny loh. i mean abit of lameness in him! hahahaha.. so went to look for elaine at the wrong spot and we proceed to bugis village after tht. heh heh.. so found her and we went shopping awhile, while waiting for her to finish working. we went for a bit of shopping trip again and brought earing for spectrum too. haha.. =) went on for dinner at lot1. and have kind of chats abt spectrum with andy. he keep saying godpa dun wanna let him play. toot, godpa.. where gt ppl go invite drummer to play for us? *blur* hahaha.. dun care abt him lahs, den andy keep 'your daddy, your daddy' bleahs! -_-" shalalala.. reach home around 10+ i think. have chat with nysa and went to sleep. so tired~

ytd morning have math with ms tan. omg, i was so dragging abt it. cos i am tired and i fall sick after montage. heard something bad happen after montage to mr lee. but he felt alright now. and *godpa came late just now! heh heh.. he overslept. and can heard the guilt in him went he called me! hahaha.. so we was like some idiot tht wait outside. so went he came back. he was like acting infront of us, saying story to made us shut up. but he did apologized for being late. and he sms me when i am having lesson with ms tan. ask her to continue with the rest of us. lols. but lesson was err- alright. have chats with ms tan. she's nice lah.. but abit lame like godpa like tht. wahahahs.. so stay on for awhile to have a chat with ppl and also to clear the stuff tht we need to speak on tuesday i already feeling nervous already. =( but anyway, he say so much tht we are suppose to say and its completely different from wad we palnned to say at first. hahaha.. so keep keep saying he teach me some chinese. wth, i got A1 for chinese one ok! lols! buhahahaha.. and dunno why suddenly he say: " must mention tht if next year tht a large scale of food&funfair, we will come back as classess of 2006, alumni and get a few store and start selling." den i was like " diaos, if we dun come back lehs? like lying to the sch loh." so he keep saying as long as he's in the school i will come back to help for food&funfair. as if. so buai hwoi bai ( BHB). so just stay awake when we 3 are talking, i am nervous lah! ohh, and he say he knew me since sec1. cos all his coucillor as long as they saw me will complained and can do nth to me. LOLS! so he say i have been a pain and he never dreamt tht he will taught me. yah yah yah, it's always the same everyday! buhahahha.. so he say except for abit of my temper, i am nice overall.. =D but den, he say i cant felt tht i dun deserve to talk for my class and i must fel i am the only one and it's the glory to talk to the school. so i am currently pyscoing myself to think tht way. sigh! =(

there's math after school on monday. even we have LC. but godpa dun give a damn. he say we must still continue on it. argh! revision will be nice budden if its vectorss i will really hate it lah! must bring comformation slip& passport again. hais! ohwell, we send letter over to cambodia already! yippee! i worry tht day i talk like no feeling and i am nervous lah.. seriously, i dun usually go on stage budden now suddenly i have to do it. i detest the feeling. and nic is feeling afriad too. sigh! wadever lah!

ohwell, think of vectors made me sleep. so i think i continue sleeping while den do my hmwk lahs. so fan lehs, so much hmwk. ohya, just get to know tht ppl been back-stabbing i am the one who report them to godpa everytime. shit de loh, if i betray you ppl i still will talk to you all ahs? i am not such person ok. arghs! i have enou already. and someone who doubt me is someone who's close to me. but if i tell godpa i am so fan in a sense of resulting me to bad mood. this person will kena again. so for wad? i keep to myself loh. 4E2, if you all dun trust me, so be it.. i have enough of wad you ppl wanna say abt me. hais.. be it bahs. maybe close to mr koh also my fault. teachers are like tht too. so irritating. why do i have to suffer like this. if ppl know godpa buy me nourgats they will say abt me again rite? hais.. no wodner godpa said : to buy you all present i also must give it behind ppl back" why does ppl behave so abnormal nowadays. shit! hais. spectrum, i'm kind of nervous about it. if suddenly godpa say we have to stay back for math, i will kill myself on friday. how can it be? we rushing over to spectrum know. hahaha.. so let's waita nd see wad he gonna say abt it.. ;)

2006-07-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

i'm just back from montage. it an alright session.. there's isnt any big surprise abt tht events. but anyway, it's great effort put in by everyone especially the teachers of GR. they sweat so much for this event and this is just a word cool! =) thanks GR teachers. you ppl rawks. i LOVE you all! ;)

the event start off great at 630 sharp and there just a few ppl there but slowly the crowd came in. i realised a sense of different arts between school. for example dance. every school has different presentation for the dance idea. and GR and farjar one is kind of impressive i think. anyway, ms chua singing is memorable and everything is well planned. even for the little hipcups there still music going around. not tht "empty." *clap* for GR teachers! hahaha..

morning start off with the SIAN lesson. such as physics, english and chemistry.. omg, so super darn bored. was dreaming during physics and i got scolded outside the class by mrs choy for not been attentive. godpa waas outside study room and he look up at me. *sigh* will be suan for not being LOVING to physics. godpa is really kind of worry for my science i think. ='( i will always get scolded. hais.. ohwell wadever.

have been having this extra gulit in me tht after emath tests. i kind of help samuel but not tht directly. to others it seem nothing. but to me, it feel so yucky after tht. and i did not have the guts to admit to godpa.. so i have my retribution. i been feeling bad eversince it's over. dun even dare to look into godpa's eye after everything or rather when i am talking to him. been avoiding him since morning. hehe.. i just so no guts lah. wad to do. ;(

so everything went on smoothly and have wanting to tell mr koh whenever i see him " can i have a talk with you after school?" budden there's just sumthing pulling me back loh. i cant do it lah. it just so embrassing. so i didnt admit until lifeskill over. hahaha.. lifeskill was great! mr koh annouced our class as the top 3 and emerge as the champion after all. all the classes clapped for us. and have a short video clips on art fiesta. not tht great. =x ( surprisingly, it's done by godpa!) den have the usual talking and nagging and saying by godpa. some jokes and fun. so we end the lesson late by 10 mins i think and we been annouced of supposingly to go for math. and amath was schedule at 6am at first den switch to 7am after tht.

after tht, i big mouthing. i keep nagging i wanna go watch movie but my frene hab to stay by godpa. so i keep complaining to godpa in the end, i have to stay back for math as well and without grumbling. =( this is unfair! godpa doesnt allow me to watch movie. hmwk come first! arghs~ so went on for a break den follow by math. hahahaha..

in study room was so lame. but den fun as well. i took godpa watch without him realising it. and got scolded after tht. snatch feroze's roller chair and i was been named as "unreasonable" so poorthhing. and i thought of teaching them math. but i teach them wrongly and i kena suan after tht. =( godpa was laughing soLOUDLY! argh! so damn paiseh. saiful was like: " you say is (x-1)(x+1) den why become (x-1)(x-1)? you dunno how to teach lahs!" hahaha.. so got the phobia and reject to teach everyone. wahahahhas..

got so stressed up abt integrity and talk to godpa about it. i was like..
me: hmm, i got sumthing to tell you.
mr koh: say lah.
me:hmm.. i dunno how. forget it lah. let me think. ltr den talk to you.
mr koh: *jump to the school fees stuff.*
me: orh, i wun accept your money one loh.
mr koh: i know lah. i already guess it liao.
me: hmm, i cheat during ytd test.
mr koh: ok.
me: *the whole incident tht happen.*
mr koh: ok, enough is enough. you are a good girl. you say loyaty to friends.
me: but den.. i am sorry.
mr koh: never mind abt it. at least you own up. good girl good girl. no worries.

so i shldnt even be stressed up abt this. hahah.. i even thought of backing out from the diligence talk. cos i do not have any integrity in such basic stuff. hais. i am really useless lah. never mind. min and ying talk to me abt it. and after mr koh ans, i am going on for the speech. hahaha.. anyway, i been ask to talk for empathy also. shit de loh. =x

GODPA BROUGHT ME NOUGATS! =DDDD i am like so super happy about it. and i even keep the bag. hahaha.. godpa stil rmb i keep bothering abt nourguts. even now den have, at least he rmb wad i love. ;) i love you godpa! you rawks! *muacks* hahaha.. so shiok man. was so superb touched when he gave it to me. didnt know he will buy it lah. i was like keep telling rach, dun talk to him. den godpa show me the nougurts and say: you sure dun wan talk to me?" i was like " omg, you are the best man!" and he keep repeating: " must share huh? must share huh? you dun share next time no more for you." ahahahas.. so touched, godpa brought me nougats! haahahs.. thankyou godpa. thanks for remebering wad i love to eat! haha.. and of cos, wad you owe me. =x

well, went hm.. tml there's math at 7am. gonna turn in soon. love ya ppl. and 4E3, WE ARE THE BEST OF THE BEST! =D

2006-07-13T19:16:00.000+08:00

ohwell, recieve this really good news from godpa this morning during emath. ;) *shall keep it sercret* you ppl will know on the day of spectrum or i think next tuesday? i think so. must depend on godpa bahs. =D this is the really best news for 4E3. wahahahs.. BEST OF THE BEST! 4E3!!

next tuesday, me, nic and rach will have a speech for the school. either on diligent or leadership. not really clear on wad are we suppose to talk about. so this is the thing thet mr koh say during lesson.
mr koh: i would like to have 3 respresentative from your class for morning assembly to talk to the school.
*everyone was turning their head and looking at me* -_-"
me: dun look hor. i wun go. die die also dun wan.
mr koh: *evil-grin* you dun say too early.
nic: HAHAHAHAH! you shall go!
mr koh: nicholas, you will be one of them. since you are the chairperson.
nic: what the....
me: HAHAHAHA! serve you right. BOOHOO!
nic: ask racheal lah, why me?
mr koh: so you, racheal and one more who?
rach: peiching lah!
me: dun wan lah. dun sabo lehs.
mr koh: i have 2 ppl on my mind now. you ppl choose on your own. no biasness!
me: HAHAHAH! marvin & zhan yuan!
mr koh: tht sound like an insult to them. apologize now!
me: sorry loh.
mr koh: the 2 people are, emmanuel and peiching.
me: wah lao ehs.. can is can lah.. but hor..
nic: just shut up and go with us lah!
me: okok lah..

so, due to half willingness and half sabo-touching, i got to speak infront of the school. damn it, so paiseh! i cant imagine ppl will be laughing at me again! =( and mr koh say tht the food and funfair video can see me. and also, i was like so ah soh.. keep asking ppl to come. see see see, i do for the class and i was named as the auntie. just becos, i have auntie spirit wen shopping in sheng siong? hais.. poor me. so me and nic was like so nervous tht we keep asking sng for help. omg, i dunno i got such days as well. *_* shit lehs, i really will go crazy on tht day. so we finally gave mr koh the 11 claps! he was smiling. he really was! finally, emath he was smiling. ;) heh heh heh.. and funny thing is tht until we finish our clap we realised saiful isnt with us and it was like the 5th period. lols. =x but well, i miss him!

tml they will be showing out videos on food and funfair. and of cos, godpa keep saying stay tune to see my face. cos i was really untie tht day. =( but well, mdm ho knew abt this very super good news abt the class and she say thanks to me& nic who are full of leadership. hahahha.. so happy nehs. effort paid of i think. and this horrible thing happen in class during emath today. mr koh was lecturing us abt stuff.. and suddenly

he say : I HAVE BEEN TELLING YOU PPL, MATH IS NOT THE ONLY SUBJECT. I WAN YOU ALL TO FOCUS ON ALL SUBJECTS AND I HAVE BEEN SAYING THIS FOR SO MANY TIMES! and I WAN TO SAY THIS INFRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS TO PEICHING THT YOU BETTER LIKE CHEMISTRY AND PASS IT?WADS SO DIFFICULT ABT IT?

and eventually i got a scolding from him! humphs! well, i will try i think. b4 he really go crazy and scold me. i must rest already. super tired. ohh.. i attend geo and math retest just now. heh heh.. and also mr su was super funny! he relief us for PE and he allowed us to play. shcool didnt get us a PE relief teacher. so when i return the keys to mr seah and i told him: you must thank mr su hor, he relief us and allowed us to play. so godpa was like: huh? hahah.. mr su relief you ppl ahs? den i dun care abt him and he go tell mr su i ask mr seah to thank him. so pai seh. this godpa was like making me super pai seh infront of mr su. but well, mr su is super funny loh. mrs lim wanna release us early if we can tell her joke. see how random our teachers are? so desperate for jokes. LOLS! =x

ohh, samuel told me he will get 30/35. I LOVE YOU SAM! hahaha.. finally. he is a good boy. * muacks* so we kind of cheat abit in test. i dun hab integrity to tell godpa. hahah.. see how mahs.. godpa called the 4 witches angel and he call me a devil last time and now a witch. buhahaha.. i called him a wizard. crazy. called me darling cos i sitting with samuel? crazy godpa. LOLS! anyway, it have been fun this few days. but so sian lahs..

hmm, gtg already. i wanan sleep and do hmwk. but i think i finish most of it left chinese. hahaha.. can hand in on monday. anyway, godpa hasnt told me abt his decision. oh, i miss ms tan! congrats for her graduation then. <3>

2006-07-12T19:57:00.000+08:00

sigh. i am just so freakking tired today. everyday end so late and just so much stuff have been adding up to the load. i gonna go bonkers soon. clap programme and stuff but i gonna do it for the class. it the only last chance to work with one another. ;)) as the leader, i finally agreed to take up this challenge. to lead the class once again for clap programme.

math today was just sucks. i dunno why i didnt follow up with wad i am suppose to do for vectors but just slack so much i think. and well, i sucks. godpa told the class : " i am just so dissapointed in you all." i was like so stunned lahs, i cant even answer simple question like how to find vectors p+q. when i can use therom to slove it. and in the end godpa was so super angry with us tht i dun dare to look directly into his eyes. so been suan about the little cafe we have behind the classroom and say we are suppose to remove it. and in the end, i got nic into trouble again. -_-" hais. nowadays, there just so no more fun in class. it so super bored for emath! i hate it! i mean wasnt looking tht so much forward to it lahs. perhaps it's vectors fault!

threw the bread in class away, and godpa was learning my sentence of the "cambodia, cambodia." den i told him it's expire he insist we shld finish it. crazy godpa. he's always nice to me after lesson but during lesson was so super strict to me!~ unfair. he hasnt made any comments abt wad i am suppsoe to do. due to his busyness in mortage and spectrum. band? hais.. WHY IS MY GGOODDPPAA SO BUSY?? sian 1/2.

got this follow up section on super teens ( organised by godpa lah. who else) so darn bored! i didnt even wan to attend it. =x but well, we went on for it. last until 430 and continue with math. there's math tml at 5pm. siao! it surely last until 6 i think. mayb godpa wil talk to me abt wadi am suppose to do tml. he always do tht. =) went for dinner with them. finally, one more day passed! i finish clearing up my math abt tml test. heh heh heh...

to: YOU
i have enough abt your "back-stabbing" of me and let me fore warn you, when i go crazy, i can really go until the limit. stop bullshitting abt wadever you wanna tell me. anything, pls say it right on to my face. and if no one trusted me abt tht, so be it. i didnt wanna know anything abt you. and wadever mr koh and i were going on, there's just so no god damn shit to report to you. i do wadever i like. i control my own mood. dun ever tried to tell me shitty stuff tht i am flaring my top. you dunno and you dun wan to know anything. one last time, if i heard anything more. you will be dead. dun try to act so close with me. no wonder, i shld have precaution against ppl like you. well, you dun deserve any of my time. so be it! blardy hell.

i have integrity today. ((: linjia mum gave me extra change. and i return her. hahahaha.. pp lmight be thinking i am stupid. but her mum&dad is so super nice to me. and help in class food and funfair. of cos, i cant take ppl money lahs.. anyway, i vomitted again today. guess i am really so tired bahs. hahahah..

godpa scream at me just now.. x( he scream : TAN PEI CHING!!! as if worry ppl will not know my name. hahaha.. in the hall summore. this crazy bum. cant stand him. and mr ong have been recommending me ot transfer to north star sec. how nice of him? ;) (bullshit, it a school dunno for wad one!) and went to find ms tan. hahaha.. she's nice. she taught me all question before she went to buy her dress. and she very in loh. she know how to speak teenagers language. like godpa like tht. =DD

hmm, everything went on smoothly but only they thought i throw my temper again. so well be it. i dun give a damn. hahah.. =) tkc ppl. i love 4E3. assembly on coucillor. lame but nice! i meant finally they are stepping down. tml harold will sit behind me. =)

hmm, stupid godpa, sms him forever no reply. guess he lost his way in school! hahahaha..

2006-07-11T20:15:00.000+08:00

hmm, today is a talk by dai nan. even though it sound abit draggy but his talk is always funny. and 4Es love it i think. ;) lesson start off with ms julie tan. slove a few questions on vectors and not to deny the fact tht i wasnt as enthu as last time abt emath. lols~ but well, i still love it no worries. ms julie tan was praising how nice ms liew was. and nno doubt she is. and she say ytd when ms liew saw we are having mini celebration, she didnt say anything abt it. heh heh heh.. and just got to know my lame godpa was bullying ms tan again. asking her for cake tht we offer to her. we didnt offer to him cos we knew he dislike creamy stuff. and of cos, it was me, who have the idea of not giving it to him. since he dun eat. lols! *-*

hmm, godpa was kind of angry tht ppl been bugging him to buy present and stuff. and he say he got over thousand students. is it me again? hais. so embrassing. i wun ask him buy kinder surprise le mahs.. and also he say by giving us present is against his integrity. so alright, doubt i will ask him to buy anymore. but he's the one tht want to buy for me ytd. weird. well, not much comments about it.. since he's so bad mood during lesson. and gave yongwei a super scolding. i dunno why too. say yongwei alot of stuff. godpa is stress huh? last time also wun like tht. become more and more strict to others. hais.

was kind of hyper in school today and finally pass him the letter. well, hope it isnt wrong to pass it to you bahs. ;) i was hyper for almost all lesson and dying on the later part of the day. super long and tiring day for all of us. =( i haven touch my math hmwk at all. hahahaha.. now ppl who know abt whether or not i am really happy only, mr koh.. siying.. xuan min.. racheal.. tricia.. lin jia and no one else.=) the rest not they are not close to me but i dun wan you ppl to worry.

was super crazy with nic just now. dunno why, but got so hyper we both just kept laughing abt ah fat stuff. haha.. godpa was mad! he saw me 3 times. 3 times he was giggling to me! i dunno why suddenly he got so hyper too. humphs! shalalala.. they always laugh at me for no reason.

well, today been release at 430! so early. gosh. there will be a retest on thursady for both vectors and paper1. siao liao, ms tan isnt free on thurs. i got no one to clear my math. arghs!

i knoew godpa look at the letter. no obvious reaction for the time being. just hang on a whlie. hmm.. so emathing first. i am really darn tired! i LOVE you ppl! (",)

*thanks godpa. i know you wil lalways be there for me. hmm, but well.. it time i shld grow up. but you just matter to me too. it my hounour to have you as my godpa. thanks. and dun always flare up lah.. i am a good gal. i am tired and stuff. thanks for being my listening ear. the same goes to the few of them. i love you ppl.

2006-07-10T19:47:00.000+08:00

hmm, i am really so tired after such a long day in school. but no complaints, we start to get used to it. ;) anyway, first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER, YONGWEI ;)) this is the first time someone celebrate his birthday in school i think? we brought him a cake and stuff. lots of presents, may he really enjoy it. love you bro. =)

*SPECIAL THANKS TO 4E1~ for lending me the computers and helping yongwei to celebrate his birthday. actually, all of us just love each other. i think of helping sng and dai nan to celebrate too. well, to me.. birthday is just everything tht is so impt. can see tht yongwei is touched tht we brought him stuff. i love you babe. really appreciate the friendship between 4E1&4E3s.. whenever, i need something, they will always lend it to me. my popularity among friends. =x anyway, thanks ppl. any problems just feel free to let me know.

lesson was darn bored for first 4 periods. due to it's as usual mdm ho. but well, we slept for quite sometime. the later part was alright except on the focusing during emath. it just darn sucks. i keep losing my focus and i get so tired today. but its alright. i love you ppl. was trying to be hyper for all the lesson and as usual they keep entertain me. and seriously, life without 4E3 will be just sian&sucks.

sng got a speech for the whole school today. well, it awakening but to practise it just not tht easy. i admired his courage of speaking on stage and stuff. and he do it so well. ;) love ya sng! haha.. well, can see godpa was smiling the whole day and was greatly proud of sng anway. hahaha.. everything was just great. the atmosphere and mood was just right for yongwei birthday. sng say he's jealous of the class. due to we rmb one another birthday and we just do so much stuff for one another. well, we love each other. i welcome sng to my class but it's not tht great actually. haha.. but anyway, i start to think tht sng is nice and caring. a great friend indeed! =D

nothing much happen, except mrs lim was crazily scolding the few of us and making us do target setting. this is crazy. she is obessed in target setting but nothing well. but wen she asked ying to stand up, all of us just followed. unite as one. i love you ppl.. wahahs.. i am so tired now. anyway, show wei his video and stuff. may he enjoy himself. wahahhs...

went on for ms tan lesson. i was slacking. due to i finish my hmwk already. was coaching samuel abt math and well i failed my math test 16/35. so sorry to godpa. despite the fact, he dote on me and wadever i wan, he will always get for me. sigh. retest will be at least 30, if not i wun eat or talk the whole day. heh heh heh.. well, samuel was listening to me today. at least when i ask him to do his hmwk, he do bother. =) and godpa was like saying, surprisingly, he lsiten to me. humphs. wad does tht got to meant. my samuel is a good boy ok. haha.. A1 in math. thanks sam. you made me realised wad is possible. haha..

so, GODPA PROMISE TO BUY ME KINDER SUPRISE!!!! omg, i love godpa man. cos he say i deserve the reward since samuel listen to me. wahahahas.. finally got a new box and i will get my toys!! hahahaha.. i love godpa! wahahahhas.. so math ended with vectors test. sucks. i cant do it lah. i am a dumb ass. i cant handle vectors. it's driving me nuts.

well, got closer with ms julie tan. she's nice to all of us. and told godpa ms tan say dun treat her so nice. she's scare. hahaha.. but well, godpa say it's our nature to be kind.. =P and he keep saying he will die tml. as if he will and say wad ask me to sms him whether or not yongwei cried. so made no sense, he's dying and he as kme sms him? lame shit godpa! hahaha..

so went home after godpa asked me to write him a letter on wad exactly happen. why i wanna go back for work and stuff. i dunno. but there's no much choice i can do. except to write him letter and explain. and he expect me to fold in to heart for him. ohhhh.. i gave sam sweets as reward. a whole box of it. ;) and he claim tht he dun bear to threw the wrapper away. as if this dumb dumb. made me no words to say abt it. rach decided to drop poa. oh wells, it good too. anyway, gonna go off liao. so much load of hmwk not completed yet.

it's 2 year already. i love you.

godpa buying me kinder suprise.. mahahahha.. so cool. GODPA BUYING ME KINDER SURPRISE! ;)))))

there's just this trust in me tht made me believe you more. thanks for being my guardian angels. (",)

2006-07-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

how am i feeling right now? confuse. irritated. dilemma.angry. why? why after such a long long time i still unable to put everything down. wad does godpa independence got to mean? keep everything to myself or sloved everything on my own. how can i be independence? how can i stop relying myself on godpa? how can i control my temper. how can i treasure my time with all my frene? how how how? how can i stop ppl from talking behind my back? how can i beg ppl to stop back stabbing me? how can i allow myself to balance everything? how can i just ask them to SHUT UP? i am angry at myself for being useless. i am full of jealousy right now. why is everyone out there a pair? i am confuse of the defination of " independence". i am irritated by how ppl treat one another. i am in a dilemma of wad to do. i am so fukking super feel like stopping everything at this very moments and just ask everyone to keep your mouth SHUT! i need a moment of peace. i need a long rest. i need to understand how people and people relationship work. i need to know i really want to know.by keeping stuff from your frene is it a act of independence? by not sharing everything is it wad godpa meant as independence? by not bothering someone you thought will always be there does it mean independence? i really dunno. wad is independence? wad does godpa want me to behave like to be really independence?

just remember some thing tht me and godpa done in the past. last time i always address him as mr koh. and never will i dreamt he's my godpa. everything just changes as time goes by. i rmb sec1, i was so deeply in love and keep creating trouble for coucillor. and i have this chance to stand outside the office. and of cos mr koh tht time do see me alot of time. and til then, i dunno he already know my name and stuff. and my love for someone is so great tht the whole school eventually knew about it. but well, it already over isnt it? history.
when i am in sec2. i am still the leader of the class and everything will depend on me. tht time, i always got suspended. and mr koh and mr chui is one of those tht i really dislike. i alway curse mr koh tht he better dun come and disturb me and stuff and all those rubbish lah. and i rmb one day after home econs, i was using phone in class and its self study time. mr koh was like screaming at me so super loud tht i wasnt allow to use the phone. so he confiscated my phone and hand it over to mr ivan wong. and this super nice mr koh made me wait til 4pm + before i am allow to get back my phone. but i am always lucky, whenever my phone got confiscated, there's always ways i can get it back. ;) so this incident is so clearly rmb by both of us and until now we still rmb abt it. hahaha.. sec3, he taught my 2 babes amath. and i also became more well behaved and i always great him as and well i see him. and tht the time he start addressing me good girl. went to cambodia and knew him better. came back i was like learning math from him and soon, he became my godpa. tht's like from really enemy to now, father & daughter. i never regret knowing him but sometime, he do get onto my nerves like how i drive him nuts. ;) after knowing him, things start to get better. whenever i got probs, he will be the first i think of. so soon.. i rely heavily on godpa to resolved all small and big matters in school, outside, realtionship or even when i got punished he wil lstill be there to save me. so this result in my overly depending on him. but well, now i am learning the hard way out.

math from 7-12. godpa was as usual lame. ask me to act and stuff. but today is under ms julie tan. brought her dou hua. and ms tan help me alot in my math again. if ppl know as usual, because she is mr koh helping hand so as usual i will gave her face and wun made trouble. so done both papers in 3 days. congrats. and godpa got MOE EXCEL and was not free to help.

went to shaomei place. it's really great. and knew about her family background. quite saddening. no wonder wad godpa told me is the truth. (",) hmm, and went to party world and have pepper lunch den follow by going to esplanane to chit chat and stuff. went home and around 9+ and reach home ard 10+. was like hiding everything within myself. dun feel like sharing anymore. i am really tired of everything. anyway, to celebrate yongwei bdae. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE! *monday you will die flat.*

anyway, ms julie tan was great, she was able to suan yongwei til yongwei kept his mouth shut. ;) i forgot to off the aircon ytd. from 130pm to this afternoon 12pm. heh heh heh.. got a lecture from godpa. wahahahs. i wanna sleep liao. godpa was made to promise to buy kinder surprise. cos ms juli tan praise me and he say i am a gd gd gd gd gd gd gd gd gd gd BOY? idiotic. anyway, may some more stuff allow me to feel happier. i am really feeling quite down nowadays. ;x

clap programme. SHIT LAH! i dunno wad to do already. overly participating. ohwells, no comments. nothing i done are ever right. thanks gab for realising i am overly stressed. but to put everything down last min isnt my working style. hais, may this be the LAST event tht i have to help. i am really superb tired babes. love ppl around me. will i be a bother to godpa. mayb i know i am~ ;)

2006-07-07T20:47:00.000+08:00

well, today i skipped school again. was like damn freaking hot during midnight and realised i was down with fever and a sort of flu and stuff. but i was like keep drinking water the whole night. so wake up in the morning realised tht i was really not feeling tht well, and since there isnt much lesson, i skipped it. =) but i msg godpa telling him i'm sick so i will not be attending school and he say ok. -_-" cool man. finally godpa allowed me to skip lesson. wahahs. =x

oh.. so went on to sleep til 12 pm and start smsing the others if they will be staying back in school to do math from 130-5. budden none of them pick up the phone and finally, realising they got CME in issac room with godpa. wahhahas. heard it was a lame but meaningful one? not really feeling tht horrible i skipped godpa talk. becos, i have been hearing it. haha.. but anyway, i went back to school to finish up my math p1. left afew more on math p2. tml i will finish it and go through vectors. =) and then go celebrate yongwei birthday. wahahahs.. so cool man.

but godpa did say we shld cut down on days we are going out and really focus on our work. wahahas. but one day shldnt be a big problem i think. see how first bahs. breakfast tml for both of them. i dunno how already. but i am kind of tired. hais. keep feeling tht freaking hot and oily after everything. and the weather now sucks. shld buy a mini fan like shaun did. it will be so cool. i already got my own cushion and stuff. next is bloster. haha.. joking.

simply dislike someone to tell me "at least i didnt ask you to stop studying for your weaker subjects." yah, i know i am lousy in science and stuff. i know you ppl have been talking behind my back about my biasness towards mr koh. since you ppl are so unhappy why not say it on my face. instead of those stupid lousy doings. keep claiming tht i can put things down for you all to handle. but did you ppl actually do it well? i know alot of people have been backstabbing behind my back. but i dun give a damn cos i dun consider those ppl as friends. if i do consider you as one of my friends then stop all those stupid things. there's so much stuff changes after everything. if he can change you den let it be. why must you pressurize me with wad he's doing to you? just becos you start to work hard on sci and just becos you did pretty well in sci you are asking me to give up my math? to you ppl, i might be gd compare to some other but i'm still unable to achieved my A1 tht i promise mr koh. why cant you ppl understand me? i felt so superby insult by you. cos, you seriously is like one of us who cant juggle everything well as well. den why the hell are you saying about me now. you ppl better stop it. and believe it anot, i already told mer koh he has took up alot of our time but he dun care. i am not like wad the fukking shit you ppl say as " mr koh fight for lesson can, other teacher fight for lesson den cannot." this stupid fukking sentence didnt ever come out from my mouth. if mr koh wanna fight for our lesson and you ppl are so truely unhappy and at least have the guts to tell him can? i dun serve 4E3. i only merely comment tht nowadays teachers have been fighting for lesson. and it also my fault? to hell with it. there's a limit to everything. you dunno wad happen and you will never want to know. i'm so close to mr koh cos he's my godpa and we do share the same thing and problems. and stop putting thos thing like " peiching love mr koh" " peiching is bias cos she like mr koh" all those bullshit on me. i have enough about everything. if i dun have to look after your class, you think i gave a damn. i didnt wanan so formally quarrel with you. cos you do did something nice to me. pls lah, if i am the one saying it how will you feel? your own good friends telling you all these fukking shit and unfairness abt you treating another tcher gd but you are only gd to this teacher becos he did do something to you tht bring you some sense. you will never understand, cos you dunno abt it. ok? so you ppl better stop it. before i flare my top and regard you as one of my enemy. fukking shit. just SHUT YOUR MOUTH UP for god sake.

well, there's no neccessary to reveal who's this person. but anyway, if you think it's you den better keep your mouth shut. sigh.. just so much stuff happening. well, got to go. finish up my math and i know ppl will start saying i am bias again. to hell with it i say the last time.

2006-07-06T17:27:00.000+08:00

For eveyone's info. 4E3 earn the total of $406.25 but only lose to one class abit only. tht wad mr koh say lahs! bleahs! but well, it is not impt anymore, cos they learn some leadership i guess? ;)

well, today have been a really normal day. except we are trying to survived through 4 math periods at a go. actually not to deny, i am really superb tired after all the events and stuff. but well i still turn up for school today. i am a good gal wad. heh heh.. the plastic art still unable to passed to godpa, he's as busy as i was. haha.. but godpa you lied lah, say will talk to ms tan budden also never. ms tan came and talk to me. ;x

hmm, school hab been great somehow. i was like hugging mr lee heartie cushion walking around in the school area. so i brought it with me to study room. and sleep on it during MT. haha.. but well, when it's mr koh lesson, i have to hide it, before he's claim it belong to him again. strange, mr lee didnt realised me took it or it's lost. lols. wadever, godpa demand me to give it back. but well, godpa.. i defy your order, i wanna sleep on it during lesson unless you buy me a new one. hahaha..

good news, mdm heng will be back soon so we dun have to listen to mr jin naggy nagging at us! but well, i guess it'll still be the same. but at least, i think godpa's mood will be better? lols! spectrum is the great event coming out next. so, pls support ppl. i will be asking my whole class to go.have a mini celebration just now with my class for earning this amount of money. well, it's not tht bad and we are the second i think. -_-" math lesson on vectors is as usual horrible. but godpa ask me to sms him abt cherry bk stuff. have to look at it ltr bahs. so much hmwk. i gonna suffocate soon. =(

i hate vectors. i really dun like it. this monday test will kill me flat soon. hais. i also dunno lah, mayb bahs.. well, have orange juice, milk and stuff in class all for myself today. and it cool. super duper nice. i miss the banana milkshake. nic, made somemore. i wan pls!

math as usual.. and godpa talk abt funfair stuff. and saying tht our class have done well. and we behave like the only stall in the canteen. cos we simply too hyper already. haha.. and in other words, we are noisy loh. lols. but the total amount is around $4500+ i am not tht sure. see how bahs. but well done 4E3! =) conflict is going round for 4E, it just sucks. i dunno how to handle. will see how.

oh, i really hate someone in school now. tht blardy idiot. think he is very handsome or wad? go to hell bahs. he's from 5NA! and i really dislike him so much. idiot toot. go to hell.

oh, got to talk to elaine. everything seem fine now. ohwells, today early dimissed 430! pathetic us, 430 is consider super early for all of us! haha.. i gonna sleep already. nite.

2006-07-05T21:25:00.000+08:00

ART FIESTA 2006

well, it's our last year to run this event and this year we have a great and heavy one which included the cluster events. and definetly the food and funfair isnt an easy one. everything we have to work out everything. beside our packed schedule. time have to spent in all this stuff. cos we are enjoying ourselves while doing it. this is our final year and indicate the handling over everything to the juniors. and next year, it's their turn to run this event and show. not to deny, i cant bear with it. i have been like so actively participating in the organising committee and how fast time flies, it's my last year. and well, juniors, it gonna be all of your show next year. i know i am not a good leader. and i cant really lead you ppl. but well, i am the leader i have the say. ( mr koh's sentence ;)

tribute to ART FEST COMMITTEE' 06:

thanks for all time and effort to run this show well. i am unreasonable at time. but no doubt, i want the show to run well too. isnt it? everything got hip-cups here and there but overall, i think all of us have done a really good job. it isnt easy to run a show for 2 days. usually, we are ppl who will have the show running, the ppl who others wun appreciate all hard work put in. but wad kept the seniors behind is really the passion for it. and we go for it. despite have to look after our own food stalls. working you ppl is always better than working with last year juniors. may this event left a great impression in you. well, it was to me and thanks for everything tht it counted quite smoothly. =) i dunno why, i was the overall I/C for everything but i already put in my best. thanks for giving me this chance to lead you ppl. and in two years in been me.. i dunno why, i cant run this show well. but thanks for the endless help you ppl put in me. thanks. *mr lee, I LOVE YOU! thankyou for letting me run this show and believe i will never let you down. you made me realised things can be done with our own limit. thankyou. and i appreciate you. i promise! i wil lcome back after i graduate. cos, art and you rawks my life.*

hmm, not to deny, my class is in a great mess today. all planning between us, just sucks. ohya, heard our class earn quite alot and i already prepare champane and stuff for them as the celebration for the class. thanks to linjia's mum&dad. everything is just really cool. well, rice have been a great demand and stuff. and i dun rmb any unhappiness stuff between us. but there's really lack of initiative between us. i mean, i have to look after art fest, and worry about stall at the same time taking my oral. can you ppl prove me right tht, i'm a tai tai in your class. i mean, i have to plan, run and worry. is it seriously, fair to me? all the committee members, you ppl promise me to run the stall well, but why do i have to run up and down to remind you ppl to do this and tht? you guys told me not to worry, and go ahead to do my stuff. i done it with half trust in all of you to be honest, but everything got so much hipcups. but nevertheless, we done a really good job at attracting customers and selling our stuff. but cleaning part was the most horrible thing tht ever happen. well, not to nag too much, before you ppl say i'm naggy. but INITIATIVE? can i really see some between you all? hais, but the 11 claps is cute! ;) we really have lots of fun just now. heh heh.. and nic and I was like screaming i mad to ask ppl come. and mr koh was lyk staring at me. =) but well, i dunno who's the winner yet. but we done not tht bad. well done ppl. i love you! there's always nice side of my class.

erm, vectors(emath w mr koh) was horrible. wadever i done, i will be like kena suan. and no reason, i dunno why. i am the examples of those not studying and revising my vectors. well, i admit. but you dun have to mention to the class rite? and get suan by him in the morning but everything was alright in the afternoon. he joke and smile and actually ask him to buy from my stall $5! haha.. godpa rawks eventually. but he dun have empathy. the bench fall and hit my leg and i was limpping all the way. he can still imitate me. wad the hell. he's so nice man! *PUIIX!~* i dunno wad happen to godpa, he's crazy! and i think he really is. so hope no more suaning pls.

specially done a plastic art for mr lee & mr koh. haha.. to thank them lah, but i am bias. hehe.. tht's not my fault. well, he's nice to me so why not? brought both of them barley which actually is godpa like one lah. haha.. and mr lee was so happy abt it.. =x dun let him know before he keep asking me to drink soya milk.

everyday have been busy and now i will be settling myself down for my studies. =) hope the art passion is with studies. omg, i just realised this few days i only ate 1 meal per day. real tired. haha.. but anyway, everything was great. i love today.

oral was a nice one. the examinors isnt tht cruel. they are really nice ppl to me. =) and they been laughing at me. becos i guess, my answering is direct but not tht formal. whahahas.. have a conflict with mr ng, will just apologize here. i am sorry. =)

thanks to mr ong, for fetching me ytd. shalalalala.. and everything is real heavy. haha.. i am so super tired now. i wanna have a really good rest and may everything end well. thanks ppl, you guys made a different. and congrats IDA, you are really my idol! =)

2006-07-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

today went back at 7am and the stairs is not open yet. went to do some math in the animal farm. no doubt, animal farm is a cool place to do your hmwk. but godpa claim it only for animals but no one else. ;) they build it and say it's an animal farm? funny ppl nowadays.

well, called mr lee sc for 3times, sms him once and he return call at 830. telling me he's sick and he do sound sick lah. tell me he's fainting. hais, he do not have enough rest i guess. the rest of us too. this month will be hetic for 4E3-ers.

july events:

art fiesta 2006
spectrum ( public concert)
food and funfair
GCE' OLEVEL MT oral
Clap Programme
Busker corner
Endless- mathing.

well, everyone in the school will be busy but due to clap programme stuff clashing in. so no choice, i will be again very busy. hmm, ytd chat with godpa, he say it's time i hand things over and gave ppl a chance to do everything. and rumours spreading, i'm abondoning them. am i such person? both are impt to me and i wun sarcifice anything uneccesarily. you understand? hais, i do not know how and why. i am feeling moody almost most of the time. i'm not glad or sumthing. the hyperness is me sometime is really gone. hais.. why the hell. i do not know how too.

i cant face reality, i cant do any stuff anymore. just get everything over and get ready for olevel. i dun bear to hand everything over to the juniors. we are all gonna get a tag or sumthing for being the art fiesta committee.. tht day, we will have something around our neck. 4E3s are having tht too.. so on tht 2nd day, i have 2 tagged. me and rai is super duper sway. her major events is on the 1st day and she got band. and mine major events is on the 2nd day, but i got oral. so no choice i have to take over her duties on 1st day and 2nd day i will do half and complete the half ltr. hmm, hope my oral will end really soon. hais. walkie takie! wahahahs.. i gonna get 1 to myself for both days. and my tag will be put as the chairperson or smth. cool huh? so nice.. wahahs.. hais, but this the last year.. wad to do?

godpa greeted me good morning, and i was like orh, good mornie uncle. got scolded again.. saying i am rude!humphs! -_-" so i have to do banner and stuff.. and went i went over for math, my heart is in the art room. the feelings is great lah! and just how heard mr koh and mr lee sort of arguing.. about the timing lah, but think they are joking bahs.. too much blah stuff happy. and none of it can really brighten up myself. hais.. i dunno why too.. i am super upset lahs!

so finish most of the banner left some of it only. haha.. and the art room is in a great mess. sigh! went over to plaza to buy stuff for food and funfair deco. so fan lahs! they keep ask me dun help but i dunno why, i am worry. i worry they will use markers and stuff loh. hais.. but i wanan use blending. my art is not fantastic but at least presentable i guess. broguht the tags too. hais! but the class one, my ranking will be advisor.. hahaha.. so nice man.

so much things to worry and so much stuff to do. and i cant bring myself to talk to you. i love the song unfaitful by rihanna.. its so super nice. i gonna be the MCs for the first day. srcipt and stuff not done yet. anyway, its my event who cares? haha.. argh.. i am lazy. and thanks godpa for allowing me to fork in the $ and also lending me the "wadever" thing you call it! ;) I LOVE GODPA! thankyou!

everything had ended. since you have used me and now i realised it, i will not forgive you. no worries, i cant bring myself to hate you too.. cos you did treat me nice once. i am blind. i guess so.

2006-06-30T21:16:00.000+08:00

well, today have been as usual busy for me. eversince the morning assembly start, i have been running around the school. sigh, for art fiesta of cos. =) come to think of it, i already join art committee for 3 years. this is my third as well as last year to help out in this annual event. however, we have to step down soon and handling over everything to the juniors who will be stressing about everything next year. i cant rmb last time how i got myself involved and if i am not wrong, the chairperson was beilin or some e1 ppl. den followed by me last year and me again tis year. however, i really cant bear to put everything down. today mr lee told shikin : you ppl will take over next year." but i really dun bear to hand everything over. the feeling is there. which indicates, i gonna leave my class behind soon? will we just part with one another? hais.. so fast, i am leaving grss. ='(

well, got to know tht godpa was a grade 8 in theory, grade 7 in practical and in band since sec1. so he claim he can appreciate music. well, of cos, my godpa wad. hmm, lesson as usual.. but there's coursework partb coming in already. sigh! and teachers have been saying we simply do too much math. =( hmm, today is a friday and we have to stay on til 530 due to our lousy result. only selected ones. sometime, i'm quite ashamed of myself.. a math test i got 10/15.. hais, i also dunno why.. just feel i became more and more stupid lately. and mrs choy say i am overly involved in class event and art fiesta. but tht's not my fault. godpa didnt mention anything about overly involved but i shld know which shld be my first piority. hais.. i do not know how and why, but i cant do anything well everytime. i gave up the authority of organising the food and funfair for my class.. cos, i really have enough. too much last min work and stuff.. and art fiesta already took up too much of my time. i dun even have time to go and eat for lunch and stuff. everyday i only eat a meal if not eat nth at all keep drinking water. stress. as long as this stuff is not over, i am stress! argh.

there's lot of problems i wanna share with godpa, but i know he's too busy with lots of stuff. band, PCCG stuff, new student coucillor, spectrum, food and funfair, the lousy attiude of 4Es.. and also his own personal stuff. so, i do not know if by talking to him will add on to his load or will reduce my load. hais.. i also dunno.. everyday, i have been running around the school and doing so much stuff. i felt bad for clashing my lesson and remedials with art. i worry i lose out and in fact i seem more stupid than b4.. there's just so much worries and little fear in me, i could not conquer yet, but by telling godpa, i knew i will get a comfort but it will just add on to his trouble and stuff. which i do not wan. hais.

there's audition for gr idol today. ida and atikah both got in. congrats. both of them sing really well.. =) i was like doing audition at the same time finishing up my math. see, tht's how pack and how rush things are nowadays. i felt so super duper tired everyday. sorry to all teachers tht i keep skipping you ppl remedials and stuff.. and today whlie doing math, i felt i get myself more stupid and i cant face vectors. i do not like it.

got scolded for godpa for calling him " A, a, a" so he say i shldnt call him tht.. it's rude. well, i am sorry. just seek godpa advice for the food and funfair stuff. whether or not shld i back myself out. i dun wish to gave my calss up either i wanan gave art fiesta up. both are impt to me. but i dunno how. hais.. didnt tell godpa how stress i am nowadays. just yes or no i shld back out. i am worry know. hais.. perhaps bah.. i am worrying for nth. =(

anyway, super tired.. have to reach school tml at 7am.. heh.. used mr lee spray but i forget to tell him.. it's alright i think. hais, monday finally can rest if not school event have finish if not i must go back to school too. well, thanks ppl ard me who have been giving me concern and stuff. i will rest. i keep getting gastric pain nowadays. due to the improper eating habits of my busy schedule. hmm, i will be taking over concert but i do not wan to be the mc of the day. godpa will be laughing at me again. x( maybe godpa wun reply? cos he felt i shld have my own decision made. perhaps bah! arghs! i wanna sleep!

*i am sorry, but i really dunno how to face you nowadays. give me more time. i am really busy.*

well, good nite everyone! i wanan rest lahs! hais, the matter is over one week, but nth seem to be done! wahahas.. yawns!

2006-06-29T20:16:00.000+08:00

first of all, HAPPY BITHDAY TO DEAR MR CHEN! =)

school have been super busy for everyone especially the seniors who are taking part in the art fest and chairperson for food and funfair. everything is just hellish. everything dun seem to be working well.

i start to lose the leadership in myself. the self-confident i always have also gone. just suddenly, everything became a very big challenge and burden. due to it our last year running the events, mr lee sc have high expectations in us. but as the so called chairperson, i have done nth. i always let mr lee pissed off with me, saying stuff like it's the last day already. i feel seriously bad and i dun think i can be the leader of the committee. thos juniors are noth working well with us due to out timetable and their are not the same. therefore there's really little chances to talk to one another. but well, i just wished to apologize to mr lee sc, he really treat us nice but i was like keep getting on his nerves. i have no idea why, but i'm fustrated at myself. hais, maybe bah, i shldnt even take part due to my poor time management.

class event and stuff are not settled yet. food and stuff. when muz we get it and everything also not done yet. wad do you wan me to do. hais, collecting $ for food and funfair cos i know those ppl in my class will drag unless i'm throwing my temper. hais.. after all this stuff, i might wanna take a real good rest. godpa said he doesnt mind tht i am involved cos it's part of the school. hais.. but i feel really bad of keep bugging him if i can skip math the next day. well, godpa, i dun feel nice abt it too. i hate myself for telling you tht : "godpa, can dun go math tml?" or " mr koh, i cant go math ttml lehs." or i have to tell mr lee : " there's math tml til 530" everyday, 24 hrs are not enuff for my own use and also we have to divide equally to math and stuff.. and ms haryani just stressed tht wed is offically for f&n + d&t. and can heard the pissed off voice when we say there's math. saturday is worst. all the tchers are fighting to get the time slot and well, we have to be lyk snatching by the teachers. no doubt, they love us but sumtime, can you ppl keep the fighting to yourself and dun voice it out to us. wad can students do? skip lesson or dun attend all. it isnt our fault tht we are bz, the school events made us bz, the teachers made us bz. hais.. i am sorry godpa.

ytd have a nice chat with godpa, talking about some stuff and my attitude thing. he say if i cantinue behaving lyk tht, i dun call him godpa. hais, my fault again. =( called me a gang leader to ms juli tan and i have to help in ensuring the class good and bad stuff. there's just so much thing tht seem undone. and 4Es are seriously stress abt everything.

school is alright today despite the fact tht there's PE after school, wad a weird decision made by the management team. but my class seem high today about the afternoon PE time slot. haha.. well, have a 2.4km run with rach and ppl who acc me. thankyou! and of cos, i pass~ ;) this few days, i have really bad days, when rushing for math, i fall down and paint topple on the floor and made a mess out of it. art fest planning isnt smooth sailing. and most imptly, my class event seem untouched due to i'm super bz already. hais.

today there's 4 period of math due to we drop away our poa, ms juli tan was lyk talking to us. hais, there's isnt any teaching but she's there to assit us when we do not know how to do any question. and it ended quite fast cos the few of us are doing our stuff. and i finish the whole worksheet again. there's emath tml again. hais! i already knew tht, and i keep messing up my schedule.

today emath, godpa taught vectors. but however, i was like keep dreaming and thinking about some problems tht have been bugging me for days tht no one seriously no one knew anything abt it. cos, i dun feel lyk sharing about so personal stuff. godpa was creating lame jokes to me, which in fact, i didnt smile in his lesson. superman? spider? and saying i'm a pet. usually i will say him back, but today, i am seriously tired and dun feel lyk talking. did smile when i am doing my poster and stuff.. and thanks godpa, he actually tot of scrubbing the floor for me due to the clumsness tht i accidentally pour the paint on the floor. thanks godpa. your action did touched me. well, but he's a bz man and a teacher how can he be scrubbing the floor? so eventually he didnt do anything but say will help me ask mr lee dun scold me. but, during breaktime.. when mr lee was scolding me, he accidentally walk past me and when he heard mr lee, he ran off as fast as possible. arghs! =( and well, i got scolded today for at least 4 times. hais.. and when i am in the general office talking to mr lee, godpa was like keep saying, so did she scrub the floor? and keep laughing at my stupidness.. argh! he's bullying me lah! but after tht he gave me a lollipop which taste like medicine! =x

cant belive it the true, i feeling so stress now. and i wun have a good rest til everything end. hais, i felt lyk i am a fool tht been turning around by you. am i just tht nothing? hais, i do not know anything. but i know me and godpa are getting on better each day. and keep asking him to buy me kinder surprise. why are there jealousy? well, there is math tml, i do not know how, audition is tml too. and i got to be there but it's not my event anyway. but well, it just helping out. hais. olevel oral is coming soon. mine is schedule on next wed. which is my flea market. hais.

i have been thinking about so much things for so many days. true or false. and i have beeen like avoiding you. and i used to walk the way but whenever i saw you i will think of lots of excuses to change direction. you create the fear. hais.. i do not know why i am behaving like this. maybe i am stupid. tht's wad you always think about me isnt it? yup, i am stupid. i admit.

godpa:
thanks godpa, i am glad you tot of helping me scrubbing the floor which you dun even have to. i know you are bz but at least you bother to care tht i will get scolded by mr lee. you dun have to give a damn about me, but you did it eventually. hais. i know if is other ppl who ask to skip lesson, you will reject immediately. but i always took your weakness and kindness for granted and keep bugging and begging you to cancel math, give me time for my art. let me rest. sleep in your class.. but you didnt scold me at all. i am glad i have your understanding, i will pay you back the time tht i spent on my art festival. it's equally impt to me. i dun give a damn about teachers who are speaking behind my back. i know there are still alot of ppl who are trying to be nice to me to win my trust. but i know i didnt do anything wrong by putting art fest and math in my first piority and e3s. maybe ppl think tht i do math and stuff, to gain your attention? have a motive? or rather liking you just to spent more time with you. i dun care wad ppl are saying behing my back cos i know none of them are the reason. i hurt you enough, and i will not. i am sorry. and i put math in my first piority cos you earn my respect. and i know just follow wad you say will never be wrong. hais.. there's lot of problems in me, you will never know wad happen. and i felt really clueless and helpless sometime. i might not be the best leader in greenridge. but when i am given a chance i will not waste it. it's my last year, let me continue to do wad i love. after art fest, i promise all my time will be put on math. sorry. beside sorry i do not know wad else to say to you. hais.

i'm currently feeling loss and do not know wad to do. give me time, i might think through. mayb it's time i face reality alone and not dragging anyone into the matter. i knew i sucks.. is it by trusting ppl too much is also my weakness? perhaps bah.. i am stupid enough to believe you.

I LOVE YOU GODPA! THANKYOU! =)

give me time, i need to think.

2006-06-27T20:01:00.000+08:00

i start to felt scare. for this very moment, i really feeling rite now. i am so afriad. afraid everything tht i hate to be the truth are the real reality. why? why made me put so much trust in you but yet, you are exactly the one. why? i will know the truth one day. isnt you afriad tht i might depise you for life? i am so confuse and afraid of every damn thing tht happening now, i am really scare. the fear arise, you shldnt be the one tht it suppose to be the truth. you must never be. but i am so close to you but yet you are the one? hais, i really taken aback when i knew this very truth. but wad am i suppose to do. it cant be.. it cant be him.. it must be some joke. but how the hell can it be? hais.. i really dunno.. and it really shocked me. i am tired, i need a rest.

well, i became the lucky winners. to stay back from monday to friday, everyday til 6pm. hais.. for math and i really simply hate it so much tht i have to stay back and i am really sucks lah, i got 10/15.. and it shldnt be the point i am taking.. i can get a 13 or 14 just cos of the units godpa decided to minus my marks. grrs! and how the hell, i became the lucky winners?

well, nothing much to update. classroom have been fun. i love it but remedials are driving me nuts. time to do hmwk and think of stuff.. hais.. i am sorry godpa. (you shld know why) ='(

2006-06-25T14:34:00.000+08:00

school gonna reopen tml. sigh.. which indicates more hmwk and stress and prelims are on their way to us now. hais.. a few months more, we gonna graduate from greenridge and lyk wad they say, time to fly. well, no doubt, greenridge left us a wonderful and memorable memories. which i think i will never foregt i am from there and well, i am proud i am from greenridge, and the birth of 4e3. e3, i been in there eversince i am in sec1, fun.. unity.. friendship.. wadever you named it, we done it. lousy hmwk, bullying teachers.. but i knew they love one another in the deep down. but when i think of leaving one another.. cant deny, feeling abit sad now.. hais..

well, stay at home the whole day today. left 2 more question, i completed my cherry book revision 4.. wahahhas.. cool man.. i done 5 set of paper in this june holidays. not bad and i finally know how to understand cosine rule and sin rule. wahahas.. tht really so rawks man.. didnt let myself down. wahahhas.. nothing better to do.. ltr bath den do abit more den relax and wait for tml to come.

hmm, ytd tried to talk to godpa about mr so&so.. but well, whenever he heard i mention his name, it as if volcano will erupt and stuff.. our talk or stuff will always ended up with both of us feeling unhappy or he's seriously angry about it. eversince he warn me tht time. i am not allow to mention mr so&so nfront of him and ytd is the first time. he got so angry and ask me dun bother. how can i talk to godpa and dun let him angry about me? i am seriously blur. if is not him, why cant you clear it? rather than let me keep assuming, it will be him. if it is him, why cant you tell me? and let me have some precaution against him? well, perhaps, due to generation gap, i dunno what you are thinking. hais..

godpa love making himself look like he's so super unreasonable.. jealousy and petty. but i know he will not be like tht if no major things happen. cos i have tht faith in him i guess. hais.. but why made me so confuse and it always unfair to me isnt it? hais.. no more i will find out anything, maybe to him, i am just tht little kid who shldnt know anymore things of him and who just cant kept his sercret i guess.. not to deny, i am really feeling tht little fear in me. i am so worry tht something tht i dun wish to know will become the truth. hais.. forget it, i shldnt ask.. i shld respect godpa decision not to let me know anything.

my promise to godpa, 4e3 will surely finish up their hmwk. but but but.. i dun dare to think of it.. in the sense tht 6 sets of papers, are you sure they will finish it up. completely no worry about it? i doubt so. f&n course work.. i have to hand in soon.. i didnt done anything more yet than it. i am feeling so worry and irritated.. hais.. i wanna finish everything..

gab they all decided not to do anything. but how am i suppose to do.. godpa will surely scold me and gave me another scolding of their work undone. i am feeling so irritated right now.. so much stuff incompleted.. and so much planning undone yet. wad you wan me to do? hais.. the compensate of the suana thing. i am no dubt feeling super duper worry.

well, wad else can i say? stress is really coming and i think i will go bonkers soon. sms with mr ong, he is so funny. cant stand it lah he, say i will miss him. will i? doubt so. mr ong ask me to remind the 4e1 to do their work. now, my problem again.. win le.. hais.. tht really unfair! humphs. teachers are bullying me. tml timetable will resume.. there's amath and formarlly meeting with ms juli tan. i dun even know who is tht. and emath & also those remedials. hais! math test? shit! and most imptly, it start with geo first. sucks! and i dunno where the hell is my geo file. mdm heng have gone for quite a few months. and this few months have passed, and if i am not wrong, she's coming back soon. new term is starting and it gonna be more stressful than ever.. hais.. i didnt wana part with 4e3, they are the best. last day of holiday.. does it even look lyk holidays? hais..

the feeling now is yucky. and mr lee say he will call me back in 10 mins time. and 1/2 hr already passed. sigh!

i start to think if it's time to put everything down.

2006-06-24T17:06:00.000+08:00

alright, first of all, I SAW QISTINA ON 21STJUNE2006. happy? arghs. she complain tht i didnt mention her name.. ohwells, so i mention it after all.

ytd bbq was great. even though less than 40 ppl turn up eventually but i dun give a damn about ppl who dun give a damn about me. but it was seriously fun. no doubt some stuff does happen and i have to sloved it on my own, lyk wad godpa say handle the situtaion. =)

start off with a mahjong game of me, tri, yong wei and dai nan. and dai nan speed was like so ultra slow and i have to wait for him. was like keep recieving calls and stuff and i cant concentrate in my games. so miss alot of tiles and i cant game loh. godpa was like keep tapping my shoulder about all the card i miss. i realised, i cant multi task especially when i am really feeling so sick ytd. i am like keep sneezing, coughing but there still unlimited stuff for me to do. manage to catch a few hrs of slept from 5am to 9am. den prepare all the food and stuff and head down to the chestervale. ;)

so, godpa refuse to help me to do anything. cos he think i only order but not doing.. ohwells, fine fine fine. so keep pestering him to buy ice but he ask me walk on my own to bangkit to buy. humphs! but anyway, after much pathetic acting, he agreed to go unless i tagged along. the reason he wan me to go with him is simply cos he wanna torture me to carry everything. wad a nice uncle he's. grrs! so godpa fetch me, yongwei, tri, shirely out to shop and save to buy. $2.80 per packet and he was complaining, we spent so much money buying water. i kept the change and he say every dollar i kept, he will deduct 5 marks from my test. tht wad a cunning teacher always say. no offend! =x

godpa didnt mange to eat anything cos we seriously start the fire too late. and he was rushing to other place, before he coming back again at 9pm. so in the end, godpa was the one tht start the fire with a few little donkeys help. *claps* he look angry when he is starting the fire alone and ppl around have the guts to sit down. but it's alright, the fire start after all. so godpa left without informing me or joachim. wad the toot toot hell it is! and when i smsed him, he was like saying i will cry if i knew he's leaving.. well, godpa.. i wun and i replied 4 letters word : LAME! haha.. godpa is kind of trendy, he know all the blah meaning of nowadays teenagers are using. hahahaha.. was after he left, we have fun. some of the little donkeys jumped into the pool and start swimming. well, this then led to a resident staying there complained about us. so, it's the first promblem tht occur after godpa told me : YOU WILL HANDLE ANY SITUATION THT OCCUR! so, i tried my very best to no valid. haha.. in the end, dear chairperson help me. nic start asking the girls to change and telling the boys not to do tht. and the second time, the security guard appear and asked the boys questions. i nearly went bonkers after all. so nic came to retrive me again. thanks babe! haha.. so this isnt the serious part of anything. but the worst has yet to come.

so, godpa came back and sit down eating the food we help to prepared. so the game began afterall without him. no doubt i am angry with him lahs, but well, not tht petty. am i? haha.. hmm, whlie he enjoy his food. his group dare were to buy a condoms. so the group suppose to buy one. haha.. so they brought it and gave it to me. passed! hmm. den nysa group was to drink some very yucky drinks tht really look lyk shit with butter, syrup, lime, honey, tomato sauce and chilli. and thety enjoy it i think. hmm, over all its not tht bad i think. haha..

so, the game ended with xuan min and siying fighting for the champion place but i dunno who got it lahs. my orange team lose loh.. hahaahha.. den when godpa was bbqing happily, i recieve one super bad bad news. the suana caught fire! hais! i was lyk diao.. and tht moment i really felt lyk fainting. so for the rest of it, i was lyk keep dreaming and finally discuss with rach wad to do. godpa start kpoing at tht time wad happen. so after tht, me, tri, jia, emily, rach,bei,shirely all sat down and discuss.. den bei was like saying ask all including e1 and e2 to fork in. but of cos, i rejected the help. and they say the equipment are expensive so no idea how much to compensate them. hais, so this super big burden fall on my shoulder again. in the end play "lom jia pass" to decide wanan tell godpa anot and godpa join in lah. so in the end we told him, he was like so clam and stuff.. hais. but well, i not gonna let godpa fork out again. so fan. godpa keep telling em not to worry about the money. well, i wun bahs. but i'm worrying now. hais! they say it gonna be super ex. i will really jump down if it's super ex.

mange to clean up and again, i was like cleaning all again with some of my ppl help. tht stupid dumb godpa say i like to bully ppl and i dun seem to do things on my own. i always do on my own ok? haha.. especially bbq, cos i organise, i must keep it clean. so, clean everything and some photo with godpa. hais, still quite worry about the compensate thingy. hais.. so in the end godpa send me, rach and bei home. he say tht i keep rach as someone tht alway will be there and yongwei to be my slave. grrs. when did i ever do tht? humphs! he say i look lyk rich girl, wun do a single thing. i think is you godpa! you dun do a single thing. haha.. mr koh sucks! so i cleared everything and it about 1130++ if i am not wrong. ahah.. godpa send bei home follow by me and lastly rach. brought godpa the hair dye and hope he know how to dye. wahahhahas. i am enjoying myself nowadays. left r4 p2 i will finish everything tht i set for myself in math. so smsed with godpa til morning 1am. haha.. abit only lahs. so ended the bbq with a smile overall. hhaha.. hope it really do bond for the class.

godpa say it's to sloved the question but not hiding the problem. he say luckily i told him, if not he will be real angry if he find out on his own. haha.. thanks godpa.. like i say, you will be there when major things happen! so you will go settle it! wahahahs.. special thanks to all committee members : rach,rai,ida,nysa,joachim. and biggest shareholder: mr koh tee yong steven! lastly ppl whoo will be there when i need them: min, ying, nic, shao mei and everyone who turn up after all. thanks! school gonna reopen soon but i have no idea wanting to remove my nail polish. i look nice. jacq help me do mahs..

just went over to meiling hse. let her scare me til i nearly die. told me she gonna committe sucide. i cry when i'm rushing cab over. luckily nothing big stuff happen. she only took a large amount of medicine and now i hope she will be ok. hais, this the first time i felt so scare and i really cry infront on my family. they got a shocked too. rushed ther she was crying. clam her down and talk to her about it loh. thank god, if she really die, i will blame myself for life. smsed godpa about it and he replied me. called me to teach me how to handle such stuff. luckily. thanks ppl. jia and tri went down to bangkit too. if shirely die, i really will cry.. just now iwas like so super worry sumthing bad will happen to her. hais.

play the taro cards in rach hse. i played 3 times. all 3 told me i have lots of responsibility to carry. and it's time for me to take a break and relax my mind. but how? haha.. hope it really will be alright. i left with art fiesta and the chalet on sept and also cambodia stuff i think. the first batch tht has gone there. are all going back for the sec4E.. haha..

ppl around me made me realised how impt i am and how impt are they to me. shirely, jia, tri, godpa, ying, min and all the guys tht treat me really super duper nice. i love you ppl and 4e3 always rawks. thank you! and i love ya ppl! =) tht includeed 4e2 & 4e1 and mr ong and mr lee sc. my life is great. i love all of them. muacks! =D

2006-06-22T00:32:00.000+08:00

omg, i am sick! i having sore throat and coughing. how the hell am i suppose to go for bbq on friday? and i guess, i will die really flat over there. arghs! it isnt fair! x(

congrats for ppl who are having stead now. haha. they are all lovely couples. heh heh. i have lots too just cant settle my mind down. hmm, i'm really not feeling tht super well now. i guess til to the late sleeping and stuff. i gonna faint soon. hais. =( i wanan be hyper on tht day! cos it's so called the farewell party. ( tht's wad tht lame mr wall said.) due to he say ms juli tan will be taking over all his lesson. tht sound great! =x hahahaha..

hmm, i have a boring afternoon after all. woke up at 11+ wen i slept at 4 ytd. went to meet shirely, actually planning to do tht hmwk of ours. but they are just too not focus, unlike me! hahahah! so went on to school for the so called meeting with mr lee sc. hais, this dumb dumb was having meeting with mr jin. and mr jin used to talk ALOT. and for heaven sake, damn ALOT! haha.. so i went off after settling some blah stuff and poster. chilled at plaza with linjia, tricia and shirely. haha, so concidental, i saw ida. guess she's following me all this while huh? LOLS! den tricia brought me a super big heart lollipop! thanks babe! i love it! haha.. dun bear to eat of cos. i will bring it to the bbq, while they are bz sloving the questions, i shall enjoy my lollipops. haha.. so cool! =) so, went on to meet mr wall and my committee members at shengsiong! sigh, it isnt great at all, cos i realised, mr wall dun even know how to see the different between potato and sweet potato. you see! then he was like kiddo, playing around with us. went around the whole place and spent around $90+ if i am not wrong. mr wall use his mastercard and claiming, he's poor. tht's a big big lie! haha.

so mr wall bring us around in his super "nice" car aand dunno wad happen, first to bt batok den to some blah place called adam road or smth. he brought us dinner. have a nice little chats over the dinner. keep saying thos who dun take mutton are not good gal. grrs! seriously, i dun lyk it mahs. so they keep bullying me. talk to mr koh about chalet stuff. and he's really objecting about tht. wth! tht's unfair. and we got a news tht we gonna stay in school from mon-fri everyday til 6pm? tht included our wed and fri. where we can do nth but shake legs. omg! tht's really hellish man! mr wall demand tht all of us have to turn up for spectrum. grrs! but well, i going anyway, not much complaints. it's quite fun with them ppl, and they always manage to gave me a smile after all the lame stuff i did. mr wall have been made crazy by me, cos i keep accidentally drop the food on the floor. and he was like go siao. haha. and keep saying wad we will all go under ms juli tan. most imptly, uncle wanna dye hair! hahahaha! uncle, you dye liao, still will become white lahs! -_-" hmm, i decided not to get apple strudel for him already, since i having a soar throat, i cant eat.. hmm get him the hair dye. ohwells, cool man! ok, decided. and this mr wall was like keep emphansis tht i'm the over incharge for flea market. so i have to target until 100 thousand i think for president challenge. crazy. haha.. 1000 cents. heh..

if target cant be reach, i have to top up on my own! humphs! tht's really for god sake, unfair. nysa and ida are both sick too. hais. see how poor thing we are. and uncle was nagging for agar agar. so poor rai's mum have to make for him.. hahahah.. =x just kidding. just realised, mr wall isnt tht bad as i think. he start to get normal now. wahahhas. like keep asking me shut up. ohwells, i have to start accepting the fact, it's time i shall shut up. hmm, being a long while eversince i go smoke and stuff. thanks to ppl who are around me. tell mr wall, i seem worthless. but well, not tht true after all. ppl loves me! hahax. mr wall called me early in the morning to tell me tht he cant turn up on fri from 7-9pm. dunno why, he wants to kept it low profile. so well, alright! argh! tml going kbox with them. i will die man.

hmm, got myself a super retro hairband. but look nice mahs. haha.. i love it, cos it's pink. mr wall have been saying about stuff he loves t o eat. oh, i dun give a damn. hmm, decided to called sam when i'm in the car. he said he dun feel like doing it. just hope he will do eventually. cos i want everything good for him. heh heh.. mr wall say sam is being touched by me.. are you sure? doubt so. hais, so upset.. but mr wall say i perserver wad. hope so.

so everything ended well, with mr wall sending each of us home. haha. keep fan him about the chalet. and he say i am nagging! ohwell, i knew i am not being appreciated again. =( so he say i can just dun give a damn about him and go ahead with wad i wanna do. he knew i wun. haha.. and i have to promise him to finish two math paper on the 1st, 2nd, 3rd of sept before we are allow to go. hais. godpa, tht's unfair! ;( i wannnnnaaaa go lah! you kuku! haha..

so, about to finish my r4 paper1. i usually can used up 2 days to finish 1 whole set of paper. but seem like i am slacking. haha. shall bring my five year series to bbq to lend it to saiful. cool cool cool! just hope i will be better tht day. hmm, i know how to sing my cantonese song, nice! and my pronoucation is not tht bad. but when i tell godpa, he was like.. dun come bullshit with me! oh fine, nowadays, teachers are horrible, especially mr wall! hahahah.. so kind of mention mr ong, not me but joachim! he mention it and godpa was like argh, dun say! heh heh.. he cant reveal who he dislike. i wun ask him either. congrats, there's amath on sat 730-1230. HAHAHAH! i am so envious of you ppl! wahahas. i will disturb them by sending all amath students a sms every hr. telling them wad i am doing and i am relaxing i think. haha. the news of staying back everyday til 6pm is really super duper horrible. i hate it! i wanna have a day off!

well, mr wall isnt tht bad. mr ong is nice too. mr lee sc is funny. hais.. why are teachers full of this jealousy. haha.. hais, there's no one tht can be trusted in GR! seriously, no one. hais. godpa say i cant kept his sercret. grrs. ohwells, wadever. booohhoooo! =( hmm, tml will be staying overnight at rach hse and godpa claim tht i cant play mahjong, i will show you my dear! haha.. you gonna be kill til flat flat by me. heh.. omg, i am really worry about my voice. it sucks. and i wanna be alright so i can go for bbq with super hyperness.

heh.. ppl around me are really going crazy. but i love them so much. 4e3, they are really my life. ohh, put tattoo on my hand and got a scolding from godpa. wahahs.. he was like keep pointing at my tattoo asking wad is tht. so obvious, still must ask ahs? LOLS! so it suppose to be cleared off on friday. haha. and no one are allowed to come with tinted hair. wad the hell, so disturbing. i will nag lah, and godpa say i was to ensure it. how? you teach me loh!

hmm, may everything end well with godpa and myself as well as joachim. hais, it distant but i am confident we will be alright soon. feel like catching a movie. haha.. so sian 1/2. hmm, look at the time, i need to meet them tml again. sigh! tht's isnt any great news about it i think. hmm, there physics. godpa knew i wun be turning up. haha.. but hack lah, i dun feel lyk going. ohhh, told him about mrs lim stuff. hais, i didnt led. he always say i led. i didnt lah, you ass. haha.. =x shalala, life nowdays are really stressful. and i start to dislike it. i love the time in sec1&2, it really super NICE!

ohh, just hang up the phone with ying, and talk about cambodia. the 10days, little happenings. tht really brought a smile to both of us i guess. godpa gonna go on this nov. hais, if i can i wanan go too. but tht's no paper on the 15th nov but there's one on the 17th! ahaha.. wadever lahs, so irritating. and tht blardy phone of mine, i will dump it one day, grrs! so, i really miss makara. hais, sucks man! why are we so far apart. keep urging mr wall to bring her over to spore. doubt he will.. hahaha.. well, my godpa rawks! ;)

2006-06-20T22:07:00.000+08:00

today, early in the morning, mr wall gave me a called.. so disturbing.. early in the morning some more.. =) i was like keep hmm.. erm.. orh.. i'm super duper tired, cos i went to watch tokyo juliet til 3am.. heh heh.. den mr wall call me at around 7 or 8 bahs. keep asking me to wake up and say the food i order is enough for his wedding.. wth.. it always dun pay to be unkind. humphs. irritating. LOLS!

so guess, too much food and stuff.. he gonna cut down everything. tml i going to shengsiong with mr wall and committte members.. shiat loh.. hais! YUPS! there's art fiesta meeting tml.. so looking forward. heh heh.. first time in my life, so looking forward to meeting bahs! yipppeeeee! den followed by going out to meet peeps den heading to sheng siong to buy the bbq stuff.. hmm, tey are ahving soccer match tml.. wished min and ying good luck.

tried to tell mr wall i notice the little slight change in him towards us. i dunno if i am doing the right thing. but i felt so scare and worry of meeting him. instead when i meet mr lee and ppl, i was so excited loh. haha.. dunno wad the hell happening to mr wall.. but if this continues, i worry, all of us will become distant with him.. =) but no doubt, i will respect and love him as my godpa.

going to start revision4 soon. i will do it and friday will be playing the whole day. can play mahjong. finally.. so cool! wahahhas.. going rachie hse to ton overnight on thurs and see how on friday. hmm, alright.. i gtg soon.. must do hmwk and watch england match. tht rawks. but sometime i dunno why, mr wall seem to dislike me alot. hais. gimme time, i might change him? i dunno.. may tht day be really fun. and mr wall will change back bahs. x(

hmm, buy some prizes for the game which is so super lame! i wanna get my invisible pen from rach.. wahahs.. not only harold have. i have it too! wahhahahsa! so long eversince i start contacting my jies.. see how.. no doubt, i miss you. tkc ppl! ;)

2006-06-19T22:25:00.000+08:00

hais, i am not feeling tht nice either now. been a fakey the whole day, this is really the first time i'm not looking forward to math, dun wished to see him or rather, can shun him how long, i will do it. i dunno why i am feeling like this right now. or even, early in the morning. keep telling myself, i shld go since i promise him. tht's really the first time in my whole life i got this dumb feelings of not going to school to clear everything with him. to have some lame jokes or a little chats with him. no, none of these things appeared in my mind. i just wish i didnt think of all this stuff right now. but i am.. i start to feel fear and phobia of meeting him, i start to drag my feets to school to meet him, i began to think of everything he done.. i dunno why, i am feeling that loss and do-not-know- wad to do rite now. but still, my feet eventually reached greenridge secondary school. and it walk to the animal farm and decided to sit down to clear emath. my mind isnt tht focus at all. i was like keep chewing on my anciet time tibits. i didnt even want to look straight into his eyes. i dunno why, but guss i felt more distant with him after today.

there's no jokes, no chats just simply math. this isnt the usual lesson our mr koh will conduct. the revision or clearing stuff will always led to random things and chat. but there's none today. i felt a sense of cold in him, like between us, there's no friends this word exsit only teacher-student. nothing is the same like last time. yup, he did smile but to cheryl and ppl who are clearing amath. why? why do the few of us meant nothing to you? otr maybe from the start we already like that? he got yongwei to shut up, me of no more jokes. is tht wad he want? a serious peiching, yongwei, meiling, linjia, racheal, nicholas. i already tried my best not to think of the airport incident. i admit, i am stupid.. but why made me feel like tht? i hate the godpa now.. i dun wished he's my so called godpa. cos, last time my godpa isnt like tht.. he will never ask me stop joking to be serious. i dunno.. i just felt so not close with him since he's back. i do not know why.. cos of mr ong? mayb bahs. no comments. and seriously i do not wish to quarrel with you. i have god damn enough. thanks.

didnt talk tht much to him during math today. cos nothing to talk or rather he dun appreciate my talk. i dunno how to explain the feelings. but if you were me, you will know why i am feeling upset more than angry now. i'm not fit to be your listening ear. all along, i am just living in my own little world about all this stupid stuff. cos from the start, you dun really care whether i am there anot. if i do made a different anot. so have a little chats with yongwei instead and i insist tht he changed. perhaps like yw say, i'm being too sensitive? be it, i dun give a damn about it anymore. and i seriously hope that this is only a time being feelings. and everything will be fine. but guess, it's not tht easy. why choose to keep me from what exactly happen between you and mr ong. but let me know about this matter exsit? i'm so worry and so confused but i cant tell my two good listener. you and mr ong.. den wad you expect me to do mister. sit there and seeing you so irritated and made me feel tht you at least have the little hatred in me? why? i feel like, i am then msging a wall. a super big piece of wall, talking to this big big wall there dun give a fukking damn about me. made me felt tht i am doing everything in vain. you know how i am feelling now? can you be abit more fair? do i seriously deserve this treatment? the coldness from you? i dun think so ok.. i didnt do anything tht offended you apart from tht mr ong incident. i dunno, mayb you are just something the possessed in this mr koh. be it, cos i really felt so numb, i dun wish to comment about anything you do to me anymore. thanks. ;) so this lousy, idiotic, dumbass lesson ended at least, in the minimum a smile from me to him, and him to us. i dun enjoy his companion but instead i enjoy being with yongwei.. heh heh.. thanks niang niang!

well, no more say about him. cos he will never read or feel anything wrong about me. cos i am just there wad. he can just ignore or just take a look cos to him, i will forever be there. no change at all. so, maybe one day, i will disappear and hope you will not regrets. dun ever compared me with anyone tht's in your mind right now. hais. cos wadever i have done, are never good enuff for you. but sometime, i really wonder, where this mr koh are right now? the one tht will enjoy the droppers company. the one tht will laugh and cheer us up? the one tht will talk to you when you feeling down? the one tht you really treasure and respect like your own dad? where's he? or perhaps, he just stay in the dream of me and joachim? i dunno. i have enuff of your no replying and your all sort of idiotic excuses and scolding tht i dun even know what the hell happen. my consideration to you ppl are nothing but a piece of shiat. thank ya!

hmm, early in the morning, i went to meet ying and min. got so much chatting with them and enjoy being with them so much tht i really dun wished to leave for math. cos i know it will never worth it. but eventually, jon and ying send me to the lrt station and off i went to meet rach. but ying and min.. i love you ppl. =) so have lunch with niang niang and rach. until now, i haven eat yet. was too angry to eat anything or rather upset is a better word? so went back to greenridge when no one gave a damn about me.. then followed by went to sell ice cream with meiling and yongwei. so boring.. hmm, but i just tagged along, i dun consider myself as working.. lols. so just reached home and gonna do some bbq stuff before i sleep and stuff.

msg this super big peice of wall and there's no reply. i knew he dun give a damn and surely will be thinking i am joking again. but like what you say, mr wall, there's a limit to everything. heading to beauty world tml, cos i got to buy cloth for the bbq and stuff and games. most impt, apple strudel! i have to go order it.. hmm, wadever. so mr wall eventually didnt reply. since he choose to be like this den see how bahs. i wil ljust order wadever i like. ok? since, you dun give me a damn den why shld i worry for your wallet? lols, but of cos, i am not tht evil.. depend on my mood lahs. i have a anough of how ppl took me for granted.

ohh, i went to find jacq just now. at plaza, she help me put eye shadow and paint my finger nails. cos she work there mahs, den got tester. she's so super nice. she's one of the band seniors and she is so funny loh. so cute looking somemore. heh heh.. den shes going back to band camp this friday. yeahs! den she promised to teach me and meiling how to make-up. :P

hmm, thts all for today. mr wall.. eventually, you won. cos i am too soft hearted unlike you. maybe wad they say is true, you will only start to cherish something after it's gone. hope this apply to you too. mrs lim ask how am i after i treated her like this. kind of guilty. cos i am a human.. i have heart. i'm sry loh. hais! tkc..

2006-06-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

hmm, nothing better to do, come and blog again. didnt feel like wanna talk or do anything so buried myself under cherry book til just now.. hmm, manage to complete most of it, and i began to like sin rule, cos rule.. heh heh.. cool man! the feelings after sloving it. =)

just got a warning from mr koh about some blah blah stuff.. he always think i am joking. during the days he's in aust, i have msged with mr ong. so suddenly ask him if its ok he teach me some question. so this deal is in tml. but i am considerate enough to think for mr koh tht he will surely feel hurt if i do tht. so i told mr ong, i wil lsee how tml and if i can, i will go and find him.. so smsed mr koh, ask if tml he's in school but he is having meeting. so i just asked him if he's too bz one day, can i go look for mr ong for help? i got a warning or rather sound more like scolding from him.. and this time, he again thought i am joking.. so he replied somewhat like angry but cant really shout at me tht kind. i dunno wad to say or do, but this is the first time, he's seriously angry at me. so, be it. i didnt reply eventually.. cos i know i will scream at him in the end. why must he always think i am joking? seriously, i am not. i am saying if.. and he replied, warning and ask me better stop it. so, imagine how i am feeling right now? sigh. i think i better not tell rach or shirely, they will dislike him more. i know, ppl start saying i am stupid. i dun deny. perhaps bah.. i look on the bright side already.

he say he's hurt and how about me? the way he smsed made me feel so sucky right now. but the same thing will happen.. he thinks i will not feel hurt cos i am joking. yah, it's all my fault. i am not tht understanding enough.. i am not tht nice to anyone. i am insensitive.. i made you feel hurt.. i bring nothing but trouble to you. i know, everything you say, i know.. it again, i start this problem.. and history will again repeat. do i really treasure mr ong more than you? i am really stupid, i am nothing to you ppl, den what for you will care whether who matter most. perhaps, the pride bahs.

my phone rang currently, i am stupid enough to think he send me another sms, how can tht ever happen? he will never do tht.. cos i know he's angry.. i dunno.. perhaps, i shall just kept my mouth shut.. wadever i say or do is always wrong. den forget it. i guess, i wun say anything bahs.. it deprived me again on going for the shengsiong trip. hais. wad else can be done.. days later, we will be alright? i dunno.. i cant tell mr ong, cos it got sumthing to do with him.. i do not wished to hurt mr ong. hais.. he is really nice to me..

" warning.. do not play any more jokes on this with me anymore. you do not know wad happen and you do not wanna to know. i am seeing kailing and cheryl at 2 for amath.. sometime joke aside.. when one is hurt deeply, nothing can be help." once again, it's my fault. hais.. maybe bahs.

i already felt so nothing already. cos tis isnt the first time he hurt me again. i am not joking.. i am seriously asking you a question. wad if is dai nan or sng asking you? will you scold them or rather beilin? will you really give them a piece of your mind? you wontt and i know you too well, you never bear to.. isnt it true? =)

feeling so loss and dunno wad to do right now. and i promise to meet them tml for bball.. but well, i am not playing.. sigh.. be it bahs.. kind of really hurt.. it's the first time, you do tht.. but i will get used.

nothing more to tell you, cos i am really feeling loss.